BuffyYeah, that's it.
The Rwasundi. Very rare. It's presence in our dimension causes a sort of... localized temporal disturbance.
Buffy
So, that's why time went all David Lynch?
Right. Human perception is based on a linear chronology. Being exposed to the Rwasundi for more than a few seconds, can cause vivid hallucinations and a slight tingly scalp.
So, that's it. These things just made you think you killed her.
She was probably dead long before you stumbled across her.
Buffy
It wasn't the demon. It was Warren. He knew Katrina. He had something to do with it, I know it.
Buffy
You always hurt the one you love.
Does this mean you're not going away?
Buffy
Yeah. I'm not going anywhere. We need to find Warren and the others. Whatever they've done, they're not gonna get away with it.
Buffy
Are you sure?
I've double-checked everything. There's nothing wrong with you.
Buffy
Then why can Spike hurt me?
Well, I-I said that there was nothing wrong with you, but you are different. Shifting you out of, fr-from where you were, funneling your essence back into your body, it altered you on a basic, molecular level, probably just enough to confuse the sensors or whatever in Spike's chip, but it's all just surfacey, physical stuff. It would have anymore effect than a bad sunburn.
Buffy
I didn't come back wrong?
No, you're the same Buffy, with a deep, tropical cellular tan.
Buffy
You must've missed something. Will you check again?
Buffy, I-I promise. There's nothing wrong with you.
Buffy
There has to be. This just can't be me. It isn't me. [starting to cry] Why do I feel like this? Why do I let Spike do those things to me?
[Buffy meets Tara's eyes, but only for a moment, then looks away. Tara frowns as the realization dawns on her]
[awkwardly] Oh. Oh, huh... really.
Buffy
He's everything I hate. He's everything that, I'm supposed to be against, but the only time that I ever feel anything is when... Don't tell anyone, please.
Buffy
[crying] Oh, the way they would look at me... I just couldn't...
I won't tell anyone. I wouldn't do that.
Buffy
Why can't I stop? Why do I keep letting him in?
Do you love him? I-It's okay if you do. He's done a lot of good, and, and he does love you. A-and, Buffy, it's okay if you don't. You're going through a really hard time, and you're...
Buffy
What? Using him? What's okay about that?
Buffy
It is. It's wrong. I'm wrong. Tell me that I'm wrong, please. [starts sobbing] Please don't forgive me. Please! God, please don't. [sobbing] Please don't forgive me! Please don't!
[She slides off the table onto the floor, kneeling, putting her head in Tara's lap. Tara looks uncertain but puts her hands comfortingly on Buffy's head]
Buffy
Dawn?
Buffy
Did you do something?
Do you know something? 'Cause we want you to feel like you can tell us.
Look, we're not accusing you of anything. It's just, you were kind of taking it personal down there.
Oh, okay. So you've all just decided that somehow I'm responsible. Great. Here's me basking in the love.
No, it's just, you know, you're upset 'cause we all want to leave. But now we can't leave. Only thing missing is a cornfield. There-- There isn't a cornfield, is there?
Buffy
Dawn, it's okay. You know, we're not gonna be mad.
Yeah, only I didn't do anything.
You want me to ask my other self?
Buffy
Dawn, we're just trying to figure out what's going on.
Figure it out yourself. I'm done being talked to like a kid.
Well, 'cause you know, sometimes we do something that seems like a good idea at the same time, like, say, invoke the power of a musical amulet. And it turns out, you know, not so much.
God! I didn't do anything! I wish I had. I'm glad you're trapped. How else can I get anybody to spend any time with me?
Buffy
Dawn, if you want us to spend time with you--
I don't. Get out. Get out! Get out! Get out!
[Buffy's former flame Riley has returned to Sunnydale with a wife.]
Just so you know, I'm prepared to hate this woman any way you want.
Buffy
Thanks, but no. I don't wanna seem all petty.
Well, that's the beauty. You can't, but I can. Please. Let me carry the hate for the both of us.
Buffy
Go nuts.
You want me to say I like seeing you in bed with that idiot? Or that blinding orange is your very best color? Or that that burger smell is appealing?
Buffy
You smelled the smell?
Buffy, none of that means anything, it doesn't touch you. You're still the first woman I ever loved and the strongest woman I've ever known. And, I'm not advertising this to the missus, but you're still quite the hottie.
Buffy
You know, it goes away after many bathings.
Buffy
Then I was like... No, it wasn't like, I was in an institution. There were, um, doctors, and nurses and other patients, they told me that I was sick... I guess crazy. And that, um, Sunnydale and all of this, none of it was real.
Oh, come on, that's ridiculous! What, you think this isn't real just because of all the vampires, and demons, and ex-vengeance demons, and the sister that used to be a big ball of universe-destroying energy?
[Buffy is an inpatient in a psychiatric ward in an "alternate reality" LA. Hank and Joyce Summers, still married, are sitting with Buffy as they consult with her psychiatrist.]
Buffy
[sobbing] Dawn...
PPsychiatrist
The sister. She was introduced last year. It didn't make a lot of sense though, did it Buffy? She altered the fabric of her reality drastically. (meta-commenting on how the abrupt introduction of Dawn altered the entire series)
Buffy
You tell them if you want. Go ahead. Rock the boat. Rock and roll it the hell over. My friends and I'll still be groovin' with the movin'. [She stakes the first vamp] Know why? I tried to kill my friends, my sister, last week and guess how much they hate me now? Zero. Zero much. So I'm thinking, sleeping with you... They'll deal.
In that case why won't you sleep with me again?
[The second vamp looks at Spike with a confused expression on his face. Buffy stakes him]
Buffy
[walking away] Because I don't love you
Buffy
Xander, what I do with my personal life is none of your business.
Buffy
It just happened, okay?
Oh, like, uh, "Say, you're evil. Get on me"?
Buffy
You fought side by side with him when I was gone. You let him take care of Dawn.
But I never forgot what he really is. God, what were you thinking?
I'm talking. The pain will be unbearable, but you won't be able to move... A bullet usually travels faster than this, of course. But the dying? It seems like it takes forever. Something, isn't it? One tiny piece of metal destroys everything. It ripped her insides out... It took her light away. From me. From the world... And now the one person who should be here is gone - and a waste like you gets to live. A tiny piece of metal. Can you feel it now?
I said - can you feel it? [Willow unravels the stitches.]
Please, God... I did wrong, I see that now. I need... jail! I need... But you - you don't want this. You're not a bad person. Not like me-
Buffy
[calling out in the distance] Willow!
When you get caught - you'll lose them too. Your friends. You don't want that. I know you're in pain but-
[Willow magically flays Warren, just as Buffy and Xander reach her.] Bored now.
Buffy
What did you do? Willow, what did you do?
[setting Warren's body aflame] One down. [then vanishing]
Buffy the Vampire Slayer · 894 quotes
