The last time I looked in on you two, you were fighting to the death. Now you're back to making googly-eyes at each other like nothing happened. Makes me want to heave.
I don't know what you're talking about.
Oh, yeah, you're just friends.
AngelThat's right.
You're not friends. You'll never be friends. You'll be in love 'til it kills you both. You'll fight, and you'll shag, and you'll hate each other 'til it makes you quiver, but you'll never be friends. Love isn't brains, children, it's blood -- blood screaming inside you to work its will. I may be love's bitch, but at least I'm man enough to admit it.
Angel
I can't do it again Buffy. I can't become a killer.
Angel
It's too hard.
Angel please, you have to get inside!
Angel
It told me to kill you. You were in the dream, you know. It told me to lose my soul in you and become a monster again.
I know what it told you, what does it matter?
Angel
[yelling] Because I wanted to! Because I want you so badly! I want to take comfort in you. And I know it will cost me my soul, and a part of me doesn't care. I'm weak. It's not the demon that needs killing in me, Buffy. It's the man. Am I a thing worth saving, huh? Am I a righteous man? The world wants me gone!
What about me? I love you so much, and I tried to make you go away. I killed you and it didn't help. And I hate it! I hate that it's so hard... and that you can hurt me so much. I know everything that you did, because you did it to me. Oh, God! I wish that I wished you dead. I don't. [whispers] I can't.
Angel
Buffy, please. Just this once, let me be strong.
Strong is fighting! It's hard, and it's painful, and it's every day. It's what we have to do. And we can do it together. But if you're too much of a coward for that, then burn. If I can't convince you that you belong in this world, then I don't know what can. But do not expect me to watch. And don't expect me to mourn for you, because ... [Snow falls, blocking the sunlight.]
[The First Evil torments Angel, taking on the forms of people he killed as Angelus]
[as Travis, a man that Angelus killed along with his sons] The thing I remember most was thinking how artful it was. In the dark, they looked just like they were sleeping. It wasn't until I bent down and kissed them good night that I felt how cold they were. You grabbed me, and I thought: who would go to so much trouble to arrange them like that? [turns into Margaret, a servant girl] But you see, that's what makes you different than other beasts. They kill to feed, but you took more kinds of pleasure in it than any creature that walks or crawls.
Angel
Oh, God...!
[mimicking him when he killed Margaret] Yeah, cry out. Make a scene.
[Angel tries to escape, but runs into the First in the form of Daniel, an Irish man he killed]
I was to be married that week. But then, as I recall, you knew that.
Angel
It wasn't me!
[turns into Jenny Calendar] It wasn't you?
Angel
A demon isn't a man. I was a man once--
Oh, yes. And what a man you were. [turns into Margaret] A drunken, whoring layabout, and a terrible disappointment to your parents.
Angel
I was young. I never had a chance to--
To die of syphilis? You were a worthless being before you were ever a monster.
Angel
I bet half the kids down there are already awake. Lying in their beds. Sneaking downstairs. Waiting for day.
Angel, please. I need you to get inside. There's only a few minutes left.
Angel
I know. I can smell the sunrise long before it comes.
I don't have time to explain this. You just have to trust me. That thing that was haunting you--
Angel
It wasn't haunting me. It was showing me.
Angel
What I am.
Angel
And ever shall be. I wanted to know why I was back. Now I do.
You don't know. Some great evil takes credit for bringing you back and you buy it? You just give up?
Angel
I can't do it again, Buffy. I can't become a killer.
Angel
It's too hard. Mm-mmm.
Angel, please, you have to get inside.
Angel
It told me to kill you. You were in the dream, you know. It told me to lose my soul in you and become a monster again.
I know what it told you, what does it matter?
Angel
[yelling] Because I wanted to! Because I want you so badly. I want to take comfort in you, and I know it'll cost me my soul, and a part of me doesn't care. Look, I'm weak. I've never been anything else. It's not the demon that needs killing, Buffy. It's the man.
You're weak. Everybody is. Everybody fails. Maybe this evil did bring you back, but if it did, it's because it needs you. And that means you can hurt it. Angel, you have the power to do real good, to make amends. But if you die now, then all that you ever were was a monster. [Angel does not respond] Angel, please, the sun is coming up.
Angel
Just go.
Angel
Do you think this is simple? You think there's an easy answer? You can never understand what I've done. Now go.
You are not staying here. I won't let you!
Angel
I said leave! Oh, my God.
Angel
[they struggle] Am I a thing worth saving, huh? Am I a righteous man? The world wants me gone.
What about me? I love you so much. And I tried to make you go away. I killed you and it didn't help. And I hate it! I hate that it's so hard. And that you can hurt me so much. I know everything that you did, because you did it to me. Oh, God. I wish that I wished you dead. I don't. [whispers] I can't.
Angel
Buffy, please. Just this once. Let me be strong.
Strong is fighting. It's hard, and it's painful, and it's every day. It's what we have to do. And we can do it together. But if you're too much of a coward for that, then burn. If I can't convince you that you belong in this world, then I don't know what can. But do not expect me to watch. And don't expect me to mourn for you, because--
[Snow falls, blocking the sunlight.]
[Angel finds Buffy during patrol.]
Angel
I'm all right. I think I'm better than you right now. [indicates playground shrine] I heard about this. People are talking. People are even talking to me.
It's strange. People die in Sunnydale all the time. I've never seen anything like this.
Angel
They were children. Innocent. It makes a difference.
And Mr. Sanderson from the bank had it coming? My mom said some things to me about being the Slayer. That it's fruitless. No fruit for Buffy.
Angel
She's wrong.
Is she? Is Sunnydale any better than when I first came here? Okay, so I battle evil. But I don't really win. The bad just keeps coming back... and getting stronger. Like the kid in the story, the boy that stuck his finger in the duck.
Angel
Dike. [Buffy looks at him.] It's another word for dam.
Oh. Okay, that story makes a lot more sense now.
Angel
Buffy, you know there's still things I'm trying to figure out. There's a lot I don't understand. But I do know it's important to keep fighting. I learned that from you.
Angel
We never win.
Angel
Never will. That's not why we fight. We do it because there's things worth fighting for.
[Angel gives Buffy a book for her birthday.]
It's sweet and thoughtful, and full of neat words to learn and say like "wilt" and "henceforth."
Angel
Then why'd you seem more excited last year when you got a severed arm in a box?
I'm sorry ... it's just, suddenly there's a chance that my calling's a wrong number ... it's just freaking me out a little.
Before I was the Slayer I was ... Well, I- I don't wanna say shallow, but let's say a certain person, who will remain nameless, we'll just call her "Spordelia," looked like a classical philosopher next to me. Angel, if I'm not the slayer, what do I do? What do I have to offer? Why would you like me?
Angel
I saw you before you became the slayer.
Angel
I watched you, I saw you called, it was a bright afternoon out in front of your school. You walked down the steps and ... I loved you.
Angel
Because I could see your heart. You held it before you for everyone to see, and I was worried that it would get bruised or torn. And more than anything in my life, I wanted to keep it safe. To warm it with my own.
That's beautiful ... Or, taken literally, incredibly gross.
Angel
I was just thinking that too.
[after Buffy begins to hear people's thoughts]
Angel
And Buffy, be careful with this gift. A lot of things that seem strong and good and powerful, they can be painful.
Like, say... immortality?
Angel
Exactly. I'm dying to get rid of that.
Angel
[deadpan] I'm a funny guy.
[Buffy and Angel are hunting vampires in a cemetery at night.]
So this is our future? This is how we're going to spend our nights when I'm fifty and you're... the same age you are now?
[A vampire growls behind them.]
Angel
Let's just get you to fifty.
[Buffy and Angel are in the sewers looking for a vampire]
I always say patrol's not complete without a trip to the stinky sewers.
Angel
I'm sure I saw him come down here.
Couldn't we just let this be the vamp that got away? We could say he was this big. [Holds hands apart to indicate size]
I personally don't think it's possible to come up with a crazier plan.
We attack the Mayor with hummus.
Just keeping things in perspective.
...
My point however is, crazy or not, it's pretty much the only plan. Besides, it's Buffy's, and she's Slay Gal, you know, Little Miss Likes-to-fight. So...
I think there was a 'yea' vote buried in there somewhere.
...
Angel
Well, he's not crazy about germs.
Of course. That's it! We'll attack him with germs!
Great! We'll get him cornered, and then you can sneeze on him.
No! No. We'll get a container of Ebola virus, and... and, um... or -- it doesn't even have to be real. We could just get a box that says "Ebola" on it, and, um... [snaps her fingers] chase him. [everyone is silent] ...With the box.
I'm starting to lean towards the hummus offensive.
He'll never see it coming.
Angel
Hi. Can I come in?
Angel
Um, I need a little more than that.
Oh. Um... come in. You're hurt.
Angel
You, too.
I'll live. You want to tell me who ran your face into that doorknob?
Angel
Not really. It's not world-in-peril stuff.
Let me guess. You thought of something else really hurtful to say, and, well, you couldn't tell me on the phone because the funniest part is that look on my face--
Angel
Buffy, please. I really don't have a lot of time.
I told you, you weren't coming near her.
You've got to be kidding me. This is why you came?
Angel
No. This was an accident.
Running your car into a tree is an accident! Running your fist into somebody's face is a plan. Please explain this to me.
Angel
Put that gun down.
It's pretty much all I got left, so I'm thinking not. He attacked four of my men, Buffy. I think he's up to his old tricks.
He won't hurt anybody, tell him.
Angel
Might hurt you.
Angel
Huh. Some threat. You can barely stand.
My trigger finger feels okay.
Angel
You actually sleep with this guy?
Okay, stop it! Okay, that is enough. I see one more display of testosterone poisoning, and I will personally put you both in the hospital. Anybody think I'm exaggerating?
Angel
He start--
I'm sorry. Just want to know that you were safe.
I need to talk to Angel for a minute.
I'm not leaving this room. I mean it. Not moving a muscle.
Okay, I come to see you, to help you, and you treat me like I'm just... your ex.
Angel
Well, technically--
Shut up! And then you order me out of your city, and then you come here and start pounding on my boyfriend? I would really like to know, what the hell are you trying to do?
Angel
I was trying to make things better.
Angel
[chuckles] Well... [laughs] Aw, well. Huh. It's, uh, going pretty good, don't you think?
Angel
You know... [chuckles] I couldn't leave it like that. The way I spoke to you... I came to apologize. I... I had no right.
Angel
I got jumped by some soldiers. He came in in the middle. And he wasn't real forthcoming with the benefit of the doubt.
Put yourself in his place.
Angel
I get it.
Look, you weren't entirely wrong, what you said in L.A. We don't live in each other's worlds anymore. I had no right to barge in on yours and make judgments.
Angel
I'm still sorry.
Angel
And next time, I'll apologize by phone.
Angel
Uh, things are pretty tense around here.
Angel
Can I do anything?
Honestly, I think the best thing you can do right now is--
Angel
Okay.
It means a lot that you came.
Angel
Oh, and, Riley?
Angel
I don't like him.
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