BuffyThe funeral was... It was brutal. But it's tomorrow that I'm worried about.
Buffy
That's exactly what I don't know. Up until now, I've had a road map, things to do every minute, having to do with Mom.
Tomorrow, the stuff of everyday living resumes.
Buffy
And everybody expects me to know how to do it, because I'm so strong.
You just need sometime. I'm sure everybody understands that.
Buffy
Time's not the issue. I can stick wood in vampires, but Mom was the strong one in real life. She always knew how to make things better, just what to say.
You'll find your way. I mean, not all at once, but...
Buffy
I don't know. I keep thinking about it, when I found her. If I had just gotten there 10 minutes earlier.
You said they told you it wouldn't have made a difference.
Buffy
They said probably wouldn't have made a difference. The exact thing they said was "probably." I haven't told that to anyone.
Doesn't make it your fault. Couldn't have done anything different.
Buffy
I didn't even start C.P.R. until they told me. I fell apart. That's how good I am at being a grown-up.
Buffy
And it'd be okay if it was just me I had to worry about, but Dawn--
Look, it's okay. You don't feel like it now, but you are strong, Buffy. You're gonna figure this out, and you have people to help you. You don't have to do this alone.
Buffy
It's gonna be light soon.
I can stay in town as long as you want me.
Buffy
How's forever? Does forever work for you? That's a bad idea. I'm seriously needy right now.
Let me worry about the neediness. I can handle it.
Buffy
I told you. You better go.
Buffy
No. I'm so grateful that you came, Angel. I didn't think I was gonna be able to make it through the night.
We still have a few more minutes until I have to go.
Buffy
Good. Good.
Buffy
[about a ritual] So, how's it start?
I, uh, jump out of the circle and I jump back in it and then um, I shake my gourd.
Buffy
I know this ritual! The ancient shamans were next called upon to do the hokey pokey and turn themselves around!
[affecting annoyance] Go quest.
...
[Giles sighs, then reluctantly jumps out of the circle, jumps back in, and shakes his gourd.]
Buffy
And that's what it's all about.
Quite extraordinary, really.
Thank you. But I really think we should be listening to the other Buffy, Guiles. [She pronounces it with a hard G, like "guy."] She's very smart and she's gonna help us save Spike.
"Guiles?!" [turns to address the real Buffy] Spike didn't even bother to program my name properly!
Buffy
[to the Buffybot] Listen, skirt girl, we're not going to save him. We're going to kill him. He knows who the Key is, and there's no way he's not telling Glory.
You're right. He's evil. But you should see him naked! I mean really!
Buffy
[impersonating the Buffybot] Why did you let that Glory hurt you?
She wanted to know who the Key was.
Buffy
Well, I can tell her, and then you...
No! You can't ever. Glory never finds out.
Buffy
Why?
Cause Buffy, the other, not-so-pleasant Buffy... Anything happened to Dawn, it'd destroy her. I couldn't live, her bein' in that much pain. I'd let Glory kill me first. Nearly bloody did.
[Buffy kisses Spike]
Buffy
The robot is gone. The robot was gross and obscene.
Buffy
Don't. That thing, it wasn't even real. What you did for me and Dawn... that was real. I won't forget it.
So you're saying that a powerful and mightily pissed off witch was planning on going and spilling herself a few pints of God blood until you, what, explained?
Buffy
No, I told Willow it would be like suicide.
I'd do it. Right person, person I loved, I'd do it.
Buffy
This is how many apocalypses for us now?
Oh, uh, six at least. Feels like a hundred.
Buffy
I've always beaten them. Always won.
Buffy
I sacrificed Angel to save the world. I loved him so much, but I knew what was right. I don't have that anymore. I don't understand. I don't know how to live in this world, if these are the choices, if everything just gets stripped away. I don't see the point. I just wish- I just wish my mom was here.
Buffy
Weapons are by the TV. I'll grab the stuff upstairs.
Buffy... If you wanna just hand them over the threshold...
Buffy
Come in, Spike.
Presto. No barrier. I won't bother with the small stuff. Couple of good axes should hold off Glory's mates while you take on the lady herself.
Buffy
We're not all gonna make it. You know that?
Yeah. Always knew I'd go down fightin'.
Buffy
I'm counting on you to protect her.
Till the end of the world. Even if that happens to be tonight.
Buffy
I'll be a minute.
I know you'll never love me. I know that I'm a monster. But you treat me like a man. And that's...Get your stuff. I'll be here
Buffy
We on schedule?
Buffy
Will?
Tara, baby? Is there somewhere you should be?
No one's holding you. It's the big day, right? Do you wanna go?
[pauses on the way to the door, points at Giles] You're a killer. [Quieter] This is all set down. [continues towards the door]
Buffy
[to Willow] Stay close but don't crowd her. We'll follow in a minute. [to the rest of the gang] Hey, everybody knows their jobs. Remember, the ritual starts - we all die. And I'll kill anyone who comes near Dawn. [leaves]
Well, not exactly the St Crispin's Day speech, was it?
Buffy
Dawnie, I had to.
Buffy? Buffy. Buffy. How-- Is it you? I mean, really? What are you-- No! Don't! Don't jump, Buffy. Don't move! Just walk to me. Please! Please? I'm your sister, Dawn. We were up here together, and then, you went away. And you don't want to do that again. I don't know how you're back, but you are, and please, just stay still. [screams] Or-or move, but-but towards me, because the tower was built by crazy people and I don't think it's holding up very well. Talk to me. Say something!
Buffy
Is this hell?
Buffy
Is this hell?
No! Buffy, no! You're here... with me. Whatever happened to you, whatever you've been through, it's-it's over now. You're-- [screams] We have to get off of this tower!
Buffy
It was so clear... on this spot. I remember how... shiny... and clear everything was. But, now, now--
Buffy, please listen to me. You told me I had to be strong. And I've tried. But it's been so hard without you. I'm sorry. I promise I'll do better. I will... if you're with me. Stay with me, please! I need you to live. Live for-- [screams] Buffy!
Buffy
Dawn.
Buffy
Dawn!
[screams] Buffy? Buffy. You're-- You're-- You're really here. You're alive, and you're home. You're home.
I was going to go inside but I overheard you and the superfriends having a special moment and I came over a bit queasy. Say, aren't you leaving a hole in the middle of some soggy group hug?
Buffy
I just wanted a little time alone.
Oh, uh... Right then. [goes to leave]
Buffy
It's okay, I can be alone with you here.
Well, I haven't been to a hell dimension just of late, but I do know a thing or two about torment.
Buffy
[looking down] I was happy.
[Spike stares at her, confused and shocked]
Buffy
Wherever I ... was ... I was happy. At peace. I knew that everyone I cared about was all right. I knew it. Time ... didn't mean anything ... nothing had form ... but I was still me, you know? And I was warm ... and I was loved ... and I was finished. Complete. I don't understand about theology or dimensions, or ... any of it, really ... but I think I was in heaven. And now I'm not. [near tears] I was torn out of there. Pulled out ... by my friends. Everything here is ... hard, and bright, and violent. Everything I feel, everything I touch ... this is hell. Just getting through the next moment, and the one after that ... knowing what I've lost... [pause] They can never know. Never.
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