Rue Bennett quotes from Euphoria

Cassie

What if these are, like, the big moments in life? Like, my mom always talks about how high school was like this big, monumental part of her life. But I cannot imagine being 40 and looking back at this, like, "Wow."

Maddy

Yeah, but that's because most people peak in high school.

Kat

I definitely haven't peaked, so...

Lexi

I feel like I'm not even a person yet.

Cassie

Yeah, I'm definitely at, like, 25 percent peakness.

Jules

I feel like I'm at a hundred. But I can definitely get to 150.

Rue

Honestly, I never thought I'd make it this far.

Cassie

What do you mean?

Rue

I don't know. I just always had, like, this overwhelming anxiety that something bad would happen.

Maddy

In all fairness, last summer, there were, like, three weeks where I thought you were dead.

Jules

Okay, but she's been sober for, like, three months.

Maddy

[to Rue] Weren't you in rehab, like, six months ago?

Rue

Uh, yeah. [chuckles]

Rue

Why do I feel like you're the reason Fez's house got raided?

Nate

You know, sometimes when you do illegal shit... bad things happen to you.

Rue

You've never done anything illegal, Nate?

Nate

You talking about your friend Jules?

Rue

No, actually, I'm talking about your dad.

Nate

[beat; looks at Rue] I just wanna make sure you've given it some forethought. I know over the years you've lost some brain cells. I wouldn't want you to say something you might regret.

Rue

What are you gonna do? You gonna ruin my life? I fucking promise you I can do that a lot better than you can.

Nate

What do you want, Rue?

Rue

I want you to leave Fez alone. I want you to leave Jules alone. If you ever fuck with them again, I'll destroy your life. I'll destroy your dad's life. I'll fucking burn your whole shit to the ground. 'Cause I personally have no problem walking into any police station and telling them that Nate Jacobs' daddy... likes to fuck little kids.

Nate

...You look very pretty today. Are you sure that Jules told you everything? You know what I like about her? She has these very real dreams, and I seriously think that she's gonna achieve them. If you look at everyone inside, most of them are gonna go on to live these lives that aren't even fucking worth mentioning. Not Jules. What about you?

Rue

Honestly, I don't really give a fuck.

Nate

Yeah, I gathered that. That's probably why you're spending all your time with someone who's gonna leave you and won't even remember who the fuck you are in ten years. [pause] I really meant what I said. You, uh... You look really beautiful.

Rue

I fucking hate this town.

Jules

If I could, I'd burn it to the fucking ground.

Rue

And salt the earth behind you. [beat] Jules, are you in love with Anna?

Jules

[pause; nods] Yeah.

Rue

Are you, um... Are you in love with me?

Jules

... [nods again] Yeah.

Rue

Do you wish I was different? [pause; Jules shakes her head] Let's get the fuck out of here. Come on.

Rue

Jules... Is this a bad idea?

Jules

[gets up] No.

Rue

[beat; quietly] What the fuck?

Rue

Jules, I just realized that I didn't bring my medication.

Jules

We can get medication, like, everywhere.

Rue

Yeah, but I don't think it's–You know, I can't miss a day, you know?

Jules

Rue, we'll figure it out. I promise.

Rue

[beat] Jules, I don't–I don't think this is a good idea.

Jules

Rue, it was your idea.

Rue

I–I know it was my idea, but I just... I don't think it's a good idea anymore is what I'm trying to tell you.

Jules

It was a fucking great idea. I don't know what you're talking about.

Rue

Can you–Can you slow down? 'Cause I'm thinking, you know, my mom. I don't want her to fucking freak out, alright? I don't want–

Jules

Rue, it's not that far, and, like... [chuckling] We're good. It's... You can–We can call.

Rue

Okay, what am I gotta tell Gia, though, you know? Like, she's gonna wake up in the fucking morning. She's gonna think I'm missing.

Jules

We're good. Come on. It's gonna be amazing. [pause; Rue looks wistfully at her] Rue!

Jules

Come on. [whispering, as Rue cries] Please. I love you.

Rue

[V.O.] Fezco's grandma was a motherfuckin' G. And even though she wasn't like, the best guardian... she taught him everything he knew about life. He didn't really know much about his mom. His grandma never really liked to talk about her, except to occasionally say...

[to young Fez] Your mom had a pure heart. But your daddy always took advantage of that. Let me tell you somethin', Snowflake. There's a short supply of kindness in this world. People sniff it out... and they swoop right the fuck in. Don't ever fall in love. It's the one instinct you can't trust.

Jules

How you doing?

Rue

I'm good.

Jules

When did you relapse?

Rue

Just fuckin' weed, Jules.

Jules

Like, when did you relapse?

Rue

You want me to be honest?

Jules

Yeah.

Rue

The night you left.

Rue

Jules? I'm, uh, I'm sorry about that. I didn't mean to be mean. I don't know, I'm just having a tough time, you know? I just really miss you.

Jules

I really miss you, too.

Rue

I know that I never, uh, I never really said it before, but I want to be with you.

Fezco

What's up, man? You havin' a good time?

Nate

[coughs] Yeah.

Fezco

You make any New Year's resolutions?

Nate

No, you?

Fezco

A few.

Nate

[smiles] The last time we talked, didn't you say you wanted to kill me?

Fezco

Yeah, well... It's a new year, playboy.

Chill, chill, chill! Come on, guys, it's New Year! Come on!

Rue

Damn.

Cal

Cassie, I asked you a question.

Lexi

She didn’t see anything.

Cal

I’m not asking you. I’m asking her.

Cassie

I already told Mrs. Jacobs I didn’t see anything.

Cal

I know. We just don’t believe you.

Cassie

I’m telling the truth.

Cal

Look, Cassie, I’m more than happy to get the Chief of Police, Bill Greenwood, involved. Old family friend. Maybe he should have this conversation with you. With everyone, in fact. You know? Get everyone’s cell phones. Text histories. Find out what exactly happened. Should we do that instead? [beat; Cassie looks over at Lexi] Don’t look at her. Look at me.

Lexi

Why would you say that?

Cassie

What?! What was I supposed to do?

Lexi

Not say anything.

Cassie

You heard him! He was going to call the police!

Lexi

No, he wasn’t. He was bluffing, and you fell for it ’cause you’re a fucking idiot!

Cassie

Why do you even care?!

Lexi

Because you just ruined someone’s life!

Cassie

Fezco almost killed Nate! That was his decision!

Rue

[V.O.] Lexi had thought about that night a lot. How could Fezco be so kind to her, and so violent towards Nate? She couldn’t remember the last time someone her age asked her so many questions about herself. He actually cared about what she had to say. And then, ten minutes later… almost beat Nate Jacobs to death. And even if Nate deserved it, it was a horrible thing to do. It made her think about her entire life. How she’s always been so passive. How she never had the courage to say anything. And even the time when she did get the courage to say something...

Lexi

Rue, you really need to get help.

Rue

What, are you gonna tell my mom or something?

Lexi

Yeah, if you don’t stop.

Rue

[V.O.] ...she backed down. She hated herself for being so weak and passive and afraid. So, a couple of days after Cal came over, she decided to say something.

Rue

[V.O.] It was the first day of school after the new year. And I finally had everything I’d ever wished for. [to Jules] You know you’re like a dream?

Jules

[chuckles] I didn’t know you were such a romantic, Rue.

Rue

What can I say?

Rue

[V.O.] Oh, fuck… I completely forgot he goes to our school.

Jules

I love you.

Rue

[V.O.] If this asshole says anything about doing drugs, I will literally slit his throat in the quad.

Jules

Rue?

Rue

Yeah?

Jules

I said, “I love you.”

Rue

I love you, too.

Jules

You kinda checked out for a second.

Rue

[V.O.] Please, God, do not fuck up my life.

Yo, Rue.

Rue

Hey.

What’s going on?

Jules

Hi.

Rue

Nothing.

Jules

I’m Jules.

Rue

Sorry, this is Jules.

Hey, I'm Elliot. Nice to meet you.

Rue

Sorry, introductions are usually very overwhelming and… debilitating for me… at least.

Jules

...Uh, so, how do you know Elliot?

We met on New Year’s.

Rue

[beat; chuckles] Oh shit, yeah. That was it, New Year’s. That’s… That’s where we met. [pause] Jules is my girlfriend.

Wow… I didn’t know you were, um…

Jules

In a relationship?

Rue

[V.O.] The other thing I wish I could mention is I sort of spent the last few days hanging out with Elliot. Which was cool ’cause he makes a ton of money selling music stems online, and we bought a bunch of drugs.

Jules

Um… it was nice to meet you, and I’ll see you later, Rue.

Nice to meet you.

Rue

[to Jules] I love you. Bye.

Rue

[V.O.] Fuck. Was it just me or was that super awkward?

That was awkward.

Rue

[V.O.] Now, at the time, I didn’t know how much the Elliot thing upset Jules. But I never thought that Jules was like clingy or jealous, so I didn’t think it’d be a big deal.

Jules

It is a big deal.

Rue

Why?

Jules

The fact that you’re even asking me to explain it to you is kind of an even bigger deal.

Rue

Oh, I don’t understand how such a small fucking thing has become such a big fucking thing.

Jules

'Cause it hurt my feelings.

Rue

Why?

Jules

'Cause I can tell you have a crush on him.

Rue

I do not have a fucking crush on him.

Jules

Then why else would you forget meeting him? Like, “Oh, that’s right. New Year’s.”

Rue

Jules, it’s not like that.

Jules

“Silly me.”

Rue

It’s not like that.

Jules

Well, I hope not. That would really suck.

Rue

I’m sorry.

Jules

Um, I gotta be home in 15 minutes, or else I’m gonna get grounded for another two weeks. I’ll see ya later, Rue.

Rue

I get you in trouble?

Jules

Yeah, kinda.

Rue

[V.O.] Ethan made plans with Kat to go bowling that night. Kat was depressed because she couldn’t figure out why she didn’t love Ethan. So she decided to make a list of pros and cons. But she couldn’t think of anything, which made her realize Ethan might not be the problem.

Kat

Mmm... [mimics shooting herself in the head and falls aside]

Rue

[V.O.] Kat hated herself. But the problem with hating yourself is you can’t really talk about it. Because at some point recently, the whole world joined a self-help cult and won’t shut the fuck up about it.

[in an online tutorial video] It’s not gonna solve all your life problems, but it is gonna solve... [Kat closes laptop]

[standing in bathroom doorway] Kat. You’re one of the bravest, most beautiful human beings I have ever seen.

Kat

[with her mouth full] That’s not true.

Yes, it is. I wish I had your confidence.

Kat

But I don’t, like... feel healthy.

Yes, you are.

Kat

No, like... seriously. I’m not.

Kat, you just have to love yourself.

Kat

But that’s what I’m trying to tell you! I fucking hate myself!

Every day you get out of bed... it’s an act of courage.

Kat

That’s easy for you to say. You don’t have, like, fucking mental problems.

Yes, I do. Why do you think I look like this?

Kat

Are you kidding? I wish my mental problems made me look like you.

Trust me, you don’t

Kat

Trust me, I do! You’re like the most beautiful person I’ve ever fucking seen.

Maybe by a white, cis-male, heteronormative standard.

Kat

[lies in bed and covers face with pillow] Oh, my God! Are you fucking joking?!

[rips pillow off and yells] Kat! Are you fucking serious?! That’s not you fucking talking! It’s the patriarchy!

Kat

It is me talking! You are not listening!

No! Society puts things into your mind!

Kat

I don’t care about society! I feel like shit!

Kat, you need to smash all beauty standards!

Kat

But I can’t even get out of bed!

You have to love yourself.

You need to find your inner fuckin’ warrior!

Become a bad bitch!

Just like you did last year!

Kat

But that wasn’t even real.

It looked real.

Kat

That was the point!

I found it inspiring.

Kat

[gets up out of bed] Shut the fuck up!

[chanting, repeatedly swarming and following Kat] Love yourself!

Kat

[goes into the bathroom, shouts with influencers following her, shouting and pointing] Leave me alone! Get the fuck out!

Kat

Fuck.

Rue

And like with Jules, right? Like, when I first met her, I was just immediately in love.

In love?

Rue

Yeah. When you say it out loud, it kind of sounds small.

What's a bigger feeling than love?

Rue

Loss.

You think?

Rue

Yeah, I think so. Yeah. I don't know, maybe that's what it was, right? Like, as soon as I saw her, I was just immediately afraid to lose her.

Lexi

Why are you awake at 4 a.m?

Cassie

Why are you awake at 4 a.m?

Rue

[V.O.] Cassie decided to wake up at 4 a.m. that morning to get ready for school. She needed to clear her head. And for those three hours she spent getting ready… she only thought about one thing. There was also something refreshing about the amount of time she was putting into herself. She loved the ritual, the attention to detail... the anxiety and excitement she felt in her stomach. And even if Nate pretended not to notice her. It was her way of telling him that she was his.

True or dare?

Jules

Dare.

Yo, Jules. I dare you to take a piss in the middle of the street.

Jules

Alright. [gets out vehicle] Sure, yes! [Elliot chuckles] Gender-fuck me, please!

Wow!

Rue

Jules!

Wow!

Jules

Okay, all right!

Rue

Oh, shit!

Ohh.

Rue

Oh. Okay, Jules. [Elliot chuckles]

[laughs when a vehicle is oncoming] Hey! Car! [motorist honks]

Jules

Oh... my God. [turns to face Elliot's vehicle]

[repeatedly] No...!

Rue

[repeatedly] Not on the car...!

Rue

If I were a genius, I’d figure out a way to do drugs for free. What if I am a genius? I’m a fuckin’ genius, Fez.

Fezco

Is that so?

Rue

It is fuckin’ so because I came up with an amazing fuckin’ plan.

Fezco

And what would that be, Rue?

Rue

All right, so [clears throat] ...all you would have to do is front me, like, $5,000 worth of drugs, okay? And–

Fezco

Hell the fuck no.

Rue

Okay, well, before you say no, you kind of have to let me finish, right?

Fezco

Hell the fuck no.

Rue

Okay, why do you keep saying that?

Fezco

I did not like the way that the plan started.

Rue

Okay, well, you have to let me finish the fucking plan.

Fezco

No.

Rue

Yes. You–

Fezco

Hell the fuck no, Rue.

Rue

Fuck it. I give up. Whatever. I’ll just take my fuckin’ business elsewhere. It’s your fuckin’ loss, man.

Fezco

Hell the fuck no.