[loitering in hallway with Rue] That’s a good-ass plan.
RueThank you. Fuckin’ Fez didn’t even wanna hear it.
Rue
Ego shit, man. [to Lexi in hallway putting up flyers over the official "Oklahoma" play production calling for auditions of her original play also entitled Oklahoma] Yo, Lex, what're you doin'?
Oh, just putting up fliers for this play I'm doing.
Rue
What play? [V.O.] The only thing is... Lexi hadn't told anyone about the play... including Cassie.
I'd actually love for you to read it. [aloud] Yeah, for sure. Just, uh, send it to me. [enters washroom]
[enters washroom] Hey, Rue-Rue.
Rue
Hi, Cass. Wait, are you in the play?
Rue
Lexi's play.
What do you mean, Lexi's play?
Rue
Uh, the play that Lexi wrote.
Rue
The play's called "Oklahoma"?
No, the drama club's doing "Oklahoma."
Oh my god. Do I look like I'm in "Oklahoma"?
Rue
Why would your play be set in Oklahoma?
[facing Rue with Lexi making a slash throat (meaning; stop talking) gesture behind her] You thought I was auditioning for "Oklahoma"?
Rue
I haven't read it, so...
[Lexi frantically makes waving gestures (meaning; PLEASE stop talking) behind her] Are you making fun of me, or did you actually think I was auditioning for "Oklahoma"?
[walks up with Kat] Why the fuck would you audition for "Oklahoma"?
Then why the fuck do you look like you're auditioning for "Oklahoma"?
Has everyone read "Oklahoma" but me?
"Oklahoma"'s not like a play you read.
Rue
Yes.
Rue
Oh, I've just... nah, I've just been smokin' a little bit of weed.
Wait, I don't understand. If you're not auditioning for "Oklahoma," then why do you look like that?
Like a country music star.
In a good way or a bad way?
Bitch, you better be joking. Are you okay, Cass?
No! Yes, fuck it! I am in love with Nate Jacobs and he is in love with me! And don't you fucking give me that look, Maddy, because I didn't fuck your boyfriend! You two were broken up for three weeks and three days before we even had sеx, so I didn't betray you! Plus, you guys are terrible for each other and you know I'm right and you guys can all judge me [turns head over left shoulder to Rue then back at Maddy and Kat] if you want, but I do not care! I have never, ever been happier!
Rue
[V.O.] But she didn't say that. In fact, it was much weirder. She just stared straight ahead like she's doing now and didn't say a word.
Rue
Now as a beloved character that a lot of people are rooting for, I feel a certain responsibility to make good decisions... [side-eye into camera] but I relapsed. In all fairness, I did say in the beginning I had no intentions of staying clean. But I get it. Our country's dark. And fucked up. And people... just want to find hope.
Rue
Anywhere. And if not in reality, then in television. Unfortunately, I'm not it. [takes a sip of cough medicine directly from bottle]
So, Rue, the $64,000 question is… What’s in the suitcase?
Rue
School books.
Ah, is that why you’re in that getup? You became an honors student?
Rue
I’m not in the mood for a lecture.
Lecture? I like to think we have conversations.
Rue
Yeah, I’m sure you do.
Okay, what? Did a hornet crawl up your ass or something? What’s wrong with you?
Rue
Look, I’m–Man, I’m not trying to hear a fucking lecture about how my life would be better if I stopped doing drugs, or believed in God or Allah or whatever the fuck.
Okay, well, you’re the one lookin’ like a Jehovah’s Witness. I just don’t think that there’s Bibles in that suitcase.
Rue
Shut the fuck up, man.
Wait, wait, wait. Excuse me? "Shut the fuck up?" Don’t play that shit with me. I've always accepted you for who you are: The good, the bad, and the ugly. Don't tell me to shut the fuck up. I'm not some parent you can just treat like shit.
Rue
Yeah, well, good thing nobody's really looking to you to be a fucking parent.
Yo! Excuse me? [uncomfortable pause] Excuse me?! [scoffs] When I sit across from you and tell you something about my life, you don't get to use that shit against me. You cross that line again, we're done. You talk back right now, we're done. One more fuckin' disrespectful word outta your mouth and we're done, you hear me? HEY! YOU HEAR ME?!
Rue
Or what, Ali? You gonna hit me?
Rue
Yeah, it feels amazing. [V.O.] I don't think you understand how much I love Jules. The only problem is, I took so many narcos, I literally can't feel a fucking thing.
Is there anything you want me to, like... do differently?
Rue
Nah, nah. It's amazing.
Rue, you keep saying that.
Rue
I know, 'cause this is amazing.
[enraged] I RAISED YOU! I DID! OKAY?! AND YOU DON'T EVER FUCKING SCARE ME LIKE THAT! [calms down] You're not a good person, Rue. [Rue grins and chuckles] You smiling? Really? You're proud of that?
Rue
You know what’s a shame, Mom? My dad’s dead. Kinda keeps you from admitting what a shit fuckin’ mother you are. [scoffs] “Oh, poor Leslie. Her daughter’s an addict, but, you know, her dad did die.”
[Rue walks into Gia's bedroom]
Rue
You hear that, Gia?! You hear that?! I don’t wanna put too much pressure on you, but you’re probably gonna have to be a fucking neurosurgeon, or maybe an astronaut because if not, then Mom is zero for fucking two. And that means that it might actually just be her fucking fault.
Rue
Yeah, that means, maybe, she actually fucked up!
[Rue continues searching for the suitcase with the pills]
Rue
You don’t fucking recognize me?! Well, neither do fucking I! I DON'T FUCKING RECOGNIZE ME EITHER! Where did you put it?! [groans] You wish I was different?! So do I! You fucking hate me?! SO DO I!
...
Rue
Tell me where they are, Mom! Fuck! [screams] Where did you fucking put them?! I know they’re fucking in here, Mom! I know they’re in here! What did you do with them?! What did you do?! Where the fuck are they? What did you do with them?
We flushed them down the toilet.
[Rue stops in her tracks and hurries into the dining room, where Jules and Elliot are seated]
You look embarrassed, Rue. You embarrassed ’cause Jules just heard everything you said? Don’t cry. Own that shit. Own what you just said.
Rue
[whispers] Fuck you. [chuckles] Oh, okay. I see what the fuck is going on here. Well, first thing’s first, Elliot here is a fucking addict... so if he tells you anything fucking different, he’s a liar and a fucking snake. Fuck you!
Rue
This doesn’t fucking concern you, Jules.
Rue
No the fuck it doesn’t!
Rue
How?!
‘Cause I don’t want you to kill yourself.
Rue
You’re a fucking rat!
Rue
Yeah, so you go tell my fuckin’ mom?!
I didn’t know what else to do.
Rue
And why the fuck would you say anything? [scoffs] You are fucking dead to me.
Rue
I fucking mean every fucking word. You're dead to me, Jules.
Rue
You and me? We're fucking done. There is nothing fucking there any more. Nothing... fucking... there. You know, I got a lot of regrets in my life. But gotta tell you, Jules. Meeting you... has gotta be at the top of my fucking list. [pause; Jules tears up] Oh, now you wanna fucking cry? Now you wanna fucking cry? Yeah, you’re a fucking vampire. You just go around fucking sucking the fucking spirit out of everyone! You like that shit... makes you feel good.
You know that’s not true.
Rue
It is fucking true. It’s all about fucking Jules, right? And you don’t know what the fuck you’re doing. You just act all fucking innocent, like you’re this fucking sweet little angel. This innocent, sweet, little fucking angel who doesn’t know what the fuck they’re doing. You know what the fuck you’re doing!
Rue
No the fuck you don’t. You love being loved! You’re a fucking greedy whore who just likes sucking the life out of people. And it fucking hurts, Jules!
Rue
No, you don’t. Stop saying that! You don’t love me! You fucking left me… when I fucking needed you. You fucking left me... when I was at my fucking lo... [breathes heavily] You fucking left me at my fucking lowest! And a real fucking friend, someone who fucking loves you, wouldn’t do some shit like that, Jules!
I love you and I wanna help you.
Rue
If you wanna help me, uh, you can honestly–You can just stay out of my fucking life. Forever. [chuckles] That would be great because, honestly, looking at you makes me physically fucking ill!
LLaurie
You know, a doctor once told me they did brain studies on people who've done a lot of opiates, and that over time all the chemicals in your brain that make you happy and feel good start to decrease because your body's getting it artificially. But the longer you use, it just starts to weaken and wither, kinda like a limb that's not getting blood to it anymore. And then it just sort of falls off, and you get something called cell death where you just have these big dead spots in the parts of your brain that used to make you happy. No matter what you do, you can never get it back. He said it's basically the same brain as people who've had major strokes. But the silver lining is that the things that don't feel good don't feel as bad anymore. You know, if I was going through withdrawal, I would do anything. It's one of the good parts of being a woman: Even if you don't have money, you've still got something people want.
Rue
I think I'm gonna be sick.
Rue
[V.O.] My mom is one of those rare people, but maybe that’s ’cause she’s my mom. She also grew up in the church. And say what you want about Christians, at least they believe in forgiveness. I don’t remember everything I said to my mom.
[Rue panics as she gets into a cold bath prepared by Leslie]
It's okay, Rue. It's okay.
Rue
[V.O.] I wish I could say I didn’t mean any of it. Is that actually true? I mean, I thought it. I felt it… I said it. I’m sure most people would say the world would be a better place without me. I don’t disagree. In fact, I’ve been trying to leave it for as long as I can remember. Ali is also one of those rare people. The strange thing is, I bet most people would say the same thing about him. “He’s just a fucking crackhead wife-beater.” I bet his daughter said that. Even I kinda said that. That I regret. Really fucking regret. But if I'm being honest about who I am… I’m a liar, a thief. I’m violent, abusive, manipulative...
[Rue continues breathing deeply in the bathtub]
Rue
It’s cold. It’s cold, Mom. Mom, it’s cold.
Rue, you have to break your fever, baby, okay? Okay? Come on.
Rue
[V.O.] ...and even if I got clean today, no one would forget the trauma of me not being clean. But I really regret what I said to Ali. Reducing someone’s life to a moment–an ugly moment–and punishing them for it... That’s what cops do. It’s actually what everyone does. It’s what you would do to me if you didn’t know me.
[Rue calls Ali to apologize to him]
Rue
Ali? It’s, um–It’s Rue.
Rue
Um... I just wanted to, uh, call you and tell you that, um... I just wanted to call you and tell you that I’m sorry for what I said. Um... and I really regret it. Uh... I just-I never should’ve said that.
Rue
And I’m sorry. I’m sorry.
Rue! Listen to me. I forgive you.
Rue
You do?
Rue
[sniffling] How do you know that I mean it?
Because the hour is certain to come. So we must forgive graciously.
Rue
[crying] Thank you. [shudders] Thank you.
Rue
[V.O.] Now, Nate didn’t know what happened with Cassie and Maddy because when he exercises, he puts his phone on silent.
...
Rue
[V.O.] It wasn’t the 38 missed calls from Cassie that concerned him. It was the fact that there were zero calls from Maddy. Part of the reason Nate loved Maddy as much as he did is because she was loyal. But it’s also what scared the living shit out of him. If anyone crossed her, she’d bury them... and he had now really fucking crossed her. And there was no doubt in Nate’s mind what Maddy was about to do.
[to Kat on the phone] You know when a kid shoots up a school and they go to interview the parents, and the parents are like, "We had no idea. He seemed, like, totally normal." And everyone watching is like, "You’re a fucking idiot." That’s how I feel, but with Cassie.
Look, I never trusted her.
Because she seems like the kind of person who would fuck your boyfriend.
[sighs] I think I actually wanna murder her.
No, like, actually plan a murder and carry it out.
Like a grisly murder. One that shocks the nation.
[casually] I think that's more than understandable.
[Suze hands Lexi a knife block out of concern for Cassie's well-being]
SSuze
Lex… Hon, take these in the back and hide them in the bushes.
You really think she’s gonna stab herself?
SSuze
Your sister’s very emotional. Yes.
SSuze
In the bushes, now! Go! Hurry!
[Lexi walks outside to their backyard and grabs some branches to hide the knives]
Rue
[V.O.] It was at some point while breaking branches off a tree in order to camouflage a bucket of kitchen knives in a bush… that Lexi started to have second thoughts about putting on her play.
Well, you know what… what you should put in the play? That time I beat Nate’s ass at that party.
[laughing] No! Oh, God! [Fez chuckles] I don’t know. Cassie isn’t doing too well. I’m worried that… she’s gonna see the play, and then, she’s gonna… freak out.
Yeah, I mean… Everybody gets their feelings hurt, you know?
Some people… Some people need to get their feelings hurt sometimes.
Yeah… It’s, like, the first time in my life I’m doing something for myself.
Shit. What exactly is… the idea behind the play?
I don’t know, it’s… it’s, like, about a group of girlfriends who sort of… grow up and grow apart.
Damn, so it’s kinda like, Stand By Me vibes.
Yes, exactly! I love that movie. That’s… exactly it.
Hell yeah. Come on now. I’ve watched that film, like, 50 times.
That’s my shit, come on. In fact, my grandma has it on DVD, you know?
Rue
[V.O.] For the last few months, Lexi had been talking to Fezco every day.
I still don't understand what the play is actually about though.
Well, that's nice. Everybody's gonna love that.
Yeah, I–I mean, I hope so. I just... I keep second-guessing myself and getting anxious. Like, if people are gonna think that it's good or bad, or if it's gonna upset people or not.
But why would anyone be upset by it?
Oh, you know, it's–it's based on real people.
Yeah, you really strokin' the bee's nest with that one.
I mean... if someone invited me to a play, and... they didn't even tell me I was a character in it? I'd definitely have some questions.
Well, would you be upset by it?
FFezci
And the intentions of the person who made the play.
Then you ain't got nothin' to worry about.
But... what if they think my intentions aren't good when in reality they are good?
Well, that's what I call a quandary.
Uh... Wait, what was the question again?
Like, what happens if Cassie sees the play and thinks I’m being cruel, even though I’m not?
Well, how about you just don’t invite her then?
Even more mad than if she actually saw the play?
You broke me. Completely broke me. I give up. Hey... you wanna kill yourself doing drugs? Go ahead. I'm not gonna stand in your way.
Rue
So I can do drugs?
Rue
Anything I want?
Rue
Mom, are you fucking with me right now?
No. If you wanna fry every last brain cell in your head, go ahead. [pause; Rue laughs] What?
Rue
What?
That's exciting to you, huh?
Rue
What?
Rue
I just feel like there's a catch here.
I can't convince you that your life is important. You're gonna have to make that decision on your own. You'll be 18 soon... and outta my house. And you're gonna make whatever decisions you're gonna make. I'm taking you off my plate.
Rue
Okay.
Rue
Yeah, but she's fine, though.
She's been getting D's in math.
Rue
Yeah...
She's been in detention three times in the past two weeks. And every morning, when I go into her room to make sure she's awake, she already up... on the phone. And I know she's not getting any sleep. But if you say she's fine... I'll just take your word for it.
Rue
I didn't know any of that.
Why would you? You only ever think about yourself.
Rue
That's not true, Mom.
If I have to choose between losing one daughter or two, I'mma fight to save her.
Rue
[thinks for a moment] No, that's fair.
Rue
I think your play was the first time I was able to look at my life and not hate myself… for everything I’ve done.
Rue
I don't know. I’ve been through a lot, and I don’t know what to do with it. You’ve been through a lot, and you do know what to do with it.
But you’ve been through a lot and you know what to do with it.
Rue
I don’t know about that. [pause] Lex, look what you made. I don’t know how to do that. I don’t know how to get to where you are. But I just wanted you to know that seeing it meant the world to me.
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