Rue[V.O.] It was the first day of school, and my heart was racing. I made a new best friend and for the first time since getting out of rehab, I was feeling good about the world. [to Jules] I've got an idea.
Rue
[holds up two pills] Wanna get high?
Rue
No idea.
Didn't you just get out of rehab?
Rue
Yeah.
Rue
Maybe.
I feel like this isn't a good idea.
Rue
I kinda disagree.
[Later, Rue and Jules are lying down together after taking the pills]
Rue
Do you feel anything?
Do you feel anything? [pause] Rue, what's wrong?
Rue
Just so happy. [V.O.] I know you're not allowed to say it... but drugs are kinda cool. I mean, they're cool before they wreck your skin... and your life... and your family. That's when they get uncool. It's actually a very narrow window of cool. And once you pass through that window of cool... [to Jules] It's just embarrassing. I feel like everyone knows.
Rue, I don't wanna turn this into a competition, but, like, I win. For, like, a multitude of reasons.
Rue
I just... I don't wanna deal with all the fucking questions.
You're being fucking rude.
Rue
Fuck.
Rue, it's me. Are you okay?
Rue
You are so fucking stupid, Lexi.
Rue
'Cause I already flushed everything down the fucking toilet.
Well, I just came to check on you.
Rue
I don't want–I don't want you to fucking check on me, whether I'm fine or I'm not fine. What difference are you gonna make? Are–Are you gonna give me life advice? You gonna fucking help me?
Well, you're one of my best friends.
Rue
Give me a fucking break. 'Cause we went to fucking pre-school together? That does not make us best fucking friends.
You say all this, but what happens in three days when you knock on my door asking me to piss in some Tylenol bottle? What, you're gonna say the opposite? How we've known each other since pre-school and we're best friends? It's like you have a split personality disorder. Sorry if I miss the old you.
[Fez hears his walkie talkie buzz while counting cash]
Nah, bro. Tell her to come back later.
Rue
Yo. Too late, bitch.
Hold on, hold on. You can't be in here right now.
Rue
I see you, cash money.
Rue
I need some OCs and some socks.
I can't help you right now. You gotta go.
[Rue ignores Fez and walks into his bedroom]
Yo, for real, Rue. I ain't fuckin' playin' with you. [pause] Come on. You can't be in here.
Rue
Look, Fez. I'm fucking drenched, okay? And, uh... I'm out of drugs, so... don't be a dick.
Oh, my God. That's not my fuckin' problem! You gotta get up outta my house right now before these motherfuckers come through. For real.
Rue
All I need is a couple OCs, and some xannies. That's all I need, and I can be gone.
Yo, I'm tryin' to tell you, I don't got shit right now. Like... Come back in a few hours, I got you, whatever you need. But right now, you gotta get the fuck up outta my house.
Rue
I know you have something, Fez.
I'm tellin' you I don't got shit for you, bruh! Come on! [Rue walks out of his bedroom] I need you out the house right now! My guy's about to come through, and I don't want you here when he gets here, you understand?
Rue
[sighs; lays on Fez's couch] Give me drugs.
This is dead serious. Yo, Rue.
[Fez's phone starts vibrating. Rue looks up from the couch as Fez glares at her]
[beat] I could fuckin' kill you right now. [to Ashtray on his walkie talkie] Yo, Ash, they're here.
[Fez grabs a couple cash bundles and pulls out a gun hidden between the couch cushions. He checks the magazine before loading and cocking the gun.]
Look, I'm serious, Rue. Just stay right there, keep your mouth shut, and be cool. These dudes ain't fuckin' around.
Rue
[V.O.] Now, I'm not gonna lie... that's when I started to get a little scared. I mean, I'm all good with drugs until guns start coming out.
Rue
Hey, I'm Rue. I'm an addict.
Rue
And I've been clean for 60 days. [V.O.] For the record, I'm not not telling the truth. I've actually been doing really well. Because the morning after that whole drug-dealer-face-tattoo fentanyl excursion, I... got in a little bit of trouble... for disappearing for, like, 16 hours.
[Rue finds her mother sitting at the dining room table while trying to sneak back into her house]
Rue
I'm sorry. My phone died.
Bullshit. You're doing drugs.
Rue
I'm not doing drugs.
Then where have you been? And why weren't you answering your phone? Why are you sneaking into the house?
Rue
I was with someone.
Rue
It... It doesn't matter, Mom.
It matters, Rue. It matters. You're doing drugs. [sees Gia walking out of her bedroom] Gia, go back to sleep.
GGia
Rue, are you... Are you okay?
Rue
I'm fine. You can go back to sleep.
She's okay, baby, okay? Go to bed. Good night. [to Rue after Gia leaves] I will not allow you to walk up into this house at 5:30 in the morning and lie to my face. So tell me the truth right now. Where were you?
Rue
I don't wanna have to tell you everything that's going on in my life. If you wanna drug test me, just drug test me. [V.O.] She wasn't the only person upset with me.
[Cut to Rue hanging out with Jules]
I'm not kidding, Rue. I'm not trying to become best friends with someone who's gonna fucking kill themself.
Rue
I know. I didn't mean to do this.
I've been through, like... enough traumatic shit in my life that I don't... I can't, like–
Rue
I get it. I get it.
I don't wanna be around you if you don't stop using drugs.
Rue
Okay.
Rue
I know. I'll stop. I promise. I just need you to do me a favor. You're not gonna like it.
[Cut to Leslie performing a drug test in the bathroom with Rue. Unbeknownst to her, she is testing Jules' urine, which causes the test to come out negative.]
You're still grounded until I don't even fucking know.
Rue
What else is there? I told you I wasn't lying.
Yo. Sixty days, no small feat.
Rue
Thanks.
Rue
Thank you.
Can I ask you something? How'd you survive that OD?
Rue
What do you mean?
I mean, somebody had to save your life, right?
Rue
It was my sister.
Aw, man. Older or younger?
Rue
Younger. [pause] I have to get home, so...
Rue
I don't really understand what the point...
Rue
Yeah, she was 13.
That's some heavy shit. But hey, we've all done some bad shit in our lives, right? Comes with the territory. But, man, now you just got me thinking about... what that does to a 13-year-old. A 13-year-old kid who finds her big sister overdosed. What that moment must do to somebody. How it affects the rest of their lives, you know? How it affects their ability to trust. Leaves it hard for them to get close to people. You know, relationships. Makes it hard for them to fall in love. Living with the fear that at any moment, the rug can be ripped out from under them and they lose everything. Especially the people that they love. You ever think about that? [pause] Yeah, probably fucked up for life. But hey, you're gonna have to make peace with that. Just like you're gonna have to make peace with the fact that you could be responsible for some shit like that, and then get up in front of a whole group of people who are struggling with the same issues, and lie about being clean. You know what I'm saying?
Rue
I don't know what you're talking about.
Listen, youngblood. You're playing pool with Minnesota Fats.
Rue
Who's Minnesota Fats?
The greatest motherfucking pool player that ever lived.
Rue
[chuckles] Okay.
I'm Ali. Let me know when you wanna stop trying to kill yourself and eat some pancakes.
[Fez hears someone pounding on his door]
Rue
It's me. Open the door.
[He sees Rue when he opens the door]
[sighs] Not today, Rue. Sorry.
Rue
Come on, man. Don't be a dick.
Nah, I'm serious. You can't come in.
Rue
Look, man. All I need is just, like, a few OCs. That's all.
Rue
Fez. Fez, I've had a really fucked-up day, alright? It's been a really, really fucked-up day, okay? So I need you to open the door for me, okay? Can you open the door? Please?
[pause; shakes his head] I'm not gonna help you kill yourself, Rue. I'm sorry, but you can't be comin' over here no more. Just go home.
Rue
Don't... Fez! Don't close the... [Fez closes the door on her] Fuck! Fez, open the fucking door, please? I'm begging you just to open the door. [pause; Fez just stands still with his back to the door] Fez! You're full of shit, man! You know, you make your living off of selling drugs to teenagers. And now all of a sudden, you wanna have a fucking moral high ground? You're a fucking dropout drug dealer, you know that?! You're a fucking drug dealer with seven functioning fucking brain cells! [knocks angrily on the door] OPEN THE DOOR! Fuck you! Fuck you, Fez, okay? Are you doing this because you care about me?! If you gave a shit about me, you wouldn't have sold me the fucking drugs in the first place! But you did! You fucking did! So open the goddamn door! Open the door!
I can't do it, Rue. I'm sorry.
Rue
Open the door! Open the door! [tearfully] Open the door. [holds back sob] You did this to me! You fucking... You did this to me, Fez. You fucking ruined my life! The least you could do is open the goddamn door and fix it! I'm fucking serious. I'm so fucking serious. If you don't open this door right now, I swear to God... I will hate you, till the day I fucking die!
I'm sorry. [walks away from the door]
Rue
[screams] YOU FUCKING DID THIS TO ME! Open the fucking door! [bangs on the door repeatedly] Open the door, Fez! Come on, man! Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!
[Jules and Rue comes across the Jacobs' tent while walking around the carnival grounds]
Rue
What?
Rue
Who?
Rue
What guy?
Rue
Okay, what guy are we looking at, exactly?
[points at Cal] Okay, the one in the apron, serving the chili. I swear to God.
Rue
No fucking way. Jules, do you know who that is?
Yeah, the guy from the motel.
Rue
That's Cal Jacobs.
Rue
Nate Jacobs' dad.
Rue
Yes, that's Nate's dad.
Rue
Yes, fucking way. You're full of shit.
Rue
You're full of shit. Do you–Do you know who he is? He fucking owns half this town. He built it. All the apartment buildings past Kemper, they're his.
Rue
There's no way.
Rue
There's no way. Bullshit.
I'm being a hundred percent serious. You–You don't believe me?
Rue
No, actually. I don't.
[Jules walks towards the tent and approaches Cal]
[turns around] Hmm... [pause; looks at Jules uncomfortably] Hi. Can I help you?
Uh, can I please have a small cup of chili?
[Cal's hands start shaking as he scoops chili into a cup. He accidentally drops it as he hands it to Jules.]
[Jules turns to look at Rue, who looks utterly surprised]
Uh, it–it's okay. It was my fault.
I'll get you another cup.
MMarsha
Hi. It's two dollars. All the proceeds go to the football team.
Uh... cool. [gives Marsha two dollar bills]
[Jules looks over at Rue, whose eyes are now wide in shock. Rue notices Cal staring at her and turns around. She does a double take and glances quickly at Jules before walking away.]
[Jules walks off to catch up with Rue. Nate is revealed to have been watching the awkward interaction between Cal and Jules from the back of the tent with his brother, Aaron.]
AAaron
Yo, Nate, who was that?
Her name's Jules. She's new here.
AAaron
She goes to East Highland?
AAaron
Damn, that's jailbait. That's too bad.
...
[to Rue] Why the fuck did you let me do that?!
Rue
I didn't let you do that! You just fucking... did it. You went over there and you did it.
Did you see that his hands were fucking shaking?
Rue
Yes, and then he dropped...
And then, he fucking dropped the chili! Oh, my God!
Rue
The chili! Oh, he dropped the fucking chili. And then he–And then you looked at me.
Yeah, because I was screaming inside.
Rue
Yeah, well, that made him fucking look at me! He looked at me in the fucking eyes!
Ugh, I feel so bad. That was literally the meanest thing I've ever done.
[Rue hears Jules tap on her bedroom window and slides it open]
Rue
Hey.
Do you think I could sleep over?
Rue
Yeah. Yeah, of course. Come on.
[Rue helps Jules enter through the window. Jules sits on the floor and unzips her backpack.]
Rue
[beat] Is everything okay? Um... Here. [offers her shirt to Jules after she undresses] So how'd the date go with Tyler?
Um... He didn't look like his picture.
[Rue hugs Jules and they get into bed together]
Rue
Okay. One, what was that about? Two, can we talk about the fact that you fucked Nate's dad?
Rue, swear to God, like on your life that you will never tell anyone.
Rue
That you fucked Nate's dad?
I'm serious. This is like... Even if you decide you hate me one day. Like, you can never tell anyone.
Rue
Why would I ever hate you?
That's not the point. Seriously, this is some "go to your grave" shit.
Rue
I promise. Do you think Nate knows?
Rue
I don't know, you went up to the chili booth at the carnival. Did he look like he knew?
No. Like, literally I didn't even notice.
Rue
Nate's scary. The whole fucking family is scary.
I... don't wanna have this conversation.
Rue
[pause] You know what'd be amazing? If they paid you off with a bunch of money, and then we'd do a bunch of really cool shit.
Rue
[V.O.] I don't know why Jules didn't trust me. Or why she'd think I'd ever hate her. There's literally nothing in the world that Jules could do to make me upset. I even told her that.
Rue
No, for real. It's true.
Those are the moments that keep me up at night. Thinking about all the times that I ignored that voice in my head. You know, they told me, "What are you doing?" And what happens a month, six months, a year, when she moves away, and goes to college? When she tells you she just wants to be friends?
Rue
You mean “if.”
Rue
I mean, I don't know. We talked about living together. Like, if she goes to school in New York, I'll just go with her. I'll go anywhere she goes.
I think you're missing my point, Rue. Nothing in high school lasts forever.
Rue
[V.O.] Maddy wasn't doing well. Over the course of the last five days, Maddy had sent Nate a total of 273 text messages. None of which he answered. Plus, everyone in her life was against her.
SSonia
[in Spanish] It's not real love, Maddy.
Who the fuck are you to judge?!
SSonia
[in Spanish] Don't swear!
Seriously, Mom. Dad has slept on the couch since I was ten years old.
SSonia
[in Spanish] Don't be cruel, Maddy!
I'm not! I'm just saying, love is a million things. Sometimes it feels good and sometimes it doesn't. The one thing I know is that Nate loves me no matter what. He'd fucking kill for me, and I'd kill for him! It feels good to know that there's one person in this whole fucked up world who has my back! You think I want this?! You live in the same house and you don't even say one word to each other! That's the difference between me and you!
SSonia
[in Spanish] You're right. I felt the exact same way about every person I ever dated! The same!
I think I'm gonna get really fucked up tonight.
Rue
[V.O.] The only other time I'd ever seen Jules drink was the night of McKay's party. It's not like I'm a drag and want everyone to be sober around me. It's just, something felt off.
Tequila makes me aggressive.
[groans] Tequila makes me wanna dance.
Rue
I–I once took, like, ten Vicodin, and drank an entire thing of tequila, and then I, like, blacked out for three days. But while I was blacked out, I still went to school and did homework and shit. It was really weird.
Well, let's not do that tonight.
Rue
I won't. I'm... I'm clean, so we're good. [chuckles]
Wait a minute. I was supposed to be your chaperone... but now I'm drunk.
Rue
I don't, like, actually need a chaperone.
Rue
Hey, man. Uh, look, I owe you an apology.
Nah, come on, now. We're good.
Rue
Bro. Man, I... I said some really fucked-up shit I didn't mean.
Listen, Rue. You a drug addict. I don't take nothin' a drug addict says personally, 'cause I don't believe nothin' a drug addict say. I love you, I hate you. You the best, go fuck yourself. It's all the same shit, you know what I'm sayin'? Y'all just lookin' for an angle in.
Rue
Yeah, I know, but... As your friend, I need you to know that I'm sorry. And I love you.
Rue
And thank you for not... selling me drugs.
As your friend, I got you. You sober?
Rue
[exhales] Yeah.
Rue
You know, it's weird. I've been fucked up so long that it kind of feels like a new drug.
Rue
The highs are high, but the... The lows are low.
[to Rue] Yo, ain't that your homegirl right there?
[Rue sees Jules drunkenly stumble and fall into the pool]
Rue
Jules, what are you doing?
[starts reciting Romeo and Juliet] Although I joy in thee, I have no joy in this contract tonight.
Rue
What are you talking about? I don't know what that means.
It's too rash. Too unadvised. Too sudden. Too like the light in which thou doth cease to breathe.
Rue
Jules, you're drunk, okay? And you sound like an idiot. Can you please get out of the pool?
'Ere one can say "it lightens." Sweet, good night! This bud of love by summer's ripening breath may prove a beauteous flower when we next meet.
Rue
[V.O.] And maybe Ali was right about Jules. 'Cause this doesn't feel good. [to Jules] Stop, okay. Can you stop? Stop. Stop! S-Stop, Jules! [V.O.] I just wish she'd told me about last night.
Did all this happen because I left?
Rue
No.
Rue
Yeah, I promise. I've felt like this my whole life, Jules. Not all the time, but sometimes. You make it better, though.
Rue
For what?
For not telling you the truth.
Rue
[V.O.] For everyone who was calling me manic, I was, like, 92 percent correct. But something was different about Jules.
Rue, you look fucking amazing.
Rue
Jules, I am deeply uncomfortable right now.
Listen, you look hot. And the fact that you usually dress like Seth Rogen, although you make it cute sometimes, like, it crushes my soul.
Rue
I don't dress like Seth Rogen.
When was the last time you didn't wear a hoodie and sweatpants?
Rue
I don't know, like... now.
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