Connor quotes from Angel

Connor

[After arriving through The Portal] Hi, Dad.

Connor

I found food in a big metal box outside. - Dad?

Oh, good boy. You got it. Now. Let's have a look at the date. (Stares at the paper mutely for a moment) Days. We've been gone only days.

Lorne

Oh, hey, kiddo. I didn't see you there. You looking for your dad? Come on. He's upstairs. I'll show you the room. - This way.

Connor

I'm not going anywhere with you, demon.

Lorne

I'll tell you what, since you were raised in a hell dimension by a psychopath, and since that happens to be a topic that I know a little something about, we'll just let that slide. Now I'll fetch your pop for you.

Connor

Filthy demon.

Lorne

Actually, that's UNCLE filthy demon to you. It wasn't that long ago, like a week, I was changing your diapers, you little...

Angel

Someday you'll learn the truth, and you'll hate yourself. Don't. It's not your fault. I don't blame you.

Connor

Liar!

Angel

Listen to me. I love you. Never forget that. (shouting now as the coffin is sealed) Connor! Never forget that I'm your father, and I love you.

Lorne

Back in Pylea, they used to call me 'sweet potato'.

Connor

Really?

Lorne

Yeah, well, the exact translation was 'fragrant tuber', but...

Angel

Sit down.

Connor

You're too weak to take me.

Angel

You really think that?

Angel

So, how was your summer? Mine was fun. Saw some fish, went mad with hunger, hallucinated a whole bunch.

Angel

Because I killed Holtz, except I didn't. I tried telling you that while you were busy offshore dumping me, but I didn't know the whole score. Holtz killed himself. Actually he had your buddy Justine do it with an ice pick. Just to make you hate me.

Angel

What I deserve is open to debate. But understand there is a difference between wishing vengeance on someone and taking it. So now the questions becomes: what do you deserve?

Angel

Daddy's not finished talking.

Angel

Wesley told me everything that's been going on. So, as far as I'm concerned what you deserve rests on one answer: [Angel leans in closer.] Did you do something to Cordelia?

Connor

No.

He's lying.

Connor

No, I'm not!

Gunn

No way she just happened to disappear the same night.

Connor

I'm telling the truth, okay?

Angel

I know. You've done enough lying for me to know the difference. The truth has a better sound to it, less nasal, you know? Get up. [Connor stands up.] I can tell. What you did to me... was unbelievable, Connor. But then, I got stuck in a hell dimension by my girlfriend one time for a hundred years, so three months under the ocean actually gave me perspective. Kind of a M. C. Esher perspective -- but I did get time to think. About us, about the world. Nothing in the world is the way it ought to be. It's harsh, and cruel. But that's why there's us. Champions. It doesn't matter where we come from, what we've done or suffered, or even if we make a difference. We live as though the world were as it should be, to show it what it can be. You're not a part of that yet. I hope you will be. I love you, Connor. Now get out of my house.

Connor

You happy now?

Angel

I didn't ask for this. I didn't ask to be attacked. I didn't ask to be a freak. Hell, I didn't even ask to be born.

Connor

What's a zombie?

Angel

It's an undead thing.

Connor

Like you?

Angel

No, zombies are slow-moving, dimwitted things that crave human flesh.

Connor

Like you.

Connor

Everyone's afraid of you.

Is that my shirt?

Connor

Not anymore.

Looks good on you, son.

Connor

[smirks] So did Cordy.

She looks good on everybody.

Connor

Angel warned me about you. Said I should remember you're not my real father.

Yeah, that was a nice speech. Touching. I think it ended with you promising to kill me.

Connor

I remember.

Kind of unnecessary, don't you think? I mean, with your track-record, I'll be staking myself by the end of the day.

Connor

It's fine by me.

Darla felt the same way. It made her sick, you squirming inside her. So, she jammed a stake in her own heart, just so she wouldn't have to hear your first whiny breath.

Connor

You don't know anything.

Then there was Holtz. It disappointed him so much that he stabbed himself in the neck.

Connor

My fa...Holtz was a good man. All he ever wanted was for you to get the punishment you deserve. And you will.

When you think about it, the first woman you boned is the closest thing you've ever had to a mother. (gasps) Screwing your mom and trying to kill your dad. Hmm...there should be a play.

Connor

You think I care what you say? Angel told me how you'd try to hurt me, how you aren't my real dad, just some animal in a cage. Angel's my dad.

I'm gonna cry.

Connor

That's what he told me. And he thought I believed him. The truth is, Angel's just something that you're forced to wear. You're my real father.

Faith

He'll do what I tell him.

Connor

(sarcastically) Yeah, sure I will.

Faith

(after an exchange of blows) I get it, you're a super-being. (another flurry ensues ending with Faith's crossbow at Connor's throat) Are you a murderer? Cause I am. And if it comes down to you or Angelus, you haven't shown me a thing to want to take your side. (Connor reluctantly leaves)

Gunn

I like her.

Willow

You must be Angel's handsome yet androgynous son.

Connor

It's Connor.

Willow

And the sneer's genetic, who knew?

Connor

All right, I get it. I messed up.

Faith

Hey, cheer up, punk. That just makes you one of us.

Gunn

You headed out?

Faith

Hey, no tears, big guy.

Gunn

Nah, I'm good. I just wish I could've seen you kickin' the crap outta junior here.

Faith

It was pretty funny.

Connor

Somebody there?

Darla

(o.s.) I've always been there, close to your heart. After all...

Darla

...isn't that where a mother belongs?

Connor

You can't be my mother.

Darla

[softly] I have her memories, her feelings. Isn't that what makes a person who they are?

[weeping in the corner]) Let me go, please...

Darla

I know that sound, the look in her eyes, the smell of fear. [kneels beside the girl.] I've nurtured it a thousand times in all the people that I've murdered.

Connor

My mother's dead.

Darla

And I'll always be a part of you. You shared your soul with me once when you were growing inside of me when I'd lost my own. You brought light to my shadow, filled my heart with joy and love. I'd never felt so close to any living thing as I did to my beautiful boy.

Connor

Why'd you leave me? Did you hate me that much?

Darla

Baby, no. I wanted to be with you more than anything.

Connor

You killed yourself. I wasn't even born yet. And you-

Darla

Did what I had to. My life for yours. I did so many terrible things, Connor, so much destruction, so much pain. You were the one good thing I ever did. The only good thing. I'd die every day for the rest of eternity for you. And this... [Gestures to the virgin girl]...is how you repay me?

Connor

You don't understand. We need her for our baby, to keep it safe.

Darla

By anointing it in the blood of an innocent? You really think that safety can be plucked from the arms of an evil deed?

Connor

Good, evil. They're just words.

Darla

[shakes her head] Don't let this happen, Connor. Don't let my death mean nothing.

Connor

They hate us... because we're special.

I don't hate you. Please.

Darla

They're scared because of what you've done not because of what you are.

Connor

They wanted to kill me when I was still inside of you.

Darla

But that changed when they saw you, held you in their arms, felt the warmth of your skin, the goodness in your heart.

Connor

And it will happen again when they hold my child. It's the only way.

Darla

You have a choice, Connor. That is something more precious than you'll ever know.

Connor

What choice? They're hunting us like animals!

Darla

Because you're acting like one. As a vampire I killed without mercy or remorse because I didn't have a soul. What's your excuse?

Connor

You think I wanna do this?

Darla

Then don't.

Connor

I have to.

Darla

Why? [Gestures to Cordelia in the next room] Because she told you? There are things happening, Connor, things that I can't... It has to be your choice. You can stop this.

Connor

Her blood for our baby's. It's fair, isn't it?

Please, I wanna go home.

Connor

Shut up!

Darla

This isn't you, Connor.

Connor

You've been gone a long time, Mom. How would you know?

Darla

Because we shared a soul. I feel the pain, the anger, the hurt, like it were my own. But most of all, I feel the good in you and no matter how much you're beaten or twisted or lied to, it's still there in your heart. I know it, and deep down, you know it, too.

Connor

Shhhhh. Shhh. It's okay.

Darla

You're all right now. Everything's going to be all right.

Cordelia

What are you doing?

Connor

[frozen] Nothing. I, uh...

Cordelia

It's time. Take her in the other room.

Darla

Listen to your heart.

Connor

[to Cordelia] She didn't do anything. We should let her go.

Cordelia

No we shouldn't. We need her, Connor. Our baby...

Connor

Shouldn't be anointed with innocent blood.

Cordelia

Anointed? Who's been filling your head with big, confusing words?

Connor

Just been thinking about it.

Cordelia

Or, maybe... a little birdie's been pecking at you behind my back.

Darla

[to Connor] She'll lie to you.

Cordelia

You know how much they love to use the magic, Connor. A spell for this, a spell for that.

Darla

Close her out, baby.

Cordelia

Whatever you're hearing, whatever you think you're seeing...it's a trick.

Darla

Don't let her in.

Cordelia

It's Angel.

Darla

No.

Cordelia

Trying to turn you against me with a cheap vision of... [looks to where Darla's standing] ...Darla?

Connor

[to Cordelia] You can see her?

Cordelia

I see the lies.

Darla

Connor, listen to me.

Cordelia

It's not her.

Darla

You have to let her go.

Cordelia

It's your father. This is how much he hates you.

Darla

I love you. Please.

Cordelia

Torturing you with this sad imitation of your dead mother.

Darla

[crying] Don't let her do this.

Cordelia

Are you going to let them do this to us? Are you going to let them kill our baby?

Darla

[desperate] Connor, listen to me...

Connor

[yelling, crying] You are not my mother!

[weeping] No!

Darla

Please, don't do this Connor. Don't--

Cordelia

There. That wasn't so hard, was it?