life should be beautiful and bright but no matter how hard i try, everything i touch turns to ashes
“Deep Down” · Season 4
In this episode: Puppet Angel (4), Charles Gunn (3), Fred (3), Wesley Wyndam-Pryce (2), Lorne (2), Connor (2), Cordelia Chase (1)
Back in Pylea, they used to call me 'sweet potato'.
Really?
Yeah, well, the exact translation was 'fragrant tuber', but...
To family.
To family.
As long as it's not mine.
FFred
Marissa, stop. We just wanna talk.
MMarissa
I don't know anything.
You psychic?
MMarissa
No.
Then shut up and let us ask the question first.
[Wesley steers a small ship across the dark ocean.]
JJustine
So, what's it gonna be tonight, captain? Bicycle, old tire, or maybe we'll get real lucky and catch us nice shopping cart. Here's a wacky thought: why don't you swim down there yourself?
[Wesley flips a switch and looks down at a readout.]
No contact. We'll try the next grid.
[He walks over to the map laid out on the table and makes some markings.]
JJustine
You really think finding Angel is going to change anything?
Everything changes.
JJustine
Well, I guess anything is better than sitting around in my cage all day with nothing to do but to fill my bucket.
Perhaps you should have considered that before slitting my throat.
[He walks back to the steering wheel.]
JJustine
The great Wesley Wyndham-Price, the shining beacon of all that's good and pure. But wait, no! That's before he started banging the enemy and keeping slave-girl in his closet.
You were always a slave, Justine. You just couldn't see the chains.
JJustine
Thanks, Swami, I'll meditate on that.
You think she would be disappointed?
JJustine
Who?
Your sister. That's where it all began, isn't it? Sister murdered by a vampire, consumed by a need of revenge...
JJustine
For justice!
Is that what you call it? Turning a son against his father.
JJustine
Angel got what he deserved.
We all get what we deserve. You and Holtz deserved each other. You two have so much in common. Pain, loss, deep seated lack of anything approaching humor.
JJustine
I don't know. We had a few laughs. Getting you to steal Angel's baby, now that was a good one.
Better than tricking Connor into sinking his father to the bottom of the ocean?
JJustine
Well, that was worth a couple of yuks, too.
Not much of a plan though, was it, really? Easy to figure out which door to kick in when Angel went missing. And not much harder to persuade you to betray everything Holtz had given his life for. Not that it was worth very much. Well, you should know. You're the one that ended it.
[Justine picks up the wrench that was holding down the maps and hauls back to hit the back of Wesley's head.]
[Without turning to look] I'll take away your bucket.
[Justine tosses the wrench back on the table.]
Sit down.
You're too weak to take me.
You really think that?
[Connor looks at Angel for another moment, then turns, picks up the chair, slams it down on the floor, and sits facing Angel. Gunn begins to stir and sit up. Angel lowers himself into a chair across from Connor with a slight sigh.]
So, how was your summer? Mine was fun. Saw some fish, went mad with hunger, hallucinated a whole bunch.
Connor: You deserved worse.
Because I killed Holtz, except I didn't. I tried telling you that while you were busy offshore dumping me, but I didn't know the whole score. Holtz killed himself. Actually he had your buddy Justine do it with an ice pick. Just to make you hate me.
Connor: Even if, you still deserved it.
What I deserve is open to debate. But understand there is a difference between wishing vengeance on someone and taking it. So now the questions becomes: what do you deserve?
[Connor suddenly umps up from his chair and runs for the door, but Angel intercepts him, tossing him against the wall.]
Daddy's not finished talking.
[He crouches down next to where Connor sits, scrunched up against the wall.]
Wesley told me everything that's been going on. So, as far as I'm concerned what you deserve rests on one answer: [Angel leans in closer.] Did you do something to Cordelia?
No.
FFred
He's lying.
No, I'm not!
No way she just happened to disappear the same night.
I'm telling the truth, okay?
I know. You've done enough lying for me to know the difference. The truth has a better sound to it, less nasal, you know? Get up. [Connor stands up.] I can tell. What you did to me... was unbelievable, Connor. But then, I got stuck in a hell dimension by my girlfriend one time for a hundred years, so three months under the ocean actually gave me perspective. Kind of a M. C. Esher perspective -- but I did get time to think. About us, about the world. Nothing in the world is the way it ought to be. It's harsh, and cruel. But that's why there's us. Champions. It doesn't matter where we come from, what we've done or suffered, or even if we make a difference. We live as though the world were as it should be, to show it what it can be. You're not a part of that yet. I hope you will be. I love you, Connor. Now get out of my house.
[Angel sways on his feet then leans against the wall. Fed and Gunn run over to him.]
FFred
Angel!
All that talking really takes it out of you.
FFred
You need rest.
I need Cordy, now. Wherever she is, whatever she's going through, we have to find her. [panning out to the sky]
[glowing among other higher beings] God, I am so bored.
If he ain't dead, I'm gonna kill him!!
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