[enraged] I RAISED YOU! I DID! OKAY?! AND YOU DON'T EVER FUCKING SCARE ME LIKE THAT! [calms down] You're not a good person, Rue. [Rue grins and chuckles] You smiling? Really? You're proud of that?
You know what’s a shame, Mom? My dad’s dead. Kinda keeps you from admitting what a shit fuckin’ mother you are. [scoffs] “Oh, poor Leslie. Her daughter’s an addict, but, you know, her dad did die.”
[Rue walks into Gia's bedroom]
You hear that, Gia?! You hear that?! I don’t wanna put too much pressure on you, but you’re probably gonna have to be a fucking neurosurgeon, or maybe an astronaut because if not, then Mom is zero for fucking two. And that means that it might actually just be her fucking fault.
Yeah, that means, maybe, she actually fucked up!
[Rue continues searching for the suitcase with the pills]
You don’t fucking recognize me?! Well, neither do fucking I! I DON'T FUCKING RECOGNIZE ME EITHER! Where did you put it?! [groans] You wish I was different?! So do I! You fucking hate me?! SO DO I!
...
Tell me where they are, Mom! Fuck! [screams] Where did you fucking put them?! I know they’re fucking in here, Mom! I know they’re in here! What did you do with them?! What did you do?! Where the fuck are they? What did you do with them?
We flushed them down the toilet.
[Rue stops in her tracks and hurries into the dining room, where Jules and Elliot are seated]
You look embarrassed, Rue. You embarrassed ’cause Jules just heard everything you said? Don’t cry. Own that shit. Own what you just said.
[whispers] Fuck you. [chuckles] Oh, okay. I see what the fuck is going on here. Well, first thing’s first, Elliot here is a fucking addict... so if he tells you anything fucking different, he’s a liar and a fucking snake. Fuck you!
This doesn’t fucking concern you, Jules.
‘Cause I don’t want you to kill yourself.
Yeah, so you go tell my fuckin’ mom?!
I didn’t know what else to do.
And why the fuck would you say anything? [scoffs] You are fucking dead to me.
I fucking mean every fucking word. You're dead to me, Jules.
You and me? We're fucking done. There is nothing fucking there any more. Nothing... fucking... there. You know, I got a lot of regrets in my life. But gotta tell you, Jules. Meeting you... has gotta be at the top of my fucking list. [pause; Jules tears up] Oh, now you wanna fucking cry? Now you wanna fucking cry? Yeah, you’re a fucking vampire. You just go around fucking sucking the fucking spirit out of everyone! You like that shit... makes you feel good.
You know that’s not true.
It is fucking true. It’s all about fucking Jules, right? And you don’t know what the fuck you’re doing. You just act all fucking innocent, like you’re this fucking sweet little angel. This innocent, sweet, little fucking angel who doesn’t know what the fuck they’re doing. You know what the fuck you’re doing!
No the fuck you don’t. You love being loved! You’re a fucking greedy whore who just likes sucking the life out of people. And it fucking hurts, Jules!
No, you don’t. Stop saying that! You don’t love me! You fucking left me… when I fucking needed you. You fucking left me... when I was at my fucking lo... [breathes heavily] You fucking left me at my fucking lowest! And a real fucking friend, someone who fucking loves you, wouldn’t do some shit like that, Jules!
I love you and I wanna help you.
If you wanna help me, uh, you can honestly–You can just stay out of my fucking life. Forever. [chuckles] That would be great because, honestly, looking at you makes me physically fucking ill!
LLaurie
You know, a doctor once told me they did brain studies on people who've done a lot of opiates, and that over time all the chemicals in your brain that make you happy and feel good start to decrease because your body's getting it artificially. But the longer you use, it just starts to weaken and wither, kinda like a limb that's not getting blood to it anymore. And then it just sort of falls off, and you get something called cell death where you just have these big dead spots in the parts of your brain that used to make you happy. No matter what you do, you can never get it back. He said it's basically the same brain as people who've had major strokes. But the silver lining is that the things that don't feel good don't feel as bad anymore. You know, if I was going through withdrawal, I would do anything. It's one of the good parts of being a woman: Even if you don't have money, you've still got something people want.
I think I'm gonna be sick.
[V.O.] My mom is one of those rare people, but maybe that’s ’cause she’s my mom. She also grew up in the church. And say what you want about Christians, at least they believe in forgiveness. I don’t remember everything I said to my mom.
[Rue panics as she gets into a cold bath prepared by Leslie]
It's okay, Rue. It's okay.
[V.O.] I wish I could say I didn’t mean any of it. Is that actually true? I mean, I thought it. I felt it… I said it. I’m sure most people would say the world would be a better place without me. I don’t disagree. In fact, I’ve been trying to leave it for as long as I can remember. Ali is also one of those rare people. The strange thing is, I bet most people would say the same thing about him. “He’s just a fucking crackhead wife-beater.” I bet his daughter said that. Even I kinda said that. That I regret. Really fucking regret. But if I'm being honest about who I am… I’m a liar, a thief. I’m violent, abusive, manipulative...
[Rue continues breathing deeply in the bathtub]
It’s cold. It’s cold, Mom. Mom, it’s cold.
Rue, you have to break your fever, baby, okay? Okay? Come on.
[V.O.] ...and even if I got clean today, no one would forget the trauma of me not being clean. But I really regret what I said to Ali. Reducing someone’s life to a moment–an ugly moment–and punishing them for it... That’s what cops do. It’s actually what everyone does. It’s what you would do to me if you didn’t know me.
[Rue calls Ali to apologize to him]
Um... I just wanted to, uh, call you and tell you that, um... I just wanted to call you and tell you that I’m sorry for what I said. Um... and I really regret it. Uh... I just-I never should’ve said that.
And I’m sorry. I’m sorry.
Rue! Listen to me. I forgive you.
[sniffling] How do you know that I mean it?
Because the hour is certain to come. So we must forgive graciously.
[crying] Thank you. [shudders] Thank you.
[V.O.] Now, Nate didn’t know what happened with Cassie and Maddy because when he exercises, he puts his phone on silent.
...
[V.O.] It wasn’t the 38 missed calls from Cassie that concerned him. It was the fact that there were zero calls from Maddy. Part of the reason Nate loved Maddy as much as he did is because she was loyal. But it’s also what scared the living shit out of him. If anyone crossed her, she’d bury them... and he had now really fucking crossed her. And there was no doubt in Nate’s mind what Maddy was about to do.
[to Kat on the phone] You know when a kid shoots up a school and they go to interview the parents, and the parents are like, "We had no idea. He seemed, like, totally normal." And everyone watching is like, "You’re a fucking idiot." That’s how I feel, but with Cassie.
Look, I never trusted her.
Because she seems like the kind of person who would fuck your boyfriend.
[sighs] I think I actually wanna murder her.
No, like, actually plan a murder and carry it out.
Like a grisly murder. One that shocks the nation.
[casually] I think that's more than understandable.
[Suze hands Lexi a knife block out of concern for Cassie's well-being]
SSuze
Lex… Hon, take these in the back and hide them in the bushes.
You really think she’s gonna stab herself?
SSuze
Your sister’s very emotional. Yes.
SSuze
In the bushes, now! Go! Hurry!
[Lexi walks outside to their backyard and grabs some branches to hide the knives]
[V.O.] It was at some point while breaking branches off a tree in order to camouflage a bucket of kitchen knives in a bush… that Lexi started to have second thoughts about putting on her play.
Well, you know what… what you should put in the play? That time I beat Nate’s ass at that party.
[laughing] No! Oh, God! [Fez chuckles] I don’t know. Cassie isn’t doing too well. I’m worried that… she’s gonna see the play, and then, she’s gonna… freak out.
Yeah, I mean… Everybody gets their feelings hurt, you know?
Some people… Some people need to get their feelings hurt sometimes.
Yeah… It’s, like, the first time in my life I’m doing something for myself.
Shit. What exactly is… the idea behind the play?
I don’t know, it’s… it’s, like, about a group of girlfriends who sort of… grow up and grow apart.
Damn, so it’s kinda like, Stand By Me vibes.
Yes, exactly! I love that movie. That’s… exactly it.
Hell yeah. Come on now. I’ve watched that film, like, 50 times.
That’s my shit, come on. In fact, my grandma has it on DVD, you know?
[V.O.] The truth was, Nate didn’t give a shit about what would happen to his dad. He did, however, care about what happened to his dad’s business because, eventually, that would become Nate’s business. And while he didn’t know much about real estate… he did know there wasn’t much of a market for homes built by a pedophile… or the son of a pedophile. Even though, technically, he wasn’t a pedophile, but it’s not like you could argue that out loud. Meanwhile, Jules was at home, and she hadn’t talked to Elliot since… You know what? Actually, I don’t wanna talk about Jules and Elliot. Fuck them. Let’s go back to Maddy.
[Jules gets call from an unknown number]
Look, I know you probably don’t wanna talk to me, but I'm about to be outside your house and I really need to speak to you.
[She hangs up the phone and immediately gets a series of text message from Nate]
"it's about my dad.
and you.
i just want you to be able to protect yourself.
im out front."
[Jules thinks for a moment, then grabs a box cutter from her room before she meets Nate in his truck. Nate offers her a bottle of beer.]
It’s good to see you. I know you hate me. I’ve done a lot of shitty things, but um… No, this isn’t one of ’em.
I know, but you are gonna be interested in the second thing. Unfortunately for you, you’re gonna have to hear my apology first. Uh… I’m sorry. For everything that I’ve done to you. [pause] You didn't deserve it. I was, uh… I was trying to protect somebody that didn’t deserve to be protected. [beat] If I could take it all back, I would, but… I did what I did. I found out about you and my dad from… from this disc. [holds up a CD case and gives it to Jules] Yeah, he, uh–He secretly records every encounter he has, and he’s been doing it, well… Well, honestly, as long as I can remember. I stole it from him, and he had a–He had a mental breakdown, and he moved out of the house, so I thought that I would, uh… I thought I’d give it to you, and, you know, you can do with it as you please.
Have a lot of people seen it?
Does he know you’re giving this to me?
No. No, he would fucking kill me.
Is this, like, the only copy, or… is it other places?
I mean, it’s the only one that I know of, yeah.
…Why are you giving this to me?
Honestly, the answer is too stupid and simple. I think it’s better if we just keep it a mystery.
What, did you become, like, a good person?
[shakes his head] Absolutely not, no. I mean, you should’ve seen what I had to do to get it.
[pause] I came out here with a box cutter in my sleeve. You know, in case there was a chance I might have to slit your throat. [Nate just grins] That’s how little I trust you. Well… thank you.
Okay. [grabs Jules' hand] Hey, um… For what it’s worth… everything I ever said was true.
[beat; shrugs] Same here.
[V.O.] For the last few months, Lexi had been talking to Fezco every day.
I still don't understand what the play is actually about though.
Well, that's nice. Everybody's gonna love that.
Yeah, I–I mean, I hope so. I just... I keep second-guessing myself and getting anxious. Like, if people are gonna think that it's good or bad, or if it's gonna upset people or not.
But why would anyone be upset by it?
Oh, you know, it's–it's based on real people.
Yeah, you really strokin' the bee's nest with that one.
I mean... if someone invited me to a play, and... they didn't even tell me I was a character in it? I'd definitely have some questions.
Well, would you be upset by it?
FFezci
And the intentions of the person who made the play.
Then you ain't got nothin' to worry about.
But... what if they think my intentions aren't good when in reality they are good?
Well, that's what I call a quandary.
Uh... Wait, what was the question again?
Like, what happens if Cassie sees the play and thinks I’m being cruel, even though I’m not?
Well, how about you just don’t invite her then?
Even more mad than if she actually saw the play?
You broke me. Completely broke me. I give up. Hey... you wanna kill yourself doing drugs? Go ahead. I'm not gonna stand in your way.
Mom, are you fucking with me right now?
No. If you wanna fry every last brain cell in your head, go ahead. [pause; Rue laughs] What?
That's exciting to you, huh?
I just feel like there's a catch here.
I can't convince you that your life is important. You're gonna have to make that decision on your own. You'll be 18 soon... and outta my house. And you're gonna make whatever decisions you're gonna make. I'm taking you off my plate.
Yeah, but she's fine, though.
She's been getting D's in math.
She's been in detention three times in the past two weeks. And every morning, when I go into her room to make sure she's awake, she already up... on the phone. And I know she's not getting any sleep. But if you say she's fine... I'll just take your word for it.
I didn't know any of that.
Why would you? You only ever think about yourself.
If I have to choose between losing one daughter or two, I'mma fight to save her.
[thinks for a moment] No, that's fair.
[Cassie is crying in her bedroom closet after Maddy learns the truth about her affair with Nate. Maddy bangs repeatedly on the door.]
Open the fucking door, Cassie! Open the door and tell me it was worth it! You owe me that! [tries opening the closet door] Open the fucking door, Cassie! What kind of fucking friend are you? What the fuck?! [pause] This isn't about Nate. This is about you and me and our friendship. And if you wanna throw it away, then fine. 'Cause I don't wanna be fucking friends with you.
Come here, babe. Let it go.
I'm just sick of it. I'm sick of it. He put me through hell and now he's with my fucking best friend? Like, what the fuck?!
[to Cassie] Open the fucking door, Cassie! Open the fucking door!
She's not gonna open it. Let's just go.
Open the door! [bangs on the door]
[to Cassie] You're a fucking coward. You're a fucking coward, and I would've never done this to you! I would've never done this to you!
[Nate gets offended by the homoerotic jock dance number in Lexi's play]
Why the fuck are they laughing? That shit is so fucking homophobic.
[Nate gets up and leaves the auditorium. Cassie quickly follows him.]
Babe, I'm so sorry. I had no idea Lex–
She's your fucking sister!
You know what? Pack your shit, get the fuck outta my house. I'm fucking done.
