Abby Lockhart quotes from E.R.

[Morris walks in on Pratt and Abby watching an online adult video] What are you guys watching?

Abby

It's a website, hosted by a couple of our patients.

Pratt

Does that look consensual to you?

Oh yeah! That's sensual.

Abby

[smacks Morris over the head] Consensual.

Abby

You're not lost, are you? If you need directions...

No, no. [pauses] You know why we're here? Because of war. Without it, you would be a pediatrician or an oncologist. I'd probably still be losing my mind in the ICU.

Abby

War, huh?

Uh huh. Emergency medicine is actually the result of centuries of warfare. It's a field that was defined by doctors and nurses, in bombed out buildings, trying to take care of patients on dirty canvas stretchers. And performing procedures in tent hospitals that were literally hundreds of feet away from where the battles raged. And these people, our predecessors, they had a simple primary focus: survival. And down in the bunkers they dug in deep, to try to save their patients lives and to try to save their own lives. And they ended up giving life to this whole new art form. This great collaborative enterprise, that we still carry on today. That's why we're here.

Abby

[nods her head] You don't get out much, do you?

Abby

Trauma panel, and a catheterized urine. Sorry, we gotta do it.

Neela

Bollocks.

Abby

Hi. I got some magazines. And your favorite, gummy worms.

[not paying attention] Thank you.

Abby

And um, and Brad Pitt. He's outside. He's over Angelina and the whole adoption thing, and he wants you.

[to Abby, after her son Joe is injured and being sedated] I remember, when Alex was three... I took him to one of those bounce-houses at the carnival. Of course, he's in there with five and six-year-old kids, so he gets knocked down, right? And every time he tries to get up, he keeps getting knocked down- and he's crying, "Mommy, Mommy!" And- the attendant won't let me in because he thinks I'm some stupid teenager, right?

Abby

So, what'd you do?

I stood there, and I... cheered him on. And, every time he got knocked down, I told him, "I know you can get up!" But... that's when it hit me. They fall. And all you can do is be there... and hope they keep gettin' up.

Julia

Everyone could use a blessing now and then.

Abby

Or a memorial.

Julia

We have our dead, and we have let them go. Now let's turn our attention back to the work of the living.

Abby

I started drinking again.

Luka

When?

Abby

The night Joe got hurt. And I.... [long pause] can't stop.

Luka

I thought when I came back, we just had to get used to being married again. But then things didn't get better and I thought... [long pause] So what do we do?

Abby

I need to fix it. I need to go somewhere, a facility, with professionals, and get better. And I need to believe it this time, and I need you to believe it. [long pause] And I need you to help me. [another long pause] So... so, take Joe... go to Croatia, for your father, while I do that.

Luka

You want us to go without you?

Abby

Yeah, I just...

Luka

But you're his mother!

Abby

I know that! I know that! [pause] But I haven't been a very good one. And I honestly don't think I can be until I deal with this.

Luka

Can't we do this together?

Abby

This is how we do it together! You have to help me do it... alone.

Welcome back. How was Croatia?

Abby

Oh, you know... European.

Abby

I was a bad friend, I was a bad doctor, I was a bad wife, I was a bad mother, uh...

Pratt

No. We see bad mothers come to here, all the time and you do not qualify. We all have flaws, Abby, but how many of us actually work to fix them?

Abby

I'm going to go! I promise, this time I'm going to go.

It's been a week. He's been waiting a week for you.

Abby

I'm not so sure about that.

You can't keep putting it off.

Abby

What if it doesn't work?

It works, as long as you believe in it.

Abby

I'm not talking about the program. I'm talking about my marriage. I just... I don't know if I can fix it.

Abby

What am I supposed to do? I told you the truth and it wasn't easy for me and you know how badly I feel and how sorry I am.

Luka

We're not doing this now.

Abby

What? What do you want? Just tell me. I swear to God I don't care what it is, I'll do it. What do you want?

Luka

Did you think coming to Croatia and apologizing was all it would take?

Abby

No! I didn't.

Luka

You tell me you were weak, you screwed up, you broke my trust, you put our son in jeopardy. What the hell do you expect?

Abby

I don't know!

Pratt

Hey, Abby. It's a beautiful spring day, the Cubs are playing at Wrigley Field, and we live in America.

Abby

I think I solved the case of the missing Lexapro.

Pratt

Sorry. I was looking for some un-depressed person that I could be happy around, and uh... heh.

Abby

You chose me? Must be slim pickings.

I keep thinking about what he said... The last words of Greg Pratt were, "Don't screw it up, Morris."

Abby

You won't. If I were in trouble, Archie, I would call for you. [Morris looks at her doubtfully] I would. I would trust you with anything. And I didn't always feel that way, but I do now.

Abby

You know, you won't really have me to beat up on, after tonight.

Banfield

So I understand. You know, despite some... obvious issues with authority, I'm wondering why you're leaving.

Abby

For my family. I have a husband and a little boy. You know, we just sort of need a... fresh start.

Banfield

[nods] How old is your son?

Abby

A little over two.

Banfield

That's a great age. I love that age. [pause] Well, your shift's almost over... Nice knowing you.

Abby

Good luck here. [they shake hands]

Haleh

Some we had to put up for them- Dr. Greene, Greg. You're the only one who's ever gotten to do two.

Abby

[looking at the tags] I don't see Carter up there.

Haleh

No, he wouldn't do it. He said it was defacing government property. s[he and Abby laugh, Abby puts up her and Luka's tags] We're gonna miss you so damn much. [she and Abby hug]