Owen Hunt quotes from Grey's Anatomy

Owen

Have you talked to Cristina? I presume you guys talk all the time, especially now.

Meredith

Yeah, we usually get on the phone Friday nights for me, Saturday mornings for her, pour drinks, settle in.

Owen

So, today's Friday. You gonna call her today?

Meredith

Yeah, I've missed the... Last couple.

Owen

Why?

Meredith

Well, before she left, she said something about Derek and I, and... She was right. And I don't want her to be right.

Callie

She was really pretty. The woman. At the bar. With the nice transducers. I'm not ready.

Owen

You gotta start sometime.

Callie

Owen, the last woman that I kissed in that bar, I ended up marrying.

Owen

Well, maybe just take the next one home then.

Callie

Uh...

Owen

Right?

Callie

Shut up. Hey, you're not ready either.

Owen

You know, I can't even imagine it. It's sex. Sure, you know, I've gone out and had one-night stands before. But... I don't know. I can't... Something real? I pulled that icicle out of her chest. Hell, I bathed her when she couldn't bathe herself. I can't imagine belonging to anyone like that again.

Callie

Have we used up all our happy? You ever afraid of that, that this is all there is now? It's like I had a certain amount of happy that was supposed to last my whole life, and I've used it all up. Do you think that's true?

Owen

God, I hope not.

Alex

Hey, uh, did Yang ever watch Meredith's kids? (sees Owen's face) See, I knew it. Mer's full of crap. I don't have to babysit for her.

Owen

No, no, she did. Cristina would take Zola. She'd take her home. And then when the diaper blew out, she'd hold her up to me like a bag of medical waste. Cristina would study. She'd eat all of Zola's snacks. And I would be the one down on the floor playing with blocks, so yes and no.

Alex

What are you doing this weekend?

Owen

I'd do it for Cristina, I'm not doing it for you.

Owen

Is this the attendings' lounge couch?

It was.

Owen

Dr. Herman, please stop making me be this guy. You can't just steal hospital furniture.

I need this couch. This is the best couch in the building. It's firm, but soft. Bouncy. Responsive. Would you like to try it out?

Owen

Well, um... I think that's, um... I... appreciate the, um, offer, but I...

Uh, Hunt. I'm messing with you.

Owen

You can talk to me. You're wound pretty tight. I just want you to know you can talk to me.

Amelia

My whole career, I have been the other Dr. Shepherd. He's the real one. I'm the other one. Right now, this plan of mine is theoretical. It's just talk. But at some point, I am going to slice into Dr. Herman's brain, and I have this sick feeling that when I face that tumor, I will discover that I am not just the other Dr. Shepherd... I'm the wrong Dr. Shepherd.

Owen

This is not about you! Everything isn't about you!

Amelia

Then what is it?!

Owen

There was a plane crash.

Amelia

Yes.

Owen

Not the one today. I'm talking about the plane that had Meredith and Derek and Arizona and Mark and Lexie and... Cristina. I put them on that plane. I signed the requisition for the airline. I paid for it. I was in charge. I don't care how long I've been out of the service. It was my watch, and they were my men. And I failed them. It was my fault. So, when something like this happens today, it brings it all back up. There was a plane crash.

Amelia

Owen...

Owen

And I won't survive another plane crash, Amelia. And that's all we are.

Amelia

Who died?

Owen

Amelia...

Amelia

I know the face. I've been here before. Everyone thinks they are the first person in the world to ever look at a human being like that, but... It's always the same face. Who is dead?

Owen

Derek. It's Derek. I'm so, so sorry. It was an MVC accident, and he wanted to help.

Amelia

I don't need the details. Dead is dead.

Owen

I am so... So sorry. I wish there was something I could...

Amelia

Thank you for telling me.

Owen

Amelia, if there's anything I can...

Amelia

I'm good. I've done this before. I know the drill. It's not a big deal.

Amelia

I have a baggie full of black-market oxy in my coat pocket, and I'm trying to decide whether or not to take it. I've got the dead-Derek thing completely managed. I know people were worried. Since he died, everybody's been looking at me, waiting for me to fall apart or freak out or just become a mess. Like some bomb everyone thinks is supposed to go off. My mother was calling three, four times a day. Addison was calling... Everyone. It makes sense. It's natural. Every man I've ever loved has died. Including my baby. Thank you, universe. So, I should be, like... Greek tragedy, turned to stone, bat-crap crazy, but I'm good. I got this. I am fine. I'm telling you, I'm amazing. I am saving lives left and right. I am putting butts in the seats in that OR gallery. I mean, people are fighting to hear me lecture. I am entertaining. Joke, joke, joke! I'm funny! I'm fun! I'm a party! I'm doing... I'm great! I'm handling the dead Derek thing really well.

Owen

Okay.

Amelia

Except today, I yelled at Richard, who was only trying to invite me for coffee, and then I went and scored oxy from this junkie doctor.

Owen

But you haven't taken any?

Amelia

Not yet. But I might. That's the thing. I really actually might. I have been sober for 1,321 days, Owen. I was fine. It was managed. But I might.

Owen

All this stuff you're... managing. You're not supposed to be managing it. You're supposed to be feeling it... Grief, loss, pain. It is normal.

Amelia

It's not normal.

Owen

It is. It is normal. It's not normal to you 'cause you've never done it. Instead of feeling it, feeling the grief and the pain, you've shoved it all down and you do drugs instead. Instead of moving through the pain, you run from it. You... Instead of dealing with being hurt and alone and afraid that this horrible, empty feeling is all there is, I run from it. I run off, and I sign up for another tour of active duty. We do these things. We run off, and we... we medicate. We do whatever it takes to cover it up and dull the sensation, but it's not normal. We're supposed to feel. We're supposed to love and hate... And hurt and grieve and break and... Be destroyed and... Rebuild ourselves to be destroyed again. That is human. That is humanity. That's... That's being alive. That's the point. That's the entire point. Don't... don't avoid it. Don't... Extinguish it.

Amelia

Derek died. He died. I don't want to feel it. I... I don't think I can. I don't think I even want to... I can't. I can't. I can't do this. I can't.

Owen

You have to. If you don't...

Amelia

No, I can't. Shh, I can't do this!

Owen

You have to. If you don't, that bag of oxy's not gonna be your last.

Owen

You're gonna be okay. You're gonna survive this, okay? Everybody does. It's perfectly normal. It's boring, even. It's so normal.

Amelia

You knew who she was all night, and you never bothered telling me? She killed Derek! You invite her in here. Y-you let me sit there and talk to her all I well, I hugged her! Why?! W-why would you do that to me?

Meredith

I did this to you?

Amelia

You should've told me. You should have. I thought that you and I––

Meredith

(screaming) I did. nothing. to you. I lost my husband and the father of my children and you're falling apart? I don't get to do that because I have three kids, so, please, SHUT UP AND GET OUT OF MY ROOM!!

Owen

[entering the room] Meredith---

Owen

When the plane crashed, when I heard Cristina's plane had crashed, my first thought was that she was dead, and for a moment, I felt relieved. And for a moment... I felt relieved. I felt terrible for feeling it, but it was there. And I always knew on some level she'd leave me, and I wasn't ready to be hurt like that. So if she was dead, we would stay frozen in time forever. And she'd be gone, but it wouldn't be so hard. It wouldn't be a choice, to walk away, to choose something else, to move to Switzerland and start another life. I was relieved that it was over with a minimum of damage, and I hate myself for that. So I am not perfect, Amelia. I can be selfish, and I can be scared, and I make things harder than I need to. I know I do. I make things hard for us.

Amelia

Wow. That is the worst thing I have ever heard. No, really, don't ever do drugs because you will never be able to stop.

Meredith

I made a promise to Cristina that I wouldn't let you go dark and twisty, that I'd be your person if you needed one.

Owen

I don't want to talk.

Meredith

Okay. You don't have to. But just tell me... Do we hate him?

Owen

We hate him.

Meredith

Okay, then we hate him.

Amelia

Hey, you ready? I'm starving.

Owen

Listen, can we do this another night? Uh, okay. I'm not hungry, and I don't want to...

Amelia

What's wrong?

Owen

Nothing, nothing. Just be better another night, okay?

Amelia

Is this about Riggs?

Owen

Can you... I'm not getting into it. Everything doesn't need to be talked about.

Amelia

Okay. Yeah, I understand. So another time you will call me, and we'll go out. But you won't, will you? Or you will and I will cave and go and I will talk too much and you will say nothing. And I'm... I don't know how to do this thing that you do where you make me feel like crap and there are no words coming out of your mouth. So... Whatever. You'll call me maybe... Or maybe not. And maybe I will not care.

Owen

I had a sister. Megan. She was three years younger than me. Smarter than me, funnier than me... Better person than me, okay? But she did everything I did. We went to med school together, and that's where we met Riggs. Nate was my best friend. And Megan loved him. And he was with her the day that we lost her. I trusted him with her, and he was like a brother to me. And he should've... But he didn't. And I don't talk about it.

Amelia

Today, I get this woman with a live grenade in her head who happens to be Derek and Meredith's surgical love child, and I get to screw this up now too. I think I'm going to kill this girl.

Owen

You want to know what I think? I think that if there were any other surgeon's name on this old chart, you wouldn't be thinking twice about this.

Amelia

Meredith doesn't think I can do it.

Owen

Who cares what she thinks? Meredith is not a neurosurgeon, and she certainly isn't you. Why are you giving a second to what she thinks? You're the one who has to do it, Amelia. So just do it.

Meredith

I tell my children, "When you're finished with yours toys, put them away."

Webber

Good morning.

Meredith

My kids don't need to see your penis, so the same goes for you.

Owen

Meredith, please.

Webber

There was a time where I would have asked, but I've learned.

Amelia

You don't just meet your perfect match and everything is beautiful and perfect. That's not how life works, and if anyone should understand that, it's you and me.

Owen

I'm having trouble understanding you now.

Amelia

Oh, stick with me. Okay, I create these obstacles out of dead people and drugs that I may or may not do, and sisters-in-law and I know I make this tough, it feels like work. Cause it's going to be work. If you and I move forward together, it is harder to... It's harder to love somebody than to walk away from them. And this is... This would be... And, oh, geez, this is messy and scary. God, Owen, it just scares the life out of me.

Owen

I'm scared, too. If you and I decide to be together, really together, I will wind up screwing all of this up.

Amelia

Me too! That is how - I screw everything up, all the time!

Owen

Let's screw some things up.