MeredithHow'd it go with the lawyers?
They told me my death rate. [looks at a small pile] These are the people I saved. [looks at a big pile] These are the people I killed.
Meredith
Okay. Well most of those people were terminal when they came to you. You were their last chance, and you take on impossible cases. Look at the clinical trial.
It's just so many people. More than Dahmer, Manson, and Bundy combined.
Meredith
You're not looking at the big picture.
[points to the big stack of files] This is the big picture.
Meredith
[about Derek] And he just walked out. Without saying a word, he just walked out!
Hunt won't even look at me, since he went all Apocalypse Now on me this morning.
Meredith
He had to get all scalpel happy up in that patients brain, and now he can't face it!
He thinks I'm what? This wilting flower? Well guess what, I'm the strong one.
Meredith
Oh my god! I'm the strong one.
You see, if I had that stomach cancer gene, I would get that gastrectomy no problem. I face things, I don't walk away.
Meredith
Derek walks away. Maybe walking away is the answer?
See it's not emotional, it's science. You have a problem, don't ignore it.
Meredith
Well, sometimes if you have to pee and you ignore it, it does go away.
[laughs] You guys are hilarious! I mean do you even know what she just said? Or what she just said? [Meredith and Cristina look at each other] I can totally see you guys in 50 years, at a nursing home, just talking at each other with your hearing aids off. [laughs] Hi-larious! Ah, I love lunch.
Webber Wait. Um. Wait. No. You can't take that one.
Meredith Why not?
Meredith
I will take the elevator I want to take.
[Webber blocks elevator door. Door closes and Meredith presses the button for a new elevator. Other elevator door opens.]
Hey! Come on in. This is a CT of Katie Bryce. 16 year old female, subarachnoid aneurysm.
Meredith
From a fall during rhythmic gymnastics, I remember.
It was the first surgery we ever scrubbed in together. Our first save. Right here is a cerebral cyst. Tough save, but we did it. I kissed you in the stairwell, after the surgery. And this right here is where Dr. Bailey kicked you out of the surgery because she caught us in your driveway in my car. [both laugh] And right here, this was a seven hour craniotomy and you held the clamp the entire time, never flinched. That's when I knew you were going to be an incredible surgeon. And right here, this is when I supervised you drilling a burr hole for the very first time. I was watching you more than I was watching the drilling, because I knew I'd fallen in love with you. Beth Monroe, made our clinical trial a success by surviving. You talked me into putting her under. That's when I knew I needed you. And this is today. Post op head CT of Izzie Stevens. See that, right there? Tumor free. Because of you. You got me into the OR. If there's a crisis you don't freeze. You move forward. You get the rest of us to move forward. Because you've seen worse. You've survived worse. And you know we'll survive too. You say you're all dark and twisty. It's not a flaw. It's a strength. It makes you who you are. I'm not going to get down on one knee. I'm not going to ask a question. I love you Meredith Grey. And I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
Meredith
And I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
Meredith
[looking at the engagement ring Derek gave her] Does it bother you that I don't want to wear it? Because I could.
I don't want you to wear it. You're not a ring bride. [Meredith looks at him] What?
Meredith
I'm not really a church wedding bride or a poofy-white-dress bride either.
We'll get naked and get married in a field of flowers.
Meredith
[laughs] I'm not a naked bride.
What about scrubs? We can get married in scrubs.
Meredith
Ooh, now there's a wedding I could get into.
I see that you're angry with me, and may be angry with your mother.
Meredith
Don't do that! I'm not your friend, and I'm not your family. You don't get to call me into your office on personal business, and you don't get to speak to me this way right now. It's an abuse of power. I'm a resident. I work for you. You have to speak to me like I'm a resident. And for the record Chief, somebody had to stand up for that little girl, and I make no apologies for that.
You wanna just be a resident? Fine. Alright then. That woman is a victim of domestic violence. This hospital is supposed to be a safe place for her to come and tell her story. And as her doctors it is our job to help her. You did not do your job. Instead you further battered a battered woman.
Meredith
What about the little girl!
Dr. Grey! You will stay away from that child. You will stay away from that family. You will not come within 100 feet of them. And if you do, you will be suspended from this hospital pending reevaluation of your emotional and mental fitness for residency.
Meredith
Oh great, is this another heart to heart?
I know you don't like me, and you have every right not to like me, I have abused my power but now I'm here on your turf. What I need to say, what I need to say is, I saw what your mother was doing, I saw how neglected you were, I saw her drive your father off and I spent a lot of time beating myself up about that, but what does that do for you, nothing, nothing. I wasn't your advocate, I didn't fight for you, I never stood up for you. I let myself off the hook, I told myself I was young and didn't know any better, but I did know better, I wasn't much younger than you are now. I should've fought for you Meredith, like you fought for that child today. I told myself that I wasn't your father, that it wasn't my responsibility, that I was right not to but in, I let myself off the hook. You were helpless, you were a baby. A beautiful, smart, funny, little girl, and no one stood up for you. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry.
We'll be out of here in plenty of time for the wedding.
Good. Then she won't have any excuses.
Meredith
Excuse me?
This is the second time I've been Derek's best man. I have to come up with a toast, offer some words of wisdom. It's a lot of work. I don't want to have to be his best man a third time if you know what I mean.
Meredith
So you came in here to threaten me?
I'm his best man. That's my job.
Meredith
Alex.
Bailey says Shepherd found another tumor, in Izzie's brain. Did you hear?
Meredith
I heard. Alex.
He doesn't think he's gonna get it out this time. I think... [crying] I think she's gonna die on me. I think she's really gonna die. Ugh! What are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be getting ready for a wedding?
Meredith
Well, that's what I came to talk to you about.
If Derek cuts the tumor out I could lose my memory, and if he doesn't I can die. I don't know what to do. Alex, tell me what to do.
Iz, I can't tell you what to do.
Of course you can, you're my husband. That's what husbands do, they stomp around telling their wives what to do. It's your job.
My job is to support whatever you wanna do.
I don't know what I wanna do. That's why I'm asking you. OK, I have an idea. Let's put it to a vote. All in favor of the surgery.
Meredith
No. We're not voting. No ones... no ones voting.
I'm opposed... to voting.
Just decide for me. Please?
You don't have to know right now. Think about it.
SSwinder
The test impaired your memory to such a degree that I have to strongly recommend you don't have the surgery.
Izzie, the test was the worst case scenario. The result has nothing to do with the surgery.
SSwinder
We don't know that.
But what I do know is that not operating is every bit as risky as the surgery itself. If not more. But, it's up to you.
I think he's talking to you, not me.
I'll leave you two alone to discuss this.
Ah, I'll come with you. I have a couple of questions.
Think about what you want to do for a second, OK? I'll be right back. [everyone but Meredith leaves the room. Meredith closes the door]
Meredith
You are not having the surgery!
Meredith
How's she doing? Any better?
Meredith
Damn. Well, I'm going to city hall to go do the thing.
Seriously? It doesn't seem like the day for it.
Meredith
Look at Alex. He's in there working so hard all day, and she doesn't know. And, if she stays like this she may never know how much he loves her. And that girl Amanda, she's in there loving a stranger. She thinks that's her Prince Charming. I mean, he's probably gonna die today. Chances are. So yeah, I'm gonna go get married, because I think it's important to take the time to tell the people you love how much you love them while they can hear you. I love you Cristina Yang. [smiles]
Meredith
Mmmm... Maybe I have. What?
Meredith
No, you know let's go, we gotta go. We gotta run to city hall, we'll come back, you'll check on Izzie, we'll monitor John Doe, I'll go talk George out of joining the army!
Look, we can do this another day-
Meredith
There is no other day! Everyday is like this, everyday there's a crisis, there's no time.
Meredith
I love you and I do want to marry you, today. But there is no time.
[Cups her face with his hands] Do you have a piece of paper?
Meredith
For what?
I want to be with you forever. And you want to be with me forever. In order to do that, we need to make vows. A commitment. A contract. Give me, a piece of paper.
Meredith
I don't! I-I-I don't... I have post-its. [Hands him posts-its and a pen. Derek goes and sits on the bench]
Okay... what do we want to promise each other?
Meredith
That you'll love me, even when you hate me.
To love each other... even when we hate each other. [writes it down on the post-its] No running. Ever. Nobody walks out. [Meredith joins him on the benches] No matter what happens.
Meredith
No running.
Meredith
That we'll take care of each other even when we're old and smelly and senile. And... if I get Alzheimer's and I forget you...
I will you remind you who I am, every day. [They smile at each other] To take care when old, senile, smelly. This is forever. [Derek finishes writing on the post-it, then gives it and the pen to Meredith] Sign.
Meredith
This is our wedding? A post-it?
Mhmm. Well, if you sign it. [Meredith signs it happily and then hands it back to Derek]
Meredith
Now what?
Now, I kiss the bride. [He kisses her tenderly. Meredith's smiling as they kiss. Then Derek slowly pulls back]
Meredith
Married.
Married. [Derek puts the post-it note with their vows and signatures on the back of her cubby, then turns to her] You see that? Plenty of time.
Meredith
He wrote in my hand
LBLexie, Bailey, Hunt, Cristina, Shepherd, Sloan, Callie, Webber
What do you mean he wrote in your hand?
Meredith
He just grabbed my hand, and he squeezed it and he wrote with his finger.
He wrote with his finger?
Meredith
You know in my hand, he wrote 007.
[grabs Meredith's hand and proceeds to write on it using her finger] Okay, what did I write?
Meredith
Joe?
You mean this might not be O'Malley?
Did anybody try to phone O'Malleyf? Can we get him on the phone?
[Everybody retrieves their cell phones and start calling]
Meredith
I'm telling you he squeezed my hand.
[hushes Meredith] Shut it! You don't get to talk anymore! You don't get to talk ever again!
Meredith
I could have sworn it was George.
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