[voiceover] Every surgeon I know has a shadow. A dark cloud of fear and doubt that follows even the best of us into the OR. We pretend the shadow isn't there hoping that if we save more lives, master harder techniques, run faster and farther it will get tired and give up the chase but like they say... you can't outrun your shadow.
“I Will Follow You Into the Dark” · Season 5, Episode 17
In this episode: Meredith Grey (4), Izzie Stevens (2), Derek Shepherd (1), Cristina Yang (1), George O'Malley (1)
How'd it go with the lawyers?
They told me my death rate. [looks at a small pile] These are the people I saved. [looks at a big pile] These are the people I killed.
Okay. Well most of those people were terminal when they came to you. You were their last chance, and you take on impossible cases. Look at the clinical trial.
It's just so many people. More than Dahmer, Manson, and Bundy combined.
You're not looking at the big picture.
[points to the big stack of files] This is the big picture.
[about Derek] And he just walked out. Without saying a word, he just walked out!
Hunt won't even look at me, since he went all Apocalypse Now on me this morning.
He had to get all scalpel happy up in that patients brain, and now he can't face it!
He thinks I'm what? This wilting flower? Well guess what, I'm the strong one.
Oh my god! I'm the strong one.
You see, if I had that stomach cancer gene, I would get that gastrectomy no problem. I face things, I don't walk away.
Derek walks away. Maybe walking away is the answer?
See it's not emotional, it's science. You have a problem, don't ignore it.
Well, sometimes if you have to pee and you ignore it, it does go away.
[laughs] You guys are hilarious! I mean do you even know what she just said? Or what she just said? [Meredith and Cristina look at each other] I can totally see you guys in 50 years, at a nursing home, just talking at each other with your hearing aids off. [laughs] Hi-larious! Ah, I love lunch.
Maybe Cristina's right. Maybe trying to teach the interns is pointless.
Please, don't listen to Cristina. She thinks just because you'd rather teach then take out a gall bladder that you're the new me.
Haha, O'Malley the sequel.
O'Malley 2.0.
You read more journals and do more research, and log more hours in the skills lab than any other resident here. You never give up on trying to be a better doctor, and you don't step on other people to do it. I would be lucky to be the new you.
[voiceover] Every surgeon has a shadow. And the only way to get rid of a shadow is to turn off the lights, to stop running from the darkness and face what you fear, head on.
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