[voiceover] Grief may be a thing we all have in common, but it looks different on everyone.
It isn't just death we have to grieve. It's life. It's loss. It's change.
AlexAnd when we wonder why it has to suck so much sometimes, has to hurt so bad. The thing we gotta try to remember is that it can turn on a dime.
That's how you stay alive. When it hurts so much you can't breathe, that's how you survive.
By remembering that one day, somehow, impossibly, you won't feel this way. It won't hurt this much.
Grief comes in its own time for everyone, in its own way.
So the best we can do, the best anyone can do, is try for honesty.
The really crappy thing, the very worst part of grief is that you can't control it.
The best we can do is try to let ourselves feel it when it comes.
And let it go when we can.
The very worst part is that the minute you think you're past it, it starts all over again.
And always, every time, it takes your breath away.
There are five stages of grief. They look different on all of us, but there are always five.
Alex
Denial.
Alex
So are you back or...
Oh, did you want me to come back? Cause you told the Chief you had serious doubts about my abilities to be here.
Alex
What?
You went behind my back and told the Chief I wasn't ready to be here.
Alex
He was making cuts, I was protecting you.
Alex
Is that what you think?
This job was the one thing I had left, the one thing, and you took that away from me. You interfered and got me fired. I have forgiven you for a lot Alex. I've had to forgive you for a lot, but I cannot forgive you for this.
Alex
You made an assumption. You decided I did something. You didn't ask. You didn't hang around to talk. I am your husband and you didn't give me the benefit of the doubt. So you know what? I can't forgive you either.
[catching Alex and Lexie in bed] Izzie leaves and Mark gets a kid, and you two decide the best way to deal is to get drunk and mash your genitals together?
Alex
No freaking way you get to judge us or give relationship advice. Besides you were a total dirty mistress like two weeks ago.
Are 23 calling me a dirty mistress?
That was two years ago and his wife didn't have cancer!
Because I've been with like six guys in my whole life. Alex and I, we've done it before. I was recycling, it was like good for the environment.
Alex
Izzie's gone. I was horny. She was there.
Oh crap, I am a dirty mistress. Oh god, you're gonna tell Derek and then Derek's gonna tell Mark that I'm a whore.
Alex
Yang got burns on her girl parts.
I do not... They're not on my girl parts.
Alex
Then they're on her ass. Look how she's walkin'.
Don't you two have patients?
How did you get burns on your ass?
Mer! Thank god. Come, the rest of you, bye. [pulls her over to a bed, she closes the curtain]
How did you...? What...? You have grate marks burned into your ass.
Yeah, vent marks. But same difference. [whispering] I was busy having sex. Will you please just dress the wound. Owen's being very caveman-like. It's hot, vaguely disturbing, but mostly hot. I- I think he might still be a little upset that I offered him to Teddy.
[Alex and Lexie pull back the curtain]
MCMeredith & Cristina
Alex!
Alex
Hot cross buns.
Ooh, that's gonna blister.
Quit staring, I'm probably change it back anyway.
Alex
No, I get it. You get dumped by your boyfriend, and you go for the extreme makeover. Chicks always do that.
I didn't get dumped, okay? I did not do this for Mark. I just... It's Valentine's Day and I wanted to change something, and I could change... I wanted to do something for me. Okay? This, it was for me.
Alex
How's that different than what I just said? [walks off]
You slept with my girlfriend and I find that when I look at you, I want to hit you with a brick.
Alex
Dude, that was like years ago.
Maybe, but jealousy's a green-eyed monster and if you ask any one of my kids, they'll tell you there's no reasoning with a monster. Dude, run away before I find a brick.
Doug has fever and rigors and he's starting to get a productive cough.
Alex
So deal with it. Look, hook guy's tanking. He coughed up blood or something, so they're taking him back to surgery. I want in.
Wait, he coughed up blood? What did it look like, was it like currant jelly? Did he have leukocytosis with a left shift? His P.A.CO2 was 28, right?
Alex
I don't know, Encyclopedia Brown. I didn't memorize the chart.
Let him go, Grey, he has a surgery he wants to see.
Alex
Thank you, Dr. Bailey. [leaves]
Dr. Bailey, both patients have productive coughs and signs and symptoms of sepsis. I am probably wrong, but if I'm not, this is infectious.
You're probably not wrong; you're probably right. Why do you want to hand your big save over to Karev who's going to march around the hospital acting like he put it together?
You are handing your power over to a boy because he's giving you sex.
I'm Dr. Bailey, I know everything. And you have a superpower. That memory of yours is a superpower. And on top of it, you're a good doctor. And yet you're letting Alex Karev treat you like a scut monkey. I don't care how good the sex is, if that's what it costs, you're paying too much.
Alex
You screwed me today. That was my patient. You made me look like a moron. Get your own beer.
You can't be an ass to me all day and then expect me to give you respect. You can't be be an ass to me all day and then except me to give you sex. And you can stop with the patronizing nicknames. I am a nice person, who couldn't even bring myself to attempt matricide by Sweet 'N Low. That makes me charming to anybody else. I am a nice person. And I am nice to you. So, whatever your damage is, you better start to be frickin' nice to me or I am not spreading my legs for you anymore, no matter how much I may I want to. Now give me a damn beer!
[Alex hands her a beer]
Alex
Mrs. Corso, I'm sorry about the thing in the cafeteria...
MCMelissa Corso
It's easy to make jokes about him. You didn't know him before. You don't know that inside all that is the same man I've always known, to make me laugh 'til I can't breathe. He's been trying to make you guys laugh all day, but you're too disgusted to even smile, or joke with him, make him feel like a person. I brought him here because I thought you would help him, but you're only making him feel worse. So unless you want to tell me the next step to getting him out of here and home, I don't need to hear anything from you.
Alex
I hate ties. You're the one who's fidgeting.
I'm wearing a thing that sucks in my fat.
Alex
You don't have any fat.
I couldn't zip the dress without it. I have fat.
Alex
That's just your ass. I like it fat.
Thank you. That's disturbing, but kind of awesome.
Alex
Wanna go upstairs and make-out?
Alex
Why? This party blows.
Alex
What?
I need to know what we are. Because people ask, and I don't know what to say. I'm over Mark. And I- I don't know if you're over Izzie, but I am over Mark Sloan. For real. And I-- I know that we said that this wasn't gonna be a thing, but I like you. The point is, I wanna know what we are. What this is.
Alex
[kisses her] We're a thing. Yeah, we're together, we're... we're a thing. Whatever.
[running a simulation] Sir! You said the helicopter was gonna be here hours ago, And it's not here, and I'm not complaining, but where is it?
Well, the rain's still pretty bad. Probably got caught in a hail storm.
[Intern Steve approaches with index card update on "patient's" condition]
No! No! I know what that card is gonna say. It's gonna say he has cardiac tamponade with associated hypotension and bradycardia, but he can't, 'cause I already did a pericardiocentesis and bolused with IV fluids.
SSteve
She's right. What do I do? Do I ...
Karev! Grab his feet. [Karev goes to grab Steve's feet] The patient! Come on!
Hey, hey, hey. Whoa, whoa, whoa.
Alex
This is awesome! [helping to load dummy onto ambulance]
Whoa, whoa, whoa. What do you think you're doing? This ambulance is not in play.
Oh, you're just making stuff up, which I can do too! And I say it is in play. Can't fit nine patients on an ambulance, but two will fit just fine. Seven of my patients may have died today, but these two won't! 'Cause I'm gonna get them on this ambulance, and I'm gonna take 'em to that hospital right there!
Alex
Alright!
Kepner, this ambulance was involved in the accident and no longer runs.
There are keys in the ignition, so let's see. Looks like I got triple-A. Ha! Apparently they could get here when the helicopter couldn't. Now MOVE! Or I will run you down!
[to Alex] Go. Let's go. [They run to hospital entrance. Ambulance pulls up]
John Doe, multiple chest and extremity trauma. Still hypotensive despite two large-bore IVs started in the field.
All right, Kepner. That's enough.
We need a full workup and likely a thoracotomy. [walks into hospital carrying dummy over her shoulder] I suspect active bleeding in the chest.
Alex
Will you tell us we won, or she's never gonna stop.
Karev! Call the OR and make sure that there's a room available.
Alex
Will do.
All right, all right, fine. Blue team wins.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, you win. He's gonna live for 40 more years and have 15 grandkids. You happy?
[drops dummy] Blue team wins!
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