Derek Shepherd quotes from Grey's Anatomy

Meredith

Why don't you trust me?

Derek

Of c... For God's sake, Meredith, of course I trust you.

Meredith

Why did you call Richard today, for a second opinion? If that had been any other surgeon, Dr. Bailey, would you have done it?

Derek

It was a surgical consult.

Meredith

It doesn't matter whether it's a surgical consult or a code. You don't trust me and all you wanna do is fight me.

Derek

I don't wanna fight with you but I'm not gonna compromise myself, Meredith, just because you think that...

Meredith

Well, you've already done that, you've already compromised yourself and diminished yourself for me. I feel that, your pissiness, and your resentment, Derek.

Derek

You know why? You know why I resent you? Because you've never had my back on this! Not since the day I told you I would stay. I told you that you and the kids were more important. You have been determined to prove me wrong, that this is the wrong choice.

Meredith

I have proven it, because you can't be happy here. You diminish everyone around you!

Derek

I did this for you! I gave up everything! For you!

Meredith

There it is! "Everything". You gave up "everything". That was everything to you?

Meredith

Derek, slow down.

Derek

No. I'm done. I'm not gonna do this anymore, this constant battling.

Meredith

I'm not battling, but I'm just not gonna let you just...

Derek

You think I'm some sort of tyrant determined to keep you down.

Meredith

You keep you down, and now I'm paying for it! And I don't know how to fix it. You should've just gone to D.C.!

Derek

Is that what you want? Because that door is wide open!

Meredith

It's what you want!

Derek

Meredith, they offered me the job again. Today. I can take this job right now.

Meredith

You should. Take it.

Derek

Deborah, it's Dr. Shepherd. Glad I could catch you. It was great that you came by today. Please tell the President that I would be thrilled to accept the post. Yes, absolutely, we can talk more then. I look forward to it. I will see you soon. (He hangs up the phone.)

Meredith

Good. Go.

Derek

Oh, I'm going.

Meredith

No, I mean it. Go now. Go.

Derek

I am calling post-it. Zola and Bailey and tumors on the walls and ferry boat scrub caps. I thought D.C. was everything. And I was wrong. You... You. You're everything. I love you, and I'm not gonna stop loving you. Meredith, I can't live without you. I don't want to live without you. And I'm gonna do everything in my power to prove it.

Meredith

I can live without you. But I don't want to. I don't ever want to.

Derek

Amy, I've been missing out on everything in my life. I mean, I'm watching my kids grow up on a computer. I don't want to miss my family. I don't want to miss another second. I want to coach soccer, go to ballet recitals. I don't need to change the world. Clipping aneurysms, stopping bleeds... that's the fun. That's changing the world with our hands. When did that stop being enough? Saving someone's life? That's more than enough.

Amelia

I'm glad you're back.

Derek

Me too.

Amelia

I think I'm falling in love with Owen Hunt. And I'm really afraid that it's gonna destroy me.

Derek

It wouldn't be love if it didn't.

Amelia

Ever since you've been back, you guys have been reconnecting. Vigorously. You should have built thicker walls.

Derek

You okay?

Amelia

What do you mean?

Derek

I didn't want to ask you, and I'm not supposed to big-brother you. And you don't need me to. There was a robbery, two shootings, and you declared two men dead. I kept thinking about Dad. I wanted to know if you're okay.

Amelia

I'm happy for you. That you're back. That you're making it work. That you're not running.

Derek

What do you mean, "running"?

Amelia

Hey, I am not judging. We are runners. I ran from my engagement. You ran from Addison. I think, after Dad, if something scares us, we sprint fast as we can. But you turned around this time. That's something. I'm inspired.

Derek

I'll be back soon. You know that.

Meredith

I know. I know. I just feel like I just got you back, and now you're going again, and I just have to stay here.

Derek

You're right. You do. You have to. Stay here. Don't move. Wait for me.

Derek

You know, remember ages ago, you and I had a really big fight? And I told you, I said, "you're like coming up for fresh air. Like I was drowning, and you saved me." I still feel that way when I see you, what we have, our family. That's the feeling. It's you. It's always been you. And I want more. Of this, of us, of... I want to have more. Let's have more. I mean it.

Meredith

You're crazy.

Derek

That's not a no.

Meredith

Another baby?

Derek

Sure.

Meredith

Uh, seriously?

Derek

I'm completely serious.

Derek

It's a beautiful day to save lives.

What does that mean?

Derek

It's just a thing that I say.

Derek?

Derek

(thinking) Winnie... You shouldn't be in here.

I know you're not dead. Know how I know? 'Cause I can feel your pulse, which means your heart is beating. Your heart is beating, which means you're not dead, okay? Hey. Eyes on me. You stay not dead, okay? It's a beautiful day to save lives, right? So you stay not dead.