[Meredith walks into Derek's office to find him reciting his speech to baby Bailey, who is in his car seat]
MeredithI went up to daycare to find my son missing.
Yeah, I needed an audience. Look, sit down. Let me go over this again with you, okay?
Meredith
Oh, no, no, no. I've heard that speech so many times I could do it myself. Stop boring our son.
Is it boring? I have 50 scientists from around the world coming here today. It's got to be charming. It's a big deal.
Meredith
I know it's a big deal, which is why I will get out of your way.
Meredith
Mm-hmm. [takes car seat] And I'm taking my son with me because I don't want his first word to be hypothalamus. [kisses Derek]
There are worse first words.
Meredith
[looks at a scan Derek is analyzing] Is that a spinal schwannoma?
Meredith
Extended into the retropleural space?
Meredith
[excitedly] Is that for me?
[smirks] We're overdue for a date. OR 3, you in fresh scrubs, me in a ferry-boat scrub cap. You in?
Meredith
Well, this could take hours. What about the kids?
Meredith
We have a babysitter named Amy?
Meredith
The junkie?
She's a recovering addict, and she loves kids.
Meredith
I've only been gone a day.
The tumor involves the great vessels.
Meredith
[smiles] I know what you're doing.
Meredith
And it's working.
Meredith
You do remember how hard it was to find the money to keep this place going. The foundation was our Hail Mary, and you saved us. We have to find a way to make it work with them.
I was there the night your mother won her first Harper Avery. I wasn't with her. I-I was sitting in the back.
Meredith
Because my father was with her?
That award was our gold standard. It was the measure of our success. It was everything we worked for. And I had to be there to see the look on her face. She was radiant. Catherine made it meaningless with this. She cheapened it. She cheapened our goals. She cheapened her memory. I can't stand that.
Meredith
No it's slowing down, what are you still doing here? What time is your flight?
I can't leave Mer, they just bombed Seattle.
Meredith
No they didn't, no one did, it was an accident. Gas-made. So no different than a train derailment or a ferry boat crash. So you can go.
When I heard it was the mall, you know what I thought of? I thought of that time me and Callie played hooky and we bought all the furniture for the fire house.
Meredith
What time is your plane?
Two hours, but Link has got a heart and I have to do that first.
Meredith
No you don't, the new head of cardio can do that, you don't have the time.. plus you'll have to re scrub so there's that! [touching Cristina's clean arms]
Meredith
You have been stalling for two weeks!
I have to finish something here. Nothing feels finished. None of it feels finished. Owen and I, we split over something that hasn't even happened, and we never even split up. And you and I are not finished, George is dead and Izzie is gone, and it's supposed to be me, you, and Alex, and now nothing is finished. I am not finished!
Meredith
You don't feel finished because this isn't the end for you. There is no finish line, there is no end point. You just have to go.
I know, I know. and I keep trying to but I don't know how to just do it. You gotta help me Mer.
Meredith
Let's go. Okay?
Meredith
And you were supposed to be stepping back! You said "Take this year and make it count. And I'll make sure you can do it." And you lied!
I'm sorry. I lied. It's a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.
Meredith
So you got this thing and I gave up that piece, and I found a way to make it work, with my job, my kids, and my research with less help from you and I did it!
You're not a victim. I'm killing myself as much as you are!
Meredith
And then you wanted more and more pieces! And now this is just too much. You can't just drag us away so I can live in your shadow!
You have a job, you could be working in James Madison.
Meredith
Right, and that's how my father got his first job here. They wanted my mom, so she had to call the University and pulled some strings and find something for Thatcher to do! It's all how the trailing starts.
Meredith
This is exactly that! And it's not what I signed up for.
You know, you're being selfish!
Meredith
Well, I have to be, Derek, because you believe that your career is more important than mine.
Well, at this moment in time it is!
Meredith
No, not in this moment, always! You will always be that hot-shot doctor and I will always be that young intern that fell in love with you.
That's how you see yourself. That's your problem, I can't do anything to fix that.
Meredith
That's not how I see myself; that is the issue here!
D.C., you can do your surgeries, you can do your research, you can do the portal veins, there is nothing here that you can't do there.
Meredith
But I don't want to! We're not just talking about my job Derek, We're talking about my life. I grew up here, I made my family here, I helped rebuild the hospital here that has my sister's name on it, my mother's name, my name! I live here, my life is here, I'm staying here. I don't want to leave.
You're asking me to choose between this job and my family?
Meredith
I am simply saying I am not going anywhere. I am staying here.
Meredith
You really should get your locks changed.
(Alex and Jo wake up, shocked.)
Meredith
I need to talk to Alex. Wilson, get out of the bed. I can't get in the bed with you in there.
You can't kick me out of bed!
Meredith
It's my house.
Meredith
Then you kick her out.
Meredith
I don't care about your boobs, Wilson. Out.
(Jo puts on a shirt and gets out bed as Meredith gets in the bed.)
I guess I'll go make us some coffee since I'm up.
Meredith
Coffee would be great!
This is not our thing now, okay? You can't just start showing up at all hours and... I mean, this is not what we do.
Meredith
I told Derek I am not moving to D.C. The children and I are staying here.
All right, the miracle is over.
Meredith
The miracle is not over. We're not a miracle. Shut up.
You can't break into my house and wake me up to talk and then tell me to shut up!
Grab your stuff. We're drinking.
Meredith
Oh, I... I can't. I have to go home and deal with...
Fight with Shepherd? I think you need to whine about it some more to me first. You definitely need to drink.
Meredith
What are you afraid of, that I'm gonna...
I'm afraid you're gonna keep crawling in my bed in the middle of the night. Look, Yang left me her shares and her board seat and she left me you, too. It's just us now. I don't know... if you need somebody to bitch to or just be...
Meredith
My person.
I don't know what you mean.
Meredith
But you do.
(They hug.)
Meredith
I just don't know if my marriage can survive this.
Meredith
She's, like, psycho, like a stalker. I'm being stalked. Alex, this is criminal. I mean, you... What's your problem?
Meredith
Okay, so what? I've seen it before! No big deal! I'm in crisis! Okay, fine. It's... Your junk is spectacular. Jo is a very lucky girl.
Good man in the storm. What's so "good man in the storm" about a break?
Meredith
"How was your day, Meredith? Did you cure death today, Meredith? When are you gonna cure death, Meredith?"
Meredith
"I could have cured death if you let me move to D.C. and work for the president."
So I'm bisexual! So what? It's a thing, and it's real.I mean it's called LGBTQ for a reason. There's a "B" in there, and it doesn't mean "badass". Okay, it kind of does, but it also means bi.
Meredith
My mom and the Chief were doing it all over the hospital.
Meredith
All over the hospital, like me and Derek, cheating on Addison. I'm a legacy cheater.
Mm. Maybe Sofia will be a legacy cheater. Everyone in this hospital's cheated on me. Every single person I have ever married has cheated on me... All, uh, two of them? Yeah. Come on.
He's family, and this is one of the reasons why you didn't want to leave Seattle in the first place, remember? You have family here, roots.
Meredith
Are you kidding me?!
Meredith
I have to have dinner with the sister I don't know and the bio-dad she hates because you gave up your chance to work for Obama?! You're gonna play that card? Of course you are because you'll be playing that card until the end of freaking time!
Meredith
No, I am so sick of your passive-aggressive...
Time-out. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that. I am just trying to help out here. I'm trying to help you, and I am trying to help them. I come from a big family. It's crazy, it's messy, but it's good, and I want that for you. I want you to have that. She's your sister, and he's practically your father. And Zola needs more black people in the family because I'm running out of ways to braid her hair and Bailey won't show me any more.
Meredith
Fine.
Meredith
What's wrong with you?
Uh... I was... I was up all night.
Meredith
Me too.
Ah, Sofia's been acting out, asking questions about me and Arizona, and I don't know what to tell her or how to tell her, so I'm just not sleeping. I'm miserable. Why didn't you sleep?
Meredith
Oh, you don't want to know.
Meredith
Derek and I were up having sex all night.
Yeah, I kind of didn't want to hear that.
Meredith
Why don't you trust me?
Of c... For God's sake, Meredith, of course I trust you.
Meredith
Why did you call Richard today, for a second opinion? If that had been any other surgeon, Dr. Bailey, would you have done it?
It was a surgical consult.
Meredith
It doesn't matter whether it's a surgical consult or a code. You don't trust me and all you wanna do is fight me.
I don't wanna fight with you but I'm not gonna compromise myself, Meredith, just because you think that...
Meredith
Well, you've already done that, you've already compromised yourself and diminished yourself for me. I feel that, your pissiness, and your resentment, Derek.
You know why? You know why I resent you? Because you've never had my back on this! Not since the day I told you I would stay. I told you that you and the kids were more important. You have been determined to prove me wrong, that this is the wrong choice.
Meredith
I have proven it, because you can't be happy here. You diminish everyone around you!
I did this for you! I gave up everything! For you!
Meredith
There it is! "Everything". You gave up "everything". That was everything to you?
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