[opening voice over] This is how my mother wanted to be remembered. My memory of her is a little bit different. I'm sure everyone remembers their own version of her. Versions I wouldn't even recognize. It's all that's really left of someone when they're gone. But that's the tricky thing. Nobody's memory is perfect or complete. We jumble things up. We lose track of time. We are in one place and another. And it all feels like one long, inescapable moment. It's just like my mother used to say: The carousel never stops turning.
“Only Mama Knows” · Season 11, Episode 4
In this episode: Meredith Grey (2), Richard Webber (1), Ellis (1)
I lied to you before... About what happened that day at the carousel. I remember what she said. I remember what I said. I remember everything. It was a Thursday afternoon. We had made a pact. She would leave Thatcher, and I would leave Adele. Your mother had just received her first Harper Avery nomination. She was so excited. And I was... jealous. Not like healthy competition. A hateful, hopeless jealousy, too far ahead to catch up to. Her success illuminated everything I hadn't yet accomplished. The night before, as I worked up the nerve to tell Adele, I thought of your mother. I thought of what she could do at such a young age. I thought of what she would do. And I thought: "I will spend my life feeling like this, my entire life." So I ruined it.
I was the only woman on my surgical residency program, they called me "girl" and "Ms. Grey". Along with the one black male resident I was clearly excluded. They didn't want me to be part of a group of males. So I did the only audacious thing that you can do with an audacious technique. I got myself published on the major american medical magazine, that caused an apbold, a resident was published. But the most audacious thing came when they saw how I named my technique "The Grey's method". You should have listened to the boy's reaction.
[ending voice over]
They say we can repress our memories. I wonder if we're just keeping them safe somewhere. Because no matter how painful they are, they are our most valuable possessions.
Our lives are built on our mistakes as much as our successes.
They made us who we are.
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