Yo. Sixty days, no small feat.
Can I ask you something? How'd you survive that OD?
I mean, somebody had to save your life, right?
Aw, man. Older or younger?
Younger. [pause] I have to get home, so...
I don't really understand what the point...
That's some heavy shit. But hey, we've all done some bad shit in our lives, right? Comes with the territory. But, man, now you just got me thinking about... what that does to a 13-year-old. A 13-year-old kid who finds her big sister overdosed. What that moment must do to somebody. How it affects the rest of their lives, you know? How it affects their ability to trust. Leaves it hard for them to get close to people. You know, relationships. Makes it hard for them to fall in love. Living with the fear that at any moment, the rug can be ripped out from under them and they lose everything. Especially the people that they love. You ever think about that? [pause] Yeah, probably fucked up for life. But hey, you're gonna have to make peace with that. Just like you're gonna have to make peace with the fact that you could be responsible for some shit like that, and then get up in front of a whole group of people who are struggling with the same issues, and lie about being clean. You know what I'm saying?
I don't know what you're talking about.
Listen, youngblood. You're playing pool with Minnesota Fats.
The greatest motherfucking pool player that ever lived.
I'm Ali. Let me know when you wanna stop trying to kill yourself and eat some pancakes.
[Fez hears someone pounding on his door]
[He sees Rue when he opens the door]
[sighs] Not today, Rue. Sorry.
Come on, man. Don't be a dick.
Nah, I'm serious. You can't come in.
Look, man. All I need is just, like, a few OCs. That's all.
Fez. Fez, I've had a really fucked-up day, alright? It's been a really, really fucked-up day, okay? So I need you to open the door for me, okay? Can you open the door? Please?
[pause; shakes his head] I'm not gonna help you kill yourself, Rue. I'm sorry, but you can't be comin' over here no more. Just go home.
Don't... Fez! Don't close the... [Fez closes the door on her] Fuck! Fez, open the fucking door, please? I'm begging you just to open the door. [pause; Fez just stands still with his back to the door] Fez! You're full of shit, man! You know, you make your living off of selling drugs to teenagers. And now all of a sudden, you wanna have a fucking moral high ground? You're a fucking dropout drug dealer, you know that?! You're a fucking drug dealer with seven functioning fucking brain cells! [knocks angrily on the door] OPEN THE DOOR! Fuck you! Fuck you, Fez, okay? Are you doing this because you care about me?! If you gave a shit about me, you wouldn't have sold me the fucking drugs in the first place! But you did! You fucking did! So open the goddamn door! Open the door!
I can't do it, Rue. I'm sorry.
Open the door! Open the door! [tearfully] Open the door. [holds back sob] You did this to me! You fucking... You did this to me, Fez. You fucking ruined my life! The least you could do is open the goddamn door and fix it! I'm fucking serious. I'm so fucking serious. If you don't open this door right now, I swear to God... I will hate you, till the day I fucking die!
I'm sorry. [walks away from the door]
[screams] YOU FUCKING DID THIS TO ME! Open the fucking door! [bangs on the door repeatedly] Open the door, Fez! Come on, man! Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!
[V.O.] By 13, she started to transition. And by 16, Jules had gotten a little slutty. And every guy was the same: Cis, white, married, engaged, in long-term relationships. Some were sweet, some were weird, and a few were aggressive. And whenever anything got too uncomfortable... Jules would just imagine that she wasn't really herself, and this wasn't really her life. She was just a character in a book or a movie or a show. That none of it was real, and if it was, how did it matter? It's not like her body ever really belonged to her in the first place. But fuck it. She'd save it for the memoirs. 'Cause that was the night she met her new best friend. And although she had never really been in a relationship or even in, like, love, she imagined spending the rest of her life with her. How they'd live together in some shitty New York apartment, and maybe date other people, but always sleep in the same bed. She even said it to her once, which was probably a mistake for, like, a lot of reasons. Plus, that was before she fell for Tyler. Like, hard. Like, really hard.
Yeah, me neither. You wanna do molly?
[They walk up to Fez and Ashtray's pretzel truck]
AAshtray
Welcome to Pretzelmania, can I take your order? [pause] How many pretzels do you want?
AAshtray
That'll be forty.
[Maddy and Cassie each give Ashtray twenty bucks in exchange for two ounces of ecstasy]
So, you think Nate's cheating on you?
I don't know. He's just been acting super-weird lately.
Have you gone through his phone?
I've never not gone through someone's phone.
Bitch, you're my soulmate.
Yo, what's going on with you and McKay? I thought you two were in love.
Nate asked McKay if were were in a relationship, and McKay said that we were just chillin'.
Honestly, fuck them both.
[Later, they watch the Jacobs family at their chili cook-off tent after taking the molly]
Honestly, fuck that whole family.
'Cause right now I'm looking at a thousand versions of myself, and not only do I look good, I fucking feel good.
So, if they've got something to say, they should just say it to my face, right?
Or you could just say it to their fucking face.
That's what I would do. [pause] I feel like this is a turning point.
We should just pick the hottest, most confident, bad bitch version of ourselves, and be that for the rest of the school year.
[Jules and Rue comes across the Jacobs' tent while walking around the carnival grounds]
Okay, what guy are we looking at, exactly?
[points at Cal] Okay, the one in the apron, serving the chili. I swear to God.
No fucking way. Jules, do you know who that is?
Yeah, the guy from the motel.
Yes, fucking way. You're full of shit.
You're full of shit. Do you–Do you know who he is? He fucking owns half this town. He built it. All the apartment buildings past Kemper, they're his.
There's no way. Bullshit.
I'm being a hundred percent serious. You–You don't believe me?
[Jules walks towards the tent and approaches Cal]
[turns around] Hmm... [pause; looks at Jules uncomfortably] Hi. Can I help you?
Uh, can I please have a small cup of chili?
[Cal's hands start shaking as he scoops chili into a cup. He accidentally drops it as he hands it to Jules.]
[Jules turns to look at Rue, who looks utterly surprised]
Uh, it–it's okay. It was my fault.
I'll get you another cup.
MMarsha
Hi. It's two dollars. All the proceeds go to the football team.
Uh... cool. [gives Marsha two dollar bills]
[Jules looks over at Rue, whose eyes are now wide in shock. Rue notices Cal staring at her and turns around. She does a double take and glances quickly at Jules before walking away.]
[Jules walks off to catch up with Rue. Nate is revealed to have been watching the awkward interaction between Cal and Jules from the back of the tent with his brother, Aaron.]
AAaron
Yo, Nate, who was that?
Her name's Jules. She's new here.
AAaron
She goes to East Highland?
AAaron
Damn, that's jailbait. That's too bad.
...
[to Rue] Why the fuck did you let me do that?!
I didn't let you do that! You just fucking... did it. You went over there and you did it.
Did you see that his hands were fucking shaking?
Yes, and then he dropped...
And then, he fucking dropped the chili! Oh, my God!
The chili! Oh, he dropped the fucking chili. And then he–And then you looked at me.
Yeah, because I was screaming inside.
Yeah, well, that made him fucking look at me! He looked at me in the fucking eyes!
Ugh, I feel so bad. That was literally the meanest thing I've ever done.
AAnnouncer
And this year's winner of the chili cook-off is... Cal Jacobs! Make it six years and running!
[Nate sees Maddy slow-clapping in the crowd and rolls his eyes]
Yeah, I'm not supposed to be here right now because I'm dressed like a hooker, and none of you like me, but I just wanted to say congratulations.
[Maddy knocks over the chili pot]
MMarsha
What in God's name is your problem?!
[Nate grabs Maddy by the arm and angrily drags her away]
I'm not gonna let you fucking embarrass me like that again, I swear to fucking God. [Maddy just giggles] Shut the fuck up! I'm fucking done with you! I'm so fucking done with you!
[laughing] Yeah, what else is new?
Calling my mom a cunt? What the fuck is actually wrong with your fuckin' brain?
I think you're overreacting.
[Nate suddenly slams Maddy against a trailer and closes his hand around her neck]
You're fucking dead to me. Fuck you. [starts walking away]
I do have one question though.
[Later, Nate has no response when Maddy asks him about the dick pics on his phone]
I'm just saying, as your girlfriend, those pictures are a little suspicious.
It's not what it looks like.
Yeah? Well, then explain to me why you have someone else's dick in your phone.
It's really fucking complicated.
How many reasons could there be?
I can't explain it to you right now.
Look, I'm going through a lot of shit right now. I need... I just–I need you to promise me that you're not gonna tell a soul.
I am not gonna tell anyone, I promise.
I'm sorry I got so angry at you before. I am sorry. [pause; reaches his hand out to Maddy] I'm sorry.
[Maddy walks over to Nate and takes his hand]
I love you. Maddy, I love you.
[Nate pulls Maddy close to him and they embrace]
I got a lot of sh... a lot of shit going on right now and I'm really confused. I don't know what to do.
[Jules sees a tall male figure approach her, thinking that it's Tyler]
[Jules realizes to her horror that the man is Nate as he gets close to her]
No... No. [turns around to walk away]
No, I'm not trying to hurt you. I'm not... I'm not here to hurt you. [grabs Jules' arm] I know that you have these ideas about me based on the first time that we met, and I understand that... but I'm not the person that you met that night.
[Nate lets go of Jules and follows her as she walks over to a lake]
You know, over the past few weeks... I've spent... every moment of every day getting to know you. At night... I fall asleep to you. And in the morning... I wake up to you. I kinda feel closer to you than I do to anyone in the whole world.
[tearfully] I don't trust you, Nate.
I don't trust you either.
[Jules steps back, but stops when Nate wipes away her tears. He leans down and kisses her.]
[softly] Open your mouth.
[pause; Nate sticks his thumb in her mouth] Nate. Nate, stop.
God, are you broken inside. And that's precisely why I don't trust you. [pause] Because you're so broken you don't even trust yourself. And that's scary. Not just for you... but for me and for my entire family. [Jules' phone starts vibrating] I wouldn't answer that. You're gonna wanna hear this. Over the last three weeks, you have knowingly produced and distributed child pornography. Including obscene images that were taken on school property. I've compiled all these photos, along with an IP address, and an account that's linked to your name. I don't know if you're familiar with child pornography laws in this state... but they apply to minors just as they apply to adults.
No, you sent them to an account of a person that doesn't fucking exist. And I mean, anyone can anonymously report child pornography, right?
[shakes her head] Then, I'd tell them everything.
Okay. You could do that, but um... here's what would definitely happen. You'd end up on a sex offender list. It means no more college. It's gonna be very fucking difficult to find a job. And everywhere you go for the rest of your life, you'll be harassed, and spat at, and treated like a fucking animal. You deserve better than that, 'cause I know you. You're kind. You're smart, you're generous. You got a big heart. You deserve whatever the fuck it is in this world that you want. So keep your head down. Keep your mouth shut. Don't try to ruin my life, and I won't have to ruin yours.
You know what I think? I think you're a fucking faggot, just like your daddy.
[Nate grabs Jules by her hair and pulls her close to him. He softly chuckles as they stare each other down.]
...You have a nice night.
[Rue hears Jules tap on her bedroom window and slides it open]
Do you think I could sleep over?
Yeah. Yeah, of course. Come on.
[Rue helps Jules enter through the window. Jules sits on the floor and unzips her backpack.]
[beat] Is everything okay? Um... Here. [offers her shirt to Jules after she undresses] So how'd the date go with Tyler?
Um... He didn't look like his picture.
[Rue hugs Jules and they get into bed together]
Okay. One, what was that about? Two, can we talk about the fact that you fucked Nate's dad?
Rue, swear to God, like on your life that you will never tell anyone.
That you fucked Nate's dad?
I'm serious. This is like... Even if you decide you hate me one day. Like, you can never tell anyone.
Why would I ever hate you?
That's not the point. Seriously, this is some "go to your grave" shit.
I promise. Do you think Nate knows?
I don't know, you went up to the chili booth at the carnival. Did he look like he knew?
No. Like, literally I didn't even notice.
Nate's scary. The whole fucking family is scary.
I... don't wanna have this conversation.
[pause] You know what'd be amazing? If they paid you off with a bunch of money, and then we'd do a bunch of really cool shit.
[V.O.] I don't know why Jules didn't trust me. Or why she'd think I'd ever hate her. There's literally nothing in the world that Jules could do to make me upset. I even told her that.
[Cassie tells McKay about Nate's dick pics]
He had a bunch of dick pics on his phone.
MMcKay
And was like what? Sending them to other girls?
No. McKay, it wasn't his dick. It was other guys' dicks.
MMcKay
I'm confused. Who told you this?
[Cut to Cassie on the phone with Maddy]
The ones you told me about, on his phone.
I don't know if your brain is all scrambled from all the molly you took, but I never said that. If you ever spread a lie like that, I will fucking come for you.
[Cut back to Cassie on the bed with McKay]
MMcKay
Anyway, look, Cassie. I'm really sorry about what happened the other night at the carnival.
MMcKay
No, I should've said something to Nate.
It just really hurt my feelings. I mean, I feel like you weren't proud to be my boyfriend.
MMcKay
Cass... Give me a kiss. [Cassie gets close to him and they kiss] I'm proud to be your boyfriend, trust me.
MMcKay
What do you have to sorry about?
Those are the moments that keep me up at night. Thinking about all the times that I ignored that voice in my head. You know, they told me, "What are you doing?" And what happens a month, six months, a year, when she moves away, and goes to college? When she tells you she just wants to be friends?
I mean, I don't know. We talked about living together. Like, if she goes to school in New York, I'll just go with her. I'll go anywhere she goes.
I think you're missing my point, Rue. Nothing in high school lasts forever.
[V.O.] Maddy wasn't doing well. Over the course of the last five days, Maddy had sent Nate a total of 273 text messages. None of which he answered. Plus, everyone in her life was against her.
SSonia
[in Spanish] It's not real love, Maddy.
Who the fuck are you to judge?!
SSonia
[in Spanish] Don't swear!
Seriously, Mom. Dad has slept on the couch since I was ten years old.
SSonia
[in Spanish] Don't be cruel, Maddy!
I'm not! I'm just saying, love is a million things. Sometimes it feels good and sometimes it doesn't. The one thing I know is that Nate loves me no matter what. He'd fucking kill for me, and I'd kill for him! It feels good to know that there's one person in this whole fucked up world who has my back! You think I want this?! You live in the same house and you don't even say one word to each other! That's the difference between me and you!
SSonia
[in Spanish] You're right. I felt the exact same way about every person I ever dated! The same!
