Yep. This is happening! I'm gonna talk out loud to a...a crypt filled with my dead family. Everyone but you, Damon. Because wherever you are, it's not here. I gotta say...I'm not doing so great without you. I keep trying to start over, but...I can't get anywhere. Because I'm lost, brother. I'm lost.
You promised. (shows him the newspaper with the news of the attack)
Stefan
This was an animal attack.
ZZach
Don't give me that. I know the game - you tear them up enough and they always suspect an animal attack. You said you had it under control.
Stefan
And I do.
ZZach
Please, Uncle Stefan. Mystic Falls is a different place now. It's been quiet for years, but there are people who still remember. And you being here, it's just going to stir things up.
Stefan
It's not my intention.
ZZach
Then what is? Why did you come back after all this time? Why now?
Stefan
I don't have to explain myself.
ZZach
I know that you can't change who you are, but you don't belong in Mystic Falls anymore.
Stefan
Where do I belong?
ZZach
I can't tell you what to do. But coming back here was a mistake.
It's okay, Stefan. I get it. You have no idea how much I get it. Complicated brother? Check. Complicated Ex? Check. Too complicated to even contemplate dating? Double check. It's okay. We met and we talked and it was epic, but then the sun came up and reality set in.
Why? So what, so I'll feed, so I'll kill, so I'll remember what it's like to be brothers again? You know what, let her go. Let her tell everyone that vampires have returned to Mystic Falls, let them chain me up and let them drive a stake through my heart, 'cause then at least I'll be free of you.
So the thing is, I got home tonight planning on doing what I always do. Write in my diary, like I have been since my mother gave me one when I was 10. It's where I get everything out and it all goes in this one little book, that I hide on the 2nd shelf behind this really hideous ceramic mermaid. But then I realized I would just be writing things I should probably be talking about.
I would write, Dear Diary, Today I convinced myself it's okay to give up. Don't take risks. Stick with the status quo, no drama. Now just isn't the time. But my reasons aren't reasons they're excuses. All I'm doing is hiding from the truth and the truth is, I'm scared Stefan. I'm scared that if I let myself be happy for one moment, that the my worlds going to come crashing down and I don't know if I'll be able to survive that.
Stefan
Do you want to know what I would write? I met a girl, we talked and it was epic. Then the sun came up and reality set in. Well, this is reality... right here.
No, I love football; I think it's a great sport. But in this case I don't think football likes me. You saw Tyler over there, and we both know how Matt feels.
Hey, come on, there's more to me than just gloomy graveyard girl. There's a whole other Elena you have yet to meet. She was into everything, very busy.
Stefan
Well I look forward to meeting her, and when will that be?