Lila quotes from Dexter

Lila

[to Dexter, after a bout of semi-rough sex] I guess we found a way to quiet the voices in your head.

Lila

So tell me. Exactly how full of shit are you?

Dexter

I'm not full of anything.

Lila

It was a nice performance in there. Where did you download it from? Addict.com?

Dexter

I have no reason to lie.

Lila

Sure you do. We all do.

Dexter

You thought I was lying?

Lila

I dunno, Bob.

Dexter

Well, it is anonymous.

Lila

Everyone in that room has heard, or lived, far worse than anything you've ever done.

Dexter

I doubt it.

Lila

Oh! So you're Super Junkie.

Dexter

I don't mean to imply that what you've been through hasn't been difficult.

Lila

But there's no way that I could know what you've experienced, right? I couldn't possibly feel that need. Like a thousand hiding voices whispering "this is who you are". And you fight the pressure. The growing need rising like a wave. Prickling and teasing and prodding to be fed. But the whispering gets louder, until they're screaming "now!" And it's the only voice you hear. The only voice you want to hear. And you belong to it. To this ... shadow self. To this ...

Dexter

Dark Passenger.

Lila

Yes. The Dark Passenger.

Dexter

Why are they eating each other?

Lila

Dunno. Ask them.

Lila

Do you like the heat?

Dexter

Um, not really. I'm partial to air conditioning.

Lila

Ah, I love it. Makes me feel like the whole world could explode at any moment.

Dexter

That's a pleasant thought.

Lila

So, if you're perfectly clean, why'd you call?

Dexter

I'm under a lot of ... pressure. At work. I was hoping you could maybe give me some quick tips on how to deal with the urges.

Lila

[amused] There are no quick tips.

Dexter

Oh. I see.

Dexter

I thought we were gonna get art supplies.

Lila

That's what we're doing. I work with found art.

Dexter

More like stolen art.

Dexter

Is that what a sponsor does on their first meeting?

Lila

I dunno. I've never sponsored anyone before.

Dexter

Really.

Dexter

You do realize that I work with the police department.

Lila

If we get caught, you can flash your badge.

Dexter

I don't have a badge – I have a laminate.

Lila

So, tell me. Why do you use?

Dexter

... Why? I dunno, it's just part of who I am.

Lila

And who are you?

Dexter

I'm, uh ... a bad person.

Lila

Haha. You haven't got the first idea who you are, have you? Dexter, meet Dexter. I'm gonna help the two of you get to know each other.

Dexter

Doesn't really seem necessary.

Lila

The first step to recovery is getting to know who you are.

Dexter

I thought the first step was admitting you have a problem.

Lila

And before you can accept who you are, you have to know who you are. So that's our first job. You're going to tell me all your deepest, darkest secrets.

Dexter

I've gotta get back. Dead body.

Lila

Humph. How many times have you used that one before?

Lila

Are you gonna tell me how you're doing?

Dexter

I'm fine.

Lila

C'mon, Dex. Open up.

Dexter

I'm very fine?

Lila

What's going on inside your head? What are you thinking?

Dexter

I'm afraid we're done – you and I.

Lila

Serious? You're breaking up with me?

Dexter

Actually, I don't think I wanna answer any more questions.

Lila

I think you should give me another chance.

Dexter

There's nothing you can do to help me. It's not even you. It's me. I am who I am, and nobody's gonna change that.

Lila

Whatever you think you are – you don't have to be that.

Dexter

That's where you're wrong.

Lila

Stop judging yourself! There are no absolutes. No one's all good, or evil.

Dexter

You're just gonna have to trust me on this.

Lila

Jesus, Dexter, what are you so fucking scared of!? You make yourself into a monster so you no longer bear responsibility for what you do! "Ah, I can't help it, I'm a monster," or, "Of course I was gonna do that – I'm a monster." It's sad! And it's pathetic! And it breaks my heart.

Dexter

You don't think there are monsters in this world? You don't believe that people are evil?

Dexter

I'll show you evil.

Lila

It's ... incredible.

Dexter

But the person who did this –

Lila

Is a person just like me. Like you. We're all good, Dexter. And we're all evil.

Dexter

[thoughts] I thought I closed the door for anybody ever seeing me for who I am. But, this woman sees me. She doesn't know it, but she's looking behind the mask, and she's not turning away.

Lila

Where did you drift off to, anyway?

Dexter

I was having this bizarre dream about my mother.

Lila

Say no more. Oedipus complex, explains a lot.