Look, I'm sorry about that whole "hot mess" thing I said before.
MMandy
Sorry that you said it, or sorry that I heard it?
MMandy
It happens when you're not looking.
MMandy
Before you asked how it happens how someone becomes like me. It happens when you're not looking, and by the time you realize it, it's already who you are. Like the car crash on the side of the road everybody stops and and watches.
That doesn't mean it's who you have to be. You can always change.
MMandy
Turns out I don't do change so well. But you steal a police car, and you set it on fire, I'm your girl. Or if you find the greatest guy in the world, fall madly in love, and then mess it up by hooking up with my dirtbag ex? That I can do.
Yeah, I Saw that picture online.
MMandy
You and the rest of the world.
Maybe if you didn't drink.
MMandy
If I don't drink, then I start to feel. And I don't like what I feel. I wish I had those glasses from "Mandy Melody", I'd just put 'em on and Just disappear.
MMandy
How could you possibly know how I feel?
Because right now, I Wish I could disappear from my life, too.
[ranting] The thing about my boyfriend is, I thought I was being so grown-up. Moving in with him, getting my own place, but now, it's my whole life. And I'm pretty sure I've made a huge mistake. Do you know why I'm helping him with his grant application? Because if he get it, he'll have to travel.
MMandy
That is messed up. You need to tell him.
Tell him what? That I changed my mind? I don't want a relationship? We have a lease!
And he doesn't deserve it. He hasn't done anything wrong. It-Oh! And then there's my dad. What do I tell him, huh? That he was right all along? That I wasn't ready? [Gives a forced laugh]
MMandy
[sighing] I wish I would've said that. I wasn't ready for soooo many things.
Do you ever look back on something you've done, and it's like someone else is doing it?
MMandy
You're kidding, right?
Right. [sighs] Sorry, I...haven't had anyone to talk to.
Hey Castle, looks like your lovelife made the paper again...
Ah, what? Alright, alright, who am I gonna hook up with now?
[Reading an article in the paper] Novelist Richard Castle and New York Police detective Katherine Beckett, both native New Yorkers, are pleased to announce their engagement.
No, nah, nonononono, I didn't, I didn't, I didn't do this...
[Coming forward] Actually, I did.
I know Castle, I like my privacy, but I do realize that you're somewhat famous...
[Ryan and Esposito make the "little" gesture]
Yes, and if we're gonna be together, I have to come to terms with that. And if they're gonna write about you, I want it to be the truth, I want it to be about us. [Hugging Castle]
Well, there's no one that... [Esposito and Ryan grinning in the background, waiting for Castle and Beckett to kiss, Castle giving them the looks, they turn away] There's no one I'd rather share a headline with, but just for the interest of accuracy, let's see if we are getting married in space?
No, it's not gonna happen babe...
[looking disappointed] Be pretty fun, space...
