Eric quotes from 7th Heaven

Eric

[about the joint he found in the house] I just.... I know it's Matt's.

Annie

If it isn't, and if you accuse Matt of something this serious, who knows what will happen. I don't think your relationship with Matt can afford to withstand any false accusations.

Eric

What were you thinking?! It's bad enough you're smoking dope, but then you had to bring it in here where someone else could find it. What if one of the younger kids had found it first?

Matt

I didn't think...

Eric

That's just it, you didn't think, because if you thought of anyone besides yourself, you'd know that the look you just saw on Simon's face was the look of a boy who has lost all respect for his older brother!

Matt

That's not why!

Eric

I'm not finished! Just answer me one thing, it will help me sleep better. Just tell me you wanted to get caught? Because you couldn't have possibly expected to get away with this. Or better yet, tell me why anyone could be so stupid as to do drugs in the first place!?

Matt

I don't know, Dad! Why don't you ask Mom? Maybe she can tell you!

Eric

Don't you dare bring your mother into this. Apologize right now! [Someone honks a car horn outside, waiting for Matt] Oh, you're not going anywhere.

Matt

Well, I'm not staying here. [leaves]

Eric

I can't believe you told Matt you did drugs.

Annie

I thought it might be useful! I thought you understood I was going to tell him!

Eric

I was never under that impression. We don't have to share everything with our kids! We don't share our sex lives with them!

Annie

I'm sorry! I thought maybe Matt wouldn't feel so far away from us if I told him! I had no idea he would throw it back in my face.

Eric

Well, that was another issue entirely. He shouldn't have done that.

Annie

Oh, I didn't think it would turn out this way. [starts crying] I'm just so disappointed.

Do you think some stranger could hurt me worse than my own children trying to scare me out of my house so they can pay off their credit cards and travel? I think I'd rather take my chances with the stranger. It would be less painful and frankly, a lot less embarrassing. You're lucky I'm not carrying my pepper spray.

Oh, I've got mine. [starts digging in her purse]

Eric

Ah, no, I don't think we'll need that.

Joe

We don't search our kids' rooms.

Eric

I don't search mine, either, but I can't be with them every minute. I've got to tell you, I don't always know what they're doing when I'm not around, and the possibilities and getting more and more frightening.

Eric

Matt, if something had happened to Steve while he was with you today, what would you have done?

Matt

I'm not sure, other than I would have tried to get him back to the hospital. If it was too late for that, then I guess I would have just held him. Been with him. If something had happened, Dad, at least the kid would have had a day out. I mean, he's dying and there's nothing anyone can do but let him live a little.

I know what he wanted. He wanted to ask about something he saw the other day. (pulls up her sleeve to reveal numbers) Could an innocent boy like that really understand my story?

Eric

Well....yeah, I think he can. But I don't want you to feel pressured to talk about it if it makes you uncomfortable.

Oh, I talk about it. With my friends who are survivors. We have common ears, we can hear each other. Other people....they don't hear us so well.

Eric

I finished my sermon.

I knew you would.

Eric

Gosh, you know... I've been dreading tomorrow all week, and now I can't wait.

Eric

It's just that I always thought we'd be buried in upstate New York in the Camden family graveyard on the Colonel's property. Camden's have been buried there for hundreds of years.

Annie

A hundred years!

Eric

It's just a hole in the ground, so what difference does it make anyway, right?

Annie

Right, unless by that you don't want to be in the ground next to my mother and father.

Annie

What do you want to tell me that you're not telling me?

Eric

Nothing. Oh, I did speak to Morgan last night. He was thinking that maybe instead of the whole family outing thing that you and Patricia could take the kids and let us have a guys' night out. Just the two of us, just hard-working minister guys just getting away from it all, shooting a little pool.

Annie

What are you two really up to?

Eric

Such a suspicious mind for such a pretty lady.

Annie

Flattery. Nice choice.

Eric

Thank you.

Sgt. Michaels

There's been an accident.

Eric

Tell me it's not Lucy.

Sgt. Michaels

No. But the girl does go to Lucy's high school. Their car smashed into a telephone pole. One girl was killed instantly. The other one survived, but she's not in good shape. Evidently, they were trying to dodge a kid who ran in the middle of the street.

Eric

Which one?

Sergeant Michaels

Sarah. Just fourteen years old. This is gonna be a tough call to make, Rev. I was hoping you'd go with me.

Mary

[rushes in and turns off the music] You guys are bothering Lucy.

Matt

So?

Mary

So? What's wrong with you? Her friend died.

Matt

Yeah, I know.

Simon

[to Matt] Are you still mad at her?

Mary

[to Simon] What are you talking about? [Matt stares at Mary] Get out.

Simon

This is my room now. You can't tell me to get out. [Mary gives Simon a sincere stare. Simon then exits the room]

Mary

You're mad at Lucy? Mad about what?

Matt

I think she was going to run off with those girls. They weren't going to get a pizza.

Mary

You don't know that.

Matt

Yeah, I do. It was written all over her face when I dropped her off, but I didn't press her on it. She was trying to trick me. How do you think I would have felt if she had been in that car? She could have been killed, too!

Lucy

[walks in crying] You think I don't know that? You think I don't know that if they hadn't been on their way to pick me up, Sarah would still be alive and she wouldn't have died?

Matt

Sarah died because she was driving the car and the kid ran out in front of her!

Lucy

I know that! And that's my fault too; it's all my fault!

Mary

Luc, don't!

Lucy

Stay away from me!

Annie

[rushing in with Eric] What's going on?

Lucy

I knew that Jen let Sarah drive the car and I didn't tell anyone. It's my fault I didn't tell anyone.

Eric

[whispering] Lucy.

Lucy

If I had told someone, she might still be alive. If I hadn't told them to pick me up, she might still be alive.

Annie

Luc, no. Don't blame yourself―

Lucy

[pushes Annie away] No! Leave me alone!

Annie

We can't! We can't leave you alone! This is not your fault! It's not your fault!

Lucy

It is my fault! It's all my fault! Nothing will ever be the same again! Nothing! [Annie attempts to hug Lucy, but Lucy again pushes her away and then kneels to the ground and begins crying]

Annie

How's Jen doing? Any word?

Eric

I just got off the phone with her parents; she's still in the hospital. Her leg's going to be okay. But she's got a heavy burden to carry, and... and unfortunately, it could take years to develop the strength for it. Having to be there for Jen is what's keeping the parents going. They're just so grateful they didn't lose her too- What, Annie?

Annie

I just keep thinking that Lucy could have been in that car, too.

Eric

It'll take awhile.

Annie

I know. But I'm glad that she has awhile to take.