Elena
You don't have to convince me that everything's going to be okay.
I know. Wish I could though. Wish I could just tell you that you never feel pain. That you'll never crave blood. But you will. It will be the worst thing you ever lived through.
Elena
But I'll get to live. I'll be a sister, and a friend, and I'll be with you. Forever, if I want. (kisses Stefan) I'm going to get through this. Just like we get through everything. One day at a time.
Elena
I was a cheerleader. I suck at track.
Elena
I can't. All I can think about is your hands on my body.
Okay. (removes hands from her waist)
Elena
(replaces his hands) No, no, no. I didn't say take them off. It feels good.
(Damon starts undressing)
Elena
You know he was in my school today?
Elena
Why were you talking to Jeremy?
Elena
Damon, don't bring him into this.
Cherish the thought he might actually be useful, Elena. (starts to unzip his jeans) You staying for the show, or... (unbuttons jeans)
Elena
(leaving) I'm finding that stake.
(about the final remaining white oak stake) Damon give that to you?
Elena
Yes. Reluctantly. Stefan, she's-- she's not going to stop. She's just going to keep pushing and pushing.
Well if you want to kill her, I'm not going to stop you. But see, here's what will happen. It will feel really good for about ten seconds. And then after that, tens of thousands of vampires all over the world will start to die. Every vampire she ever turned will die. See, rage is a really powerful feeling. But guilt... take it from me. It will destroy you. So. You can either go after her or you can get on the back of my motorcycle. And we can get the hell out of here.
(Elena is hallucinating, seeing Damon instead of Stefan)
Elena
Why am I thinking about you?
Because you're a vampire now. And part of you knows you're a lot more like me, than you are like him.
(after shooting at Elena with a crossbow) A little slow. Almost got you.
Elena
That's why we are not using the wood ones for Hunter Defense Class.
What about Caroline? She's a genius at self-control.
Elena
She's too good. She doesn't understand how hard it is, and you, well... I know what being around too much blood does to you, so... I can't put you through that.
(vamp speeds behind Elena, holding the shaft of an arrow against her throat) So I guess that leaves Damon, huh?
Elena
(flips him over her shoulder, straddles him, and holds the arrow against his throat) Don't be jealous. You know I wish it could be you.
Elena
Dear Diary, I know it's been a while. A long while. I haven't needed... I haven't wanted to write this stuff down. But I didn't want to say it out loud either. The thing is.. I'm a vampire. And I hate it.
(writing in journal) She's been spiraling since her transition. There are times I barely recognize her. But now, the first time in a while, there's hope.
Elena
I feel hopeless. Depressed. Angry. But most of all... I'm scared.
Somewhere in the world, there's a cure for vampires. If I can get it, Elena can be human again. I can giver her back her life.
Elena
Part of me just wants to end it. But, then I think of Jeremy; I'm all that he has left. So I need to find a way through this. No matter what it takes.
So that's what I need to do. No matter what Klaus asks; no matter what lies I have to tell or secrets I have to keep, I'll do it. No matter what it takes.
Elena
(after Damon walks into her bedroom) Oh. Excuse me. What are you doing?
Elena
Okay. Ah, good morning to you too.
He's not answering his phone and he's not here. Which, you know, big deal, we've only got a killer vampire hunter on the loose.
Elena
I haven't talked to him yet today.
Hmm. Give me your phone. Maybe he's dodging me.
Elena
Why would he be dodging you?
Oh, I don't know. Maybe the hot sweaty dance party business? Figured you spilled your guilty little guts to him when I left last night. (Elena looks away) Oh, you didn't tell him, did you?
Elena
No, Damon. I didn't tell him I got high on blood like some crackhead then dirty danced with you. It was a mistake, okay? I wasn't...myself. And besides he's already got enough to deal with, trying to get me through this vampire stuff.
Oh, I see. Classic shame spiral.
Elena
I'm not in a shame spiral.
Oh you so are. Newbie vampire remorse? Whoof, it's worse than a hangover.
Elena
I'm not in a shame spiral, Damon.
(Stefan's voicemail picks up)
So either he's dodging both of us...
Elena
Or something's wrong.