Kaede quotes from Shuffle!

Kaede

[flashback] Tell me, why do you think my mother had to die, but you still get to live? I don't think that's fair. I wish you were dead. I mean it. Just die!

Kaede

[narrating] I am saved by Rin-kun's gentleness. It has been the same for a long time and will definitely be the same in the future. Everyone likes him because he is gentle. Therefore I can't have all of his gentleness for myself. Even thought that's the case, I'm alright with it. As long as I get to see Rin-kun's smile, as long as I can hear Rin-kun's thanks, I'll be able to cheer up and feel very happy. Being with Rin-kun is more than enough. Please always let me be with Rin-kun. Because, my purpose in life is to care for Rin-kun.

Itsuki

Kaede! Come into my bosom!

Kaede

Itsuki, um, what are you doing to Rin?

Rin

Welcome to my fist, Itsuki.

Kaede

Rin, um, what were you dreaming about when I woke you?

Rin

Excuse me? That's an interesting question. Why?

Kaede

Don't you remember, silly? You called out my name. C'mon, tell me, what was it about.

Rin

Well I, I just don't know if I remember. [sees Kaede looking dejected] Oh wait, I remember now. You were almost abducted by aliens that mutilated cows. They had big, scary, brown eyes that could see right through you.

Kaede

You just made that whole entire thing up didn't you?

Rin

Maybe.

Primula

[about Rin and Asa] It's bad for a young man and lady to be alone together.

Kaede

[quick gulp] Rimu, where did you hear that?

Primula

TV. The daytime drama programs.

Kaede

You shouldn't watch those kind of shows.

Rin

The A/C broke down.

Kaede

And the repair shop's closed today.

Sia

Don't worry Rin, leave it to me. Hit it like this from a 45 degree angle. Yah! Um, the A/C is smoking.

Primula

Hit it from a 60 degree angle.

Rin

NO!

Asa

What's going on here? You two are sitting way too far apart. [to Rin] Now you listen up mister, you better not have gone and done something to upset Kaede again.

Kaede

No, Rin hasn't done anything...

Asa

Don't you lie for him. You don't have to protect him. Come on jerk face, time to fess up.

Rin

Excuse me, I'm just not in the mood. [leaves]

Asa

[to Kaede] It's about Rimu, isn't it? Tell me what's wrong.

Forbesii

So you actually came? I'm not surprised.

Rin

We're all here to see Primula.

Forbesii

And what if we say no?

Eustoma

You wouldn't dare force you're way past the King of the Gods and the King of the Demons, would you? Well?

Sia

Don't do this father.

Nerine

Rin's not your enemy, he just wants to see Primula.

Kaede

And with all due respect your majesties, you have to let Rin see Rimu.

Kareha

I don't mean to sound morbid, but you don't think he's been in an accident, do you?

Asa

Or maybe on his way to my house this morning he got kidnapped.

Kaede

Kidnapped? [rushes away in a panic]

Kaede

[answering phone] Hi there, is that you Rin?

Rin

It's me. Asa's mom invited me to stay here and have dinner with them tonight so I don't really need you to make anything for me. [to Ama] If I ate all that, I'll explode.

Ama

A boy your age should be able to eat twice this much. I expect you to clean your plate.

Asa

She'll make you do it too.

Kaede

Rin.

Rin

Hey, Kaede, what the heck do you think you're doing?

Kaede

Please Rin, please don't go anywhere. Please don't leave me.

Rin

What do you mean?

Kaede

I just want to take care of you, that's all I want. Please don't leave Rin, please just stay here with me in this house forever. Don't you see, I will give you anything.

Rin

Just stop it!

Kaede

Don't go! No, stay! I take it back, I take it all back! It was crazy! I'm sorry! I didn't mean it that way, just come back! Please Rin... [Rin leaves] No... what did I do? Rin...

Kaede

[crying] Where did I mess up? When did all this start falling apart? What did I do, what did I do wrong? Maybe Rin never forgave me after all. Maybe he's hated me all this time. After all those horrible things I did, I really can't blame him, can I? What am I going to do if he goes away? How can I keep living in this house without him? I wanted to show him how sorry I am. That's it, that's all I want, I just wanted to take care of him to make up for the past.

Primula

Are you sure? Was it all for Rin, just for him?

Kaede

No, you're right, it was for me. I just wanted to be with him. That's what I really wanted.

Primula

Tell him. Why don't you tell him that? Tell him that you want to be with him.

Kaede

I have no right to tell him that, not after what I've done.

Primula

Why not?

Kaede

Because he'll never love me back. I have no right to tell Rin how I feel because I don't deserve to be loved by him.

Primula

So that's it? You'll let him go? [pauses] What about me? I want him to stay too.

Kaede

He'll be back.

Kaede

I wasn't good enough to make him love me.

Asa

Kaede...

Kaede

It's not that surprising. Some of the awful things I've done shouldn't be forgiven. Nonetheless, I took care of his every need. He was all I cared about. Everything I did was for Rin. It was the one thing I could do to try to make up for what I've done. But then, after awhile, I realized that what I really wanted was for him to fall in love with me. I wasn't honest with myself. Everything I did was because I wanted to be with Rin. I haven't been fair to him. The truth is, I took care of him out of love, not debt. Despite what we've been through, I think I will always love him. I wasn't being honest. I was afraid of the truth because I knew he wouldn't love me the same way back.

Asa

But he knew, he knew that you cared.

Kaede

I could never forgive myself for what I did. Never. It makes sense though. I can't blame Rin for choosing someone like you over someone like me.

Asa

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, Kaede.

Kaede

You will make him happy, won't you? Because, Rin deserves it.

Asa

I certainly plan to, but so far he's the one that's been making me happy.

Kaede

I can see it in your eyes, you really have fallen for him, haven't you Asa?

Asa

He caught me off guard.

Kaede

Good for you. I hate to think about the suffering he went through because of me. But if you make him happy, I think in some way it will sort of make up for it.

Kaede

Asa, I need you to let me make one selfish request. I want to see him. If I'm able to see him, I can keep on loving him. I know he's not mine. He's never been mine but I need to keep loving him.

Asa

Kaede...

Kaede

I'm so sorry, Asa. I know it's selfish, I just... I know how Rin feels, and Asa, I know that you love him. But I still, I still...

Asa

Stop that. If anybody's selfish it's me. I should have seen it from the beginning, you've been in love with Rin for as long as I've known you. I'm sorry. Forgive me.