[Mark interrupts Derek, who is analyzing a patient's scans]
I'm a little worried about Avery.
[tries to ignore him] I'm--I'm this close to getting this.
We had a real connection, you know?
[puts away his notes and looks at Mark] Okay.
Well, we were having such a good time together, and suddenly he's avoiding me. He's cold and distant.
Well, you're afraid You're about to have your heart broken by him.
Kind of. Derek, you know me. I never gave a crap about teaching in my life. But lately, I like the idea of passing it on. And I, you know, I just-- I want to see him do well. Maybe I just need to back off.
[Owen enters the room]
Ah, Hunt. Just in time. Mark is afraid that Avery is gonna break up with him.
Can this just stay between you and me?
[awkwardly] I'd prefer that. Uh, Shepherd, about these cases--
I know what you're gonna say. You're worried about the hospital's mortality rate going up. See, that's the worst part about being chief. You have to say no to everybody, and they hate you for it. And you say no enough, you're gonna hate yourself, which is why I'm not gonna watch you go through this. I have a consult. [looks at Mark] If you love someone, set them free. If they come back.. [facetiously blows a kiss to him]
[Derek quickly leaves the room]
I'm gonna punch you. [to Owen] Hey, let me ask you something––
Meredith didn't want kids. I pushed her... She opened herself up. Now I feel like I... I did this to her.
She wanted it, too. Or it wouldn't have happened.
She'll blame me... like I've been blaming her. We lost Zola and now if I lose Meredith...
She always comes back. She might need a minute to back away, but... she comes back.
I offered to time share Sofia with Derek and Meredith if they don't end up with kids of their own. He said no.
Because your child is not a rental car. We're not gonna take her out one week a month.
Have you seen her? Because she's heart-stoppingly adorable.
You're missing the point.
No, she's delicious. She's addictive. Why wouldn't you want to parent her?
[voiceover] These are the things we beg for: a root canal, an IRS audit, coffee spilled on our clothes... When the really terrible things happen, we start begging a God we don't believe in to bring back the little horrors and take away this. It seems quaint now, doesn't it? The flood in the kitchen, the poison oak, the fight that leaves you shaking with rage... Would it have helped if we could see what else was coming? Would we have known that those were the best moments of our lives?
How much trauma has your girlfriend done?
A lot. She's told me about a bunch of her cases.
Oh, so we're just going off your pillow talk? If I get a hint that your girlfriend is in over her head, I'm gonna boot her out of my O.R.
You know what your problem is? You don't think anyone who sleeps with me can be talented or have half a brain.
Yeah. Yeah, it's mostly true.
Your ex-wife is brilliant, and she slept with me. I'm not trying to start a fight. I'm just sayin'.
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Oh, thank god that is over. Did I seem nervous in there? Just be-be honest with me.
Oh, you-you seemed more than OK.
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That is Derek Shepherd in there, one of the best neurosurgeons in the country, and Mark's best friend. And the whole time I was in there, all I could think about was my high school cross-country team. Coach would always say, "Don't look back, never look back, because if the kid behind you sees that, he knows you're weak, and he will run you down." The whole surgery that that's all I was thinking about. Don't look back.
[voiceover] Have you ever had the starring role on a play? The solo in a recital? All eyes on you, waiting for you to do what they came to see. Feeling the incredible pressure to perform. There was a time when they used to call operating rooms an operating theater. It still feels like one. Scores of people get ready for the show. The sets are arranged, there are costumes, masks, props, everything has to be rehearsed, choreographed, all leading to the moment when the curtain goes up. You know what they say about Carnegie Hall, there's only one way to get there...
Practice, practice, practice until it is perfect, people. This is a long, complex procedure with many parts. Therefore many opportunities for error.
[Jackson, Alex, Cristina and April are in the gallery watching Derek and the others separate the conjoined twins when Meredith walks in carrying Zola.]
Look at this face. Seriously, look at this face.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, super cute. They're in the spinal cord now.
Bailey spent the last two hours telling me how crappy my life is, but look at this face. Oh, Zola, look. [points at Derek] There's your daddy. He's about to repair a myelomeningocele. [coos to Zola] Can you say myelomeningocele?
How was your lunch, Dr. Grey?
Oh, it was fine. Actually, no line at all. I was able to get my sandwich, find my daughter, see my husband, go watch the groundbreaking surgery that's going on right next door. And still get back in time to do my work.
Sounds like you have it all, Dr. Grey.
I do, actually. I have it all.
