BenMiranda, um... I was playing golf. And I can't apologize for it 'cause it wasn't anything I did on purpose... I was just... I was playing golf. I missed you.
You're a good man. You are handsome, and kind, and smart, and good. You're perfect. But, um... I'm busy... holding myself together with tape and glue. And a piece of me wishes that you hadn't played golf because... then you'd be all taped and glued too... And maybe you'd be where I am. You're too much for me right now... 'cause I'm busy with the tape and the glue.
Ben
How was your lunch, Dr. Grey?
Oh, it was fine. Actually, no line at all. I was able to get my sandwich, find my daughter, see my husband, go watch the groundbreaking surgery that's going on right next door. And still get back in time to do my work.
Ben
Sounds like you have it all, Dr. Grey.
I do, actually. I have it all.
You're a physician. Is this really the first time you missed a lunch and the crossword because of a surgery?
Ben
It was important to me.
Well, this parasite's important to me.
Ben
Yeah, I can see that.
You know what? Fine. Let's do it right now. Give me the damn crossword.
Ben
Just forget it.
Oh, no. Nobody's ever gonna forget it. Where is Dr. Warren's bag?
Ben
Miranda...
And this is why you don't work with your girlfriend.
Here we go. Oh, this is gonna be so great. It's way better than a once-in-a-lifetime, bone-eating parasite. Let's see. One down.
Ben
Dr. Bailey...
Oh, no, no, no. No help from you. I'm too excited. This is what I live for. Let's see "Peruvian mountain range". Oh, Andes. Five, uh-huh. "Planet with water, four letters". Oh, Mars. Duh. Uh,"fancy sauce"? Fancy... ooh. Remoulade.
Ben
Stop.
What? No, no. I'm on a roll. Come on. Hey, this can't be the Sunday, 'cause this is way too easy. What's ... Oh, hey, this one, 21 across. "My question to you." Hmm.
Ben
I'm asking you to put it away.
He's asking you nicely, Dr. Bailey.
Oh, no, no, no. When he doesn't get his way, he holds on to it in his cheek like a squirrel with a nut. We are doing the crossword. What is "my question to you"? It's a bunch of letters. Um ... oh, maybe it's a phrase. "My question to you," anybody?
Ben
14.
No, I'm looking at it. It's 13.
Ben
No, it's 14. Count again.
I just counted. What, do you have X-ray vision from across the room?
Ben
"Will you marry me" is my question to you. And the reason why it's so easy is because I made the crossword. Took me two damn months not to mention getting a mockup made of "The New York Times." The phrase has 14 letters. "Will," four,"you," seven, "marry," 12,"me" ... 14.
Oh, you had to dive on top of me?
Ben
I was being your human shield. I was protecting you.
Oh, do I strike you as a woman who needs protecting?
Ben
You're right. All right. Next time, I'm gonna use you as my human shield.
Not long after I discovered my ex-husband had been e-mailing another woman, we met for breakfast. That was a big breakfast... Stacks of pancakes, eggs, and all kinds of fancy jams he thought would somehow make it okay that he was e-mailing another woman while he was married to me. Hmm. I remember staring at the butter knife I used to spread my fancy jam, and for half a second, imagined what the side of his neck might look like with the butter knife in it. Fancy jams dripping down the side of his fat, e-mail, cheating neck. Yep, I've been that mad.
I thought Derek was cheating on me, and I got that mad. "Two trauma surgeons and an orthopod" kind of mad.
You know, cutting off a penis isn't actually that big of a deal. I mean, it's not like he needs it for survival or to think or, like, I don't know, to walk. (they all look at her) What? Hey, it's my leg. And, you know... And for the record, I only thought about maiming you once, Callie, and I told you that the second I thought it.
Look, the difference is, we may think about it, but we don't actually dismember our spouses.
Ben
Good to know.
I love you too much! It's too much. Okay, my first husband. Okay, if he left, a piece of me always knew that I would be okay, and when he did leave, I was, but you... Ever since Derek died, I sit up in the middle of the night, gasping for air, terrified. I've been having these dreams that something happened to you. So, if something happened... I love you too much. Like, you are a piece of me. I love you. So... I need a plan. I need rules. I need some order, and I had just gotten used to your dumb miracle-man idea, and now you're telling me you want me to pull the plug, and I can't deal with that. I... Just order and, uh, some rules and a plan and some order in the middle of this, 'cause if I have to think about what could happen, it's too much.
Ben
I promise... I promise that I will let you die first.
Ben
Hey, I love you too much, too.
Ben
No, no. No, no. That's not... That's not what happened. I didn't know that the doors had opened. I...
Well, I'm looking at it, and so are you.
Ben
No, no. I don't care! Look. I didn't know!
No, you saw what you wanted to see. You made a choice that you wanted to make.
Ben
Do you really believe that?!
What else am I supposed to believe?
Ben
Oh, son of a... I am your damned husband!
Ben
You've been in your head all day. It's fine, 'cause I covered for you, but talk to someone. Work it out.
What do you need, Warren? Do you need me to be fragile? Do you need me to fall apart?
Ben
Oh, come on, now.
Would that help you? Because you keep looking at me with your eyes all soft like you want to help me, you want to make me feel better. I don't need to feel better. I don't need your sympathy. Stuff like this happens, and I am built for it. I'm fine. Leave me alone.
Ben
Why doesn't hockey just ban the fighting?
Are you kidding? It's part of the game, the good part. You got to shake up the other team or get your own team going.
Garth is the enforcer. Now, his job is to go in and take out the skills player, upset the other team. Seems he's pretty good at it.
Fights can be strategic, too. A fight can change momentum, clear the air, break a stalemate.
It also rallies the team against a common enemy.
Ben
Well, this is fascinating. And I thought I was just gonna learn about surgery.
Oh, no, Dr. Warren, it's me who's being schooled tonight. Isn't that why you allowed me into an OR?
I just wanted to see how you deal with a Dr. Webber.
You don't want to have this fight, sir. Someone always tries to, and they always get on board or get left behind.
You said fighting is the good part, right? Well, I hope you meant it.
I don’t want to stuff my feet into these shoes. When Webber became chief, he did not have to fiddle around on sticks all day. When Hunt became chief, he did not have to squeeze five toes into a space built for two. But I became chief and I can’t wear my perfectly comfortable surgical clogs anymore. Any you know why?
Ben
Society?
[voice over] As surgeons, we try to eliminate pain. As humans, we just try like hell to avoid it. When we can’t avoid pain, we try to understand it… with pithy little quotes that we can wrap our head around… like “Suffering is optional,” or “Time heals all wounds,” and my personal favorite, “Every pain has a purpose.” God, I hope that one’s true.
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