[V.O.] I was out back talking to Fezco when Jules arrived.
What the fuck, Rue?
What? What, what, what, what?
Come on now, bruh. You owe me 120 bucks.
My bad, man. I forgot.
[Rue laughs and hands Fez her joint]
Shit, you know I ain't trippin'. [pause; smokes the joint] Well, to be honest with you, your whole drug shit got me feelin' kinda uneasy.
Come on, don't go soft on me, Fez.
No, I'm not. It's just that... I like you. And I missed you, bruh. Like, that shit at the beginning of summer had me scared as fuck.
Yeah, you and everybody else.
I'm serious, Rue. I've seen a lot of people die. None like you. Now, I don't know what type of fucked-up shit you got goin' inside your head. And I don't know how to help, but I could tell you one thing: This drug shit, it's not the answer.
You know, I remember when I was eleven years old... It was a couple months after my dad got diagnosed, and we got the results back from the prognosis. And it was really good. It was like, 80/20. And we decided to celebrate, so... we, like, ordered a bunch of Chinese food. [chuckles] I remember that night, I was laying between my parents in bed, and... all of a sudden, I couldn't breathe. It was like there was no more air left in the world. And I was gasping, and I was panicking. And they called the ambulance, and they thought it was like... an allergic reaction or some shit. And then, when I got to the hospital, they gave me liquid Valium. Yeah. To calm me down. And when it hit me, I thought... "This is it. This is the feeling I have been searching for my entire life, for as long as I could remember." Because suddenly... [beat] the world went quiet. And I felt safe in my own head. Two years later, he was gone. Panic attacks stayed. And I found a way to live, so... Will it eventually kill me? Maybe. Fuck, maybe not. I don't know. You still gonna be my dealer, Fez?
Shit. You a fuckin' trip, bruh. [Rue chuckles] I'm too high to be havin' this conversation right now.
Yeah, man. Me, too. Me fucking too.
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