LaGuerta. She was on her knees, where those blood stains are, isn't that right? She was your co-worker, your friend. Why didn't you just stay at the party and let Dexter take care of everything?
DebraI had to stop him.
But Dexter can't help what he is. He has no conscience, unlike you. You knew the moment you pointed that gun at LaGuerta it was wrong, and still, you pulled the trigger. You shot a woman in cold blood! You let her bleed out and did nothing! You shot an innocent woman for simply doing her job!
Debra
Because of Dexter!
And that's what terrifies you the most. You so desperately want to believe that if you had just shot Dexter, then you wouldn't have to face the truth, that if you had to do it all over again you'd still choose him. Because in your heart, you know you'll always choose Dexter.
Debra
[quietly] How do I make it right?
By finally accepting that you're a good person who was forced to do a terrible thing. And that you made the best of an impossible situation. You can walk out that door. You can move forward. The choice is yours. It always has been.
Debra
Did Dad kill himself?
Yeah. A few years back, Matthews told me the truth. Harry OD'd on his heart medication.
Debra
Was it because of you?
He thought he'd created a monster.
Debra
I think I know how he felt. Why he killed himself. But he only got it half right!
[Deb grabs the wheel and forces the car into a lake]
Well, we're never gonna get anywhere unless one of you starts talking.
[Dexter and Debra remain silent]
Okay...Debra, it seems that you tried to kill Dexter as well as yourself.
Debra
Yes, but then I saved him.
You saved me? You only had to save me because you tried to kill me!
Debra
I know, but-
You almost left my son an orphan. Harrison. Who's gonna take care of him!? Who!?
Debra
...I don't know.
All I've done my whole life is try to take care of you, to protect you.
Debra
Protect!? Jesus Christ, Dexter! If this is your way of protecting me-
Okay, so I'm not perfect! You think it's easy being your brother!?
Debra
You're not even listening to me. You don't understand. I've been trapped in a fucking fog-
No, I don't understand! Haven't you heard anything she said?! I'm stupid that way. My brain is limited. So when my sister tries to kill me, for some reason, it doesn't make sense!
It's true, Dexter, what she said. While in the throes of PTSD, one's thinking becomes cloudy. The weight of what she has been through has been too much for her to bear. Debra has been in such a turmoil that she sought out the first solution that presented itself.
Debra
I had just found out that Dad killed himself because of you. Because of what you are. I was fucking traumatized by all this shit!
[sarcastically] Yeah, so try to kill us both. That solves everything.
You are overlooking an important part of what happened, Dexter. Yes, she tried to kill you, the both of you. And that was Debra hitting rock bottom. But ultimately, as she said, she saved you. And that was Debra's first step toward recovery. You should see that as a promising sign for your sister.
Great. [to Debra] I'm so fucking happy for you.
Debra
God, this is such a mind fuck! After tomorrow, you're not gonna be here. What the fuck does that look like?
Debra
Is that even possible?
Yeah, I think so. Don't you?
Debra
It's just every fucked up-- Every time I've been a complete mess, you've been there for me. Even when it was your fault that I was fucked up you've never given up on me. So if I can't make this work, going back to being a cop again, then who the fuck is gonna help me pick up the pieces of that?
You're not that person anymore. You're stronger than that. You're stronger than I'll ever be.
Debra
I'm not.
Deb, Dad and Vogel gave me the code so I'd know the right thing to do, but you've always just known. It's the compass I always wished I had. And as long as you listen to that you won't need me. You'll be fine.
Debra
Maybe. But don't ever think that it was the code that made you a good brother. There's a human being in there. There always has been. Even if you can't see it.
[Debra has been shot]
I'm calling your brother.
Debra
No, he's leaving with Harrison. If you tell him what happened, he'll stay.
Debra
I swear to fucking God, I'm not getting on that ambulance if you call him.
[to paramedic] Can I ride with you to the hospital?
PParamedic
Yeah, no problem sir.
[to Debra] For once don't argue with me. I'm in the ambulance. That's it.
Debra
You're such a fucking asshole.
[Quinn is riding with Debra to the hospital]
Debra
[in pain] Ooh You know, I really hate getting shot.
[chuckles] You need to stop that.
Debra
I thought that was it, I thought I was going to die.
Debra
I thought I was getting what I deserved.
What you deserved? Why would you deserve that?
Debra
I've done shit I'm not proud of. Stuff I can't take back.
I've done shit I'm not proud of.
Debra
Not the same.
I know. You went through a bad time. But I've fucked up too, Deb, a lot. I think we get to make up for it, you know?
Debra
How?
Do enough good in the world, it kind of cancels out the bad.
Debra
I think we'd need to save a busload of nuns or something.
You're a good person, a lot better than most. Now that you're back on the force, you'll have a million chances to do good. Maybe even save that busload of nuns. [smiles] But if they're like the ones I had in school, let 'em go. Come here. [kisses her on the forehead]
[In flashback]
[holding a newborn Harrison] I don't know how to do this.
Debra
Just keep his head up.
No, I mean everything. How to be a father, how to take care of him.
Debra
You'll be great.
Debra
Because you've always taken care of me.
Debra
Ever since we were little. Don't you remember the monsters?
Debra
Every time Mom turned off the lights, they'd be running all over the walls. I couldn't fucking go to sleep. I thought they were gonna eat me or something.
Debra
They were the shadows. You came in and explained it in your dorky little voice. "Oh, it's just the absence of light, Deb."
Debra
I don't even know why I remember that, but I do. And even then, you stayed in my room and slept on the floor by my bed. You made me feel so fucking safe. You were always taking care of me. You're gonna be a great father, because you've always been a great big brother.
Debra
With all my heart.
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