[Tomoya and Nagisa have moved in as a married couple.]
Tomoya OkazakiWhat's wrong?
NNagisa
I'm not quite sure what to say at a time like this...
Tomoya
A time like what? What do you mean?
NNagisa
Our new life starts together today. Should I say "Ready, set, go" or something like that?
Tomoya
No, that's weird. It's not like a race or anything. [Chuckles]
NNagisa
Hm, you're right, but what should we say?
Tomoya
The idea is that we're gonna live together and support each other and all, so something like "Let's give it our best"?
NNagisa
In that case, I'd like to make a vow to start things off on a good note.
Tomoya
A vow?
NNagisa
Yep. I, Nagisa Okazaki, will no longer cry. No matter how hard things get, I vow to hang in there and never give up. [Tomoya gives her a positive look.] But, even if I don't cry when I'm sad, I might do it when I'm happy. That's just the kind of person I am. From now on, I'll do my best to support you.
Tomoya
Thank you, and I'll do my best to support you too, Nagisa.
Tomoya
Uh What is it?
Is it really okay for me to take a bath first? I don't wanna keep you waiting.
Tomoya
No, it's fine. I, uh, I'll take a bath first tomorrow and then we'll be even, alright?
Okay. That sounds fair. In that case, I'll see you when I get out.
Tomoya
Calm down. Come on, Tomoya, you've heard her taking a bath at her house plenty of times. It's no big deal.
Tomoya
What's wrong?!
I'm sorry. I didn't know the water would be so cold.
Tomoya
It takes a while for the water to get hot, but it'll be fine in a minute. Turn the faucet a little at a time, okay?
Right. Got it. Um, sorry for the trouble. I'll try to be quick.
Tomoya
No, it's fine. Please take your time.
No way! I can't do that! You have to get up early tomorrow for work, so you need to get to bed soon.
Tomoya
Huh? Oh, you're right... Guess I forgot.
I should probably get to bed, too. I'm gonna start looking for a job tomorrow.
Tomoya
Huh?
I can't just stay home and fool around all day while you're working. I have to earn my keep.
Tomoya
Nagisa, are you awake?
Tomoya
Are you serious about looking for a job tomorrow?
Yup. But don't worry. Even if I'm not a housewife, I'll still cook and clean. I want to, 'cause this is my house, too, right?
Tomoya
In that case, I'll take care of some housework myself. Don't work too hard and make yourself sick again.
I know I may not be very strong, but I don't wanna live the rest of my life like I'm weak, either. Sorry, Tomoya. I don't know, maybe I'm just being selfish.
Tomoya
No, I don't think that at all. You never asked for anything from me that I wasn't willing to give.
But that's the thing. Even if you don't mind, I'm always asking you to do things for me.
Tomoya
Yeah, but who cares? You ask me to do easy stuff like play ball with your dad or hold your hand or whatever.
Then would you hold my hand now?
Tomoya
Hm?
[Tomoya and Nagisa reaches each others hands and hold them.]
This is it. It's so sudden, but we're married now.
Tomoya
From now on, everything we do, we do together, alright? But that being said, I'm sure we'll have our fair share of troubles.
As long as I have you, I can handle anything. No problem.
Tomoya
Yeah, same here. You took the words right out of my mouth. With your support, I feel like anything is possible. I need you. You gotta stay with me forever, okay?
Of course I'll stay. Forever, wherever. I'll always be with you.
You sure look like you're deep in thought. What's on your mind?
Tomoya
Oh, I was just thinking about something Miyazawa said. Remember the thing about the old town legend? She said that whenever someone achieves true happiness, an orb of light appears. Of course, I don't know if the legend is true or not, but it makes me wonder if we have one of those orbs of light hovering around us right now. She also said if you can manage to catch one of those lights, you'll have a wish granted. If you got one, what would you wish?
I don't know. I don't need anything.
Tomoya
There must be something.
Well, there's nothing I can think of, at least. Actually, there might be one thing.
Tomoya
Really? What is it then? If you tell me, then I'll buy it for you.
I think I want a baby. You think that could ever happen?
At last, my Nagisa photo collection is complete!
Tomoya
You're nuts, old man. When did you take all these?
Let's just say I ate enough of those chocolate diamond whatever parfaits to kill a man! Sure wasn't easy. Sometimes, I crawled on the floor, other times, I hid in the kitchen or clung form the ceiling or stood on my head to get just the right angle.
Tomoya
I'm surprised they didn't kick you out.
Anyway, where did our little ladies run off to? I wanna show them the fruits of my labor.
Tomoya
Dunno. Nagisa said she needed to talk to Sanae about something important before we came. But wait, you mean you're gonna show them these?
Tomoya
Nagisa, what's wrong?!
Sorry, guys. Just a little nauseous
Nauseous huh? What are you pregnant or something?
Tomoya
Don't joke about that!
Hit a soft spot, huh? Sorry kid, if you had any balls, she'd have a bun in the oven already.
She does, we just found out.
I'm not talking about baking.
Nagisa and Tomoya are having a child. Congratulations.
Wait, Sanae! When you say they're having a child, you mean a stork came to visit them, or they picked it up in a cabbage patch, or a fairy god mother granted their wish, or something!
No Dad. That's not how it works. Tomoya and I are married now, so we....uh..mm
Tomoya
[Thinking] What? Nagisa, no. Don't say it.
We have sex and sex makes babies!
Tomoya
[Thinking] It's takes a special kind of girl to say that to her parents. Actually, it takes a special kind of human to say that at all. You're one in a million, Nagisa.
She hasn't had her period in two months. I think it's safe to say it's for real.
Tomoya
Uh...u...
You little creep! You're dead! [Growling noise] I mean, congratulations, kid.
Tomoya
Uh...t-thanks.
I love the breeze. It feels so nice and cool. (Gasp) The baby just moved!
Tomoya
Whoa, really?
Yah. It's a weird feeling, like it's sliding around in there.
Tomoya
No kidding.
Guess we'd better come up with a name, huh?
Tomoya
Yeah. I haven't thought about it much, but we need a boy's name and a girl's name, don't we?
Either way, how about we take a character from your name, Tomoya?
Tomoya
Nah, it doesn't matter to me. Besides, it'll have my last name either way. Let's take something from your name instead. How about that?
But, my name's kind of hard to work with, so it'll end up sounding silly. Like Nagisako or Nagisami or something like that.
Tomoya
Well, okay. Nagisa means shore, right? So, how about we think of a name that has an ocean thing?
Oh, good idea... In that case, how about... Ushio? We can use the character for tide.
Tomoya
Ushio?
Yup. Strong and fearless, the rising and falling ocean waves. The endless ebb and flow of the tide. Perfect, right? And best of all, it works whether it's a girl or a boy.
Tomoya
So it's Ushio Okazaki, huh?
A lot of things happened in life. Some of them good and some of them bad. But, no matter what, the tide will always come back to the shores again and again. And so I'll stand by watching, just as the shores watch the tide come and go.
Tomoya
So you're saying that tides are bigger and stronger than the shore?
Of course. They travel the whole ocean.
Tomoya
And like the ocean, I hope our child isn't just strong. I hope it's as kind and nurturing as the deepest waters. Don't you agree?
Tomoya
We couldn't go to the beach this summer after all, huh?
I know. It's a shame, isn't it? I really wanted to go to the beach with you.
Tomoya
All right, then, let's make a promise.
Tomoya
Yeah, we're going to come to the beach with Ushio next year no matter what. It's a promise.
Tomoya
Uh-huh. You promise, right? Nagisa?
Yah, of course. I promise.
Tomoya Okazaki
You know, Sanae. Sometimes I think you must hate me for what I've done. I sure wouldn't blame you at least.
Tomoya
I was just thinking that if Nagisa hadn't met me in the first place, she wouldn't be going through such a risky pregnancy right now. For better or worse, I changed her life. When I first met her, she seemed so frail. I feel like if I hadn't called out to her that day, she would have stood at the bottom of that hill forever. She never would have taken the first step into the life she lives now. I don't know, maybe I'm being conceited about this, but I always felt that she had gotten stronger because she met me. And I had gotten stronger because of her, too.
That's exactly what happened, Tomoya. You have no idea how much Akio and I appreciate the things you've done for Nagisa.
Tomoya
That's fine and all, but I'm starting to have my doubts. If I weren't here, then she'd probably still be living at home with you guys. She might not have as many friends, but I think she'd still be happy in her own way. Or maybe she would have met someone who's actually worth something. And she'd be better off than she is now.
That's hardly fair, Tomoya. I can't even imagine that.
Tomoya
I had a feeling you'd say that. It's nice of you, but you don't have to humor me. I don't know...
That's how I honestly feel.
Tomoya
I'm sorry I brought this up. I guess... I just needed to vent a little.
[Tomoya is narrating about his present life.]
Tomoya Okazaki
[narrating] I was only living because it was too much trouble to die. I got up in the morning, went to work, I ate dinner, and then I went to sleep at night. It's like my body was doing it out of habit. That's how I lived every day of my life. I worked my body to the absolute limit. I wanted to forget everything, so I let work swallow my life; swallow everything.
[Tomoya is at work late at night.]
MManager
Okazaki, why don't you call it a night? It's late.
Tomoya
[aloud] It's fine. I'll be done in just a second.
MManager
Now don't get me wrong, I appreciate all the work you do for us, but if you keep pushing yourself like that, you're going to end up making yourself sick. You know, you're not even taking time off for Ōbon.
Tomoya
Don't worry about me. I'm doing it because I want to.
MManager
If you don't take off every once in a while, you're going to get me in trouble with the government.
Tomoya
[narrating] After work was rough on me. It was even worse when I had a day off. I would throw my money away just to kill time. To stay away from home, I was hiding from reality because it was the only thing holding me together. I hate this town, but even if I moved away, I wouldn't have anywhere to go; anything to do. I tried to shut everything out; to live without thinking of anything. I wanted to wipe my mind clean. I wanted to forget what happened. Everything I did was wrong. Everything was a mistake. The fact that I met her, the fact that we fell in love, that we got married, the fact that we had a baby...It was all one big mistake I couldn't take back.
[Tomoya and Ushio are on a train and are sitting near a mother and a child causing a disturbance.]
Tomoya Okazaki
What is it?
Tomoya
Alright. Well, what do you do with Sanae?
Tomoya
Did you bring any books with you? [Ushio nods no.] What about with the Old Man?
Tomoya
You play baseball?
Uh-huh. Like this. [She gets up and gets into a pretend batting stance, imitating Norihiro Komada.] Komada!
Tomoya
Are you doing an impression?
Tomoya
It's not funny at all.
[Dejected] That's too bad. [She sits back down in her seat]
Tomoya
[Thinking] What the heck is he teaching her? [The mother and child are still making a disturbance, Tomoya then speaks aloud, irritated] Shut up! There are other people on this train, you know!
MMother
[Holding her child] I'm sorry. I'll keep him quiet.
Tomoya
Ugh...Dammit... [He then sees that Ushio has disappeared] Ushio? [He goes to look for her] Where the heck did she go? [He goes into another cart and sees Ushio running from out of the bathroom] Give me a break...Ushio, let me know first if you've going to the bathroom, okay? [Pause] What's wrong? [He sees her flushed face] You weren't crying, were you? [She nods no] Come on, don't lie to me.
Tomoya
Huh? Who told you that?
Tomoya
Sanae? Even she can be strict, huh? Who knew?
But she said there's one place where's it's okay to cry.
Tomoya
And where is that?
Tomoya
Fair enough. I guess nobody would see you crying if you did it in the bathroom. But if you feel like crying, I don't think you should have to hold back. You should cry while you still can. When you get bigger, sometimes you can't cry...Even if you have something you want to cry about.
[Tomoya and Ushio are back on the train after a stop. Ushio is playing with a robot toy Tomoya bought for her.]
Tomoya
It's fine if you don't like it. [Ushio acknowledges him.] Well, I mean you'd probably rather have a girl's toy, right, instead of a robot? [Ushio nods no]
Girl's toys are boring. I like robots.
Tomoya
Well, there's no harm, I guess. It's just a little strange. [Ushio gives him a confused look] No, never mind. Keep playing. [Thinking] Wonder if she's enjoying her summer vacation? Probably not...Since she's stuck with a guy like me...
[Ushio and Tomoya are staying at an inn. Ushio gets up, disturbing Tomoya, causing him to wake up.]
Tomoya
What's wrong?
Tomoya
It's dark, so be careful. [He goes back to sleep]
'Kay. [Tomoya feels bad for making her go by herself and accompanies her. Ushio goes down the stairs, into the bathroom, then out.] I did it all by myself.
Tomoya
Good for you... [Tomoya and Ushio are walking down a hallway and she sees a firefly outside.] So what is it this time?
Tomoya
Hm? [He sees the firefly] Oh, it's a firefly. You know what that is, right?
I've never seen one before.
Tomoya
They must come out later here. [Ushio puts on a depressed face] Something wrong? [She nods no] What? Do I have something funny on my face? [She nods no again] Then stop staring at me like that. It's not very polite. [She still has the same face on] Come on, what do you want? If there's something you wanna say, then say it. [Pause] I get it. You won't talk because you're still afraid of me, aren't you? [She nods yes] Alright, out with it already! I promise I won't yell anymore, okay?
I want you to tell me about my Mommy. [Tomoya is shocked by what she said]
Tomoya
Why don't you ask Sanae?
I did, but she wouldn't say anything to me.
Tomoya
She wants me to tell you, huh? [Pause] Ask Sanae when we get back. Say you asked me and I wouldn't tell you anything. [He walks off]
[Tomoya comes back from the overlook with Shino to Ushio who is still looking for the toy robot in the field of flowers.]
Tomoya
Ushio! Did you find it? [She nods no]
SShino
Oh, is that your little girl?
Tomoya
Yeah, her name's Ushio. [Tomoya walks towards Ushio] Were you searching for it all this time? [She nods yes] I see. [Tomoya remembers a flashback with him and his father. He then walks over to Ushio and crouches down to her.] Ushio...I'm sorry to have to say this...But we may not be able to find it. We've done everything we can. All I can do now is buy you a new one. Okay? [She puts on a depressed face]
But that...But that was the only one...
Tomoya
No, there was a whole bunch of them at the store.
But that's the one you picked out. That was the robot you bought me. [Tomoya starts to understand what she is saying.] That was the first time...Daddy...[Tomoya finally realizes what she means]
Tomoya
Ushio? [She mumbles yes] You've been lonely, huh?
Tomoya
Did you have a fun trip, even though you were with a mean guy like me?
Tomoya
I see...Ushio...Can I...Is it okay if I stay with you?...I know...I know that I've been a bad Daddy for a long time...But from now on, I wanna work hard to take care of you Ushio. So, even if it's tough, is it okay if I stay with you?
Tomoya
You really mean it?
Tomoya
Thank you...
But...But I'm still sad that I lost something I can't give back...[Pause] Daddy? Um...I don't...I don't have to hold it in anymore right? Just like you said on the train? Right? 'Cause Sanae she...she told me the only times I can cry are when I'm in the bathroom...or when I'm in Daddy's arms... [Tomoya gives her a positive look. They both embrace each other. Ushio begins to cry.]
Tomoya
I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm so sorry...
[Tomoya and Ushio are riding a train back home. Ushio is sitting across from Tomoya.]
Tomoya
Hey, Ushio. [Ushio acknowledges him] I can tell you about Mommy if you'd like that. [She nods yes] Okay then. Then come sit over here. [She sits next to Tomoya] Now, where do I start? Back in high school, Mommy was having a tough time, so she cried a lot. That was back when we first met. She didn't believe in herself very much. I remember she was standing at the bottom of the hill of our high school. Do you know what she did when she was standing there that morning? She closed her eyes and she said "Anpan!" That was a funny habit Mommy had. When she was afraid, she would say what she wanted to eat out loud and it would make her brave again. Back then, Sanae was always busy with work and didn't have time to make lunch for Mommy. Of course, Mommy would have been happy if she had Sanae's food. And maybe Sanae could make time if she had to, but Mommy was too nice to ask her. That's what your Mommy was like. Really sweet. Let's see...What else? Uh, she uh...Uh, your Mommy...Mommy was...[He begins to cry, remembering memories of Nagisa] Nagisa...Nagisa...Nagisa... [Ushio tugs on his sleeve as she begins to cry.]
Tomoya
Silly! Why are you crying, too? [He wipes away her tears] Sorry, it's nothing bad. I was just thinking of Mommy. [He stops wiping] Okay, let's get back to the story. Back in high school, Mommy was really excited about putting on a play. Have you ever seen a play before? [Thinking] Nagisa, I've found it. I finally found it. Something only I can protect. A precious treasure only I can protect. It was right here. Right in front of me...all along...
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