Kurt quotes from Banshee

Kurt

Sir.

Where is she? [Kurt points to Deva's cell]

Kurt

[Gordon walks to Deva and Kurt hands him binder] I just need your signature on this report and you can take your daughter home.

She's not going home.

Kurt

What?

At least not tonight.

Kurt

Yes, sir.

I'm sorry, Deva. I don't know what else to do. [Walks away]

You want to tell me what the hell happened out there today?

Kurt

[Clears throat] A lot of those guys are angry that I'm back. They feel betrayed.

Yeah. Yeah, I got that. No, I meant the part where you grabbed a civilian and started strangling him in front of a diner full of witnesses.

Kurt

Sorry about that.

You're sorry? Fսck sorry, okay? I don't like those guys any more than you do, but if you're gonna wear that badge...

Kurt

I am guys like that! Every evil, twisted thought that he has had, I have had. Every fucked-up thing that he's done, I have done. I've done things that would make you sick. They make me sick.

You think you're the only one around here that's got dirt on him? I've done some... things. Fսck, Bunker, I... I don't know you, okay? But from what I've seen, you're not the man you used to be.

Kurt

[Opens shirt to reveal swastika tattoo] I will always be that man. Putting on this uniform does not wipe my slate clean. I'm doing everything I can to change. And every once in a while... I manage to convince myself that I'm a better person. But the minute that I come into contact with one of those fսcking guys and see the way that they look at me, all I feel is hate and anger and I can't shake it.

Okay, all right. Listen to me. Listen, listen. Hold it. Look at me. Okay, that isn't anger that you're feeling. That's the shame and the guilt. And trust me, we all feel that. All of us. And that is what makes you better than them. If you didn't feel that, that's when I'd start to worry, all right? You hear me? Okay. Now, look, can you promise me that what happened out there today is never gonna happen again?

Kurt

I don't know.

Good answer. 'Cause if you had said yes, I knew you were full of shit. [Chuckles] Go home, all right? Get some sleep.

Kurt

Thank you, sir.

Yep.

Kurt

[Opens cell door] Get out.

What's going on?

Kurt

DA dismissed the charges. You're free to go.

You're fսcking with us.

Kurt

You got 10 seconds before I close that door again.

[Walks out cell] I knew that arrest was bullshit.

[Sighs] What was it this time?

Kurt

Physical evidence.

They practically strangled that old man.

Kurt

I know. DA's a real piece of work.

He's a puppet. Proctor's got his hand up his ass. [Turns head to Stacy observing at desk] But that's a talk for another time. The walls have ears.

[Leaving station] Hey, thanks a lot, Officer. Have a nice evening. [Carrie watches the men walk from her vehicle]

There's always some part of me that's thinking about him. How he looked when he died. How he looked at me. There are days when that look haunts me so badly I can barely breathe.

[Spotting Carrie] Hey, hey, hey, hey. Look at this.

And then there are days when I can distract myself.

You lost, honey?

Where I can shut off all the noise.

Maybe we can help you find your way. [Suspect man chuckles]

Oh, I hope so. [Expands telescopic night baton]

And just do what I have to do. Those are the good days.

[Pokes up bearded suspect man's chin with baton after a ferocious beatdown] So you tough guys like beating up on people, huh?

It wasn't us. They let us go.

Well, they shouldn't have. [Repeatedly beats man's hand with baton with him screaming]

There's always that moment when I just wake up where I think I'm still there, still back there in our old house. And when I roll over, Gordon will be there lying next to me. And then I'll hear the kids stirring in their rooms.

So how do you handle it?

I exercise. I eat something. I start working on the house.

How's the house coming along?

There's something about working with my hands that gives me peace.

What else gives you peace?

Not much. Do you find our sessions helpful? I'm here because it's court-mandated. No offense.

None taken. If I vouch for your competency to parent your children today, would you come back?

If I said yes, would you do that?

That's not really how it works.

They had no right to take my kids away.

You violated the terms of your probation.

I was abducted. The military investigation cleared us.

Any association with the criminal element was enough for social services...

I know.

Let me see if I got this straight. Calvin got the jump on you, beat the shit out of you, then somewhere along the way, you remember you got a gun and you shoot him from 20 feet away. Is that it?

Kurt

Yeah.

Bullshit.

Kurt

Sir, ahem, I'm not sure what you're trying to imply, but...

I'm not implying anything. I'm saying it. You beat the shit out of Calvin and then you killed him for good measure. Hey, Bunker, relax. It's just you and me talking here, okay? Come on, sit down. [Sighs] I don't know what it is about this town, Bunker. What geographic phenomenon makes us a magnet for every scumbag and criminal East of the Mississippi. But what I do know is that to do this job, sometimes you've got to take off these badges and get bloody.