The Man in the High Castle Season 1 quotes

Amy, go to your room.

You're not my mother, you can't tell me to go to my room.

You don't want to hear this.

Helen Smith

[ushers Amy] Sweetheart. It's, it's time for bed. Come on, I'll tuck you in in a minute.

It was you. You and Daddy. You killed them.

Helen

Killed who?

The Negroes, the Jews, all those people. What happened to them?

Helen

Oh.

I need to hear it from you.

Helen

Okay, uh, they, they they sent them to camps.

And what did they do in the camps?

Helen

They forced them to work.

Then what? Where are they now?

Helen

They're gone. They killed them.

And you and Daddy were a part of it.

Helen

Yes. Yes, we were. It It was a different time. We felt like our world... It had just ended, it was a decision that we made for one day that led to 20 years.

You could have escaped to the Neutral Zone.

Helen

Yeah, we could have, yes. But we didn't.

So you joined the Party instead. Daddy was in the SS.

Helen

I did it because I well, I believed in it. Not at first, but later I-I - I believed in all of it.

The camps where they killed - the Jews and the Negroes?

Helen

All of it. All of it. They told us it was necessary. I didn't ask any questions. I didn't even think about those people until... oh... [gets emotional] Until we became those people.

You got all this.

Helen

We didn't do it for this. We did it to keep you alive.

You didn't keep Thomas alive, did you?

Helen

Oh, God, Jennifer, don't you think that I know that?

They took him away.

Helen

I am begging you, please, please, please.

They poisoned him!

Helen

Don't, don't do this.

He was my brother! I loved him too! Ye- I know how you must see us, but everything we have was bought with other people's lives.

Helen

You were our children. Our babies.

How many were there? In America? In Europe, in Africa, how many?

Helen

I-I don't - I don't know.

And they're gonna do it all over again, aren't they? And Daddy's gonna be in charge, isn't he?

Helen

I don't know.

I don't ever want to be like you.

Helen

You shouldn't have to be. [Jennifer storms out]

Takeshi Kido

[tries to talk to Toru but sees Yakuza man in earshot] Tell me, in the gokudo, do I outrank you?

Yes, saiko-komon.

Takeshi Kido

Then go away. [man leaves. to Toru] There are things that must be said.

Toru Kido

You don't have to-

I have failed you as a father. The first duty of a parent is to protect his child.

Toru

Stop.

Let me finish. I never showed my true affection for you. I have so many regrets. I can only say that you will always be my son.

Toru

Come home with me. The invasion will begin soon.

There is no going back. I have much to atone for, and I must start here.

Toru

[in Japanese] Goodbye, father. [boards ship. As the ship leaves, Toru salutes his father one last time]

Helen Smith

This, this portal you're talking about I-I mean, what?

John Smith

You've seen it yourself, Helen. You've seen the movies. Well, I've been there. He's alive.

Helen

I have had that fantasy so many times, but it's just that, John, it's a fantasy.

John

No.

Helen

He's not -

John

[sits down and clasps her hands] I've seen him. Helen, I've seen our beautiful boy. He's real. He's real as you and me. I want you to - I want you to have the same thing I had, Helen, I want you to see him yourself.

Helen

[emotional] Well, of course I want that, but -

John

He's not sick, he's healthy, he's strong. He's doing so well. He's - There is a war, and he has enlisted. He is so much like our Thomas.

Helen

Uh, but he's-he's not. He's not our Thomas.

John

I can see what's gonna happen. Helen, he's gonna die all over again unless we do something. We can save him.

Helen

How?

John

We can bring him home.

Helen

[surprised at the idea] You want to bring this boy here? As what, as a-a prisoner?

John

Now, I've struggled with that. I know it's not gonna be easy, but, uh, I don't think we have any choice. I can't lose him again. He's gonna hate us, but he's gonna be alive, and I can live with that.

Helen

Well, I can't, I can't. I can't live with that.

John

When you see him again, you're gonna change your mind.

Helen

No. [stands up]

John

Helen -

Helen

No, No! Thomas is dead. Amy isn't ours anymore. Her mind belongs to the state, and Jennifer, well, Jennifer has rejected us. We had three chances and we wasted them all.

John

That-that's where you're wrong, Helen.

Helen

If there is a better version of me out there somewhere, I want her to have my son, because you and I, we don't deserve to have a child.

John

You're saying you have a chance to see your son again and you're not gonna take it?

Helen

I wouldn't want him to see what we have become.

John Smith

[sees Juliana] There you are. We've seen things... you and me. Other worlds. Other lives. We, we have that in common. It's unbearable. To be able to look through that door and glimpse all the people you could have been. And to know that out of all of them, this is the one you became. [commits suicide]