Luke Crain quotes from The Haunting of Hill House

Luke Crain

[testifying to his AA group] Any addict alone is in bad company.

Luke Crain

[eulogizing] I was born 90 seconds before Nell, but she was always my big sister.

Steven Crain

So is this your first rehab, Joey?

Uh, it's far from it. Some of us are addicted to treatment centers, huh?

Steven Crain

It's not Luke's first rodeo either. So what's different this time? Something must be. I mean, you know the definition of insanity--

Luke Crain

Steve.

Steven Crain

Doing the same thing over and over--

--and expecting different results. Sure, man. Sure. They're all different, though. Every day is different, every craving is different, every meeting is different--

Steven Crain

Right, I'm not trying to suggest that you're not taking this seriously.

Oh, and I'm just--this time around--I'm just speaking for myself--I got more support. And I'm giving more support. So in a sense I guess you could say, it looks like the same thing over and over again, but that's not insanity. Out there on the streets, that's insanity.

Steven Crain

Of course.

So that's what recovery is, you know, it's the same thing over and over again in spite of the results--or in spite of a backslide or in spite of a full-fledged fucking relapse. Doesn't mean you stop just because it gets a little repetitive. One day at a time. When we decide to get clean it's not because we expect it to be fucking exciting, you know?

Luke Crain

She saved me!

Nell Crain

I feel a little clearer just now. We have.

Theodora Crain

Nell?

Nell Crain

All of us have. Wouldn't have changed anything. I need you to know that.

Steven Crain

Nell.

Nell Crain

The rest is confetti.

Steven Crain

Hey.

Nell Crain

So many times and we didn't know it. All of us.

Shirley Crain

Nelly?

Nell Crain

No, not a heart.

Steven Crain

Nell?

Nell Crain

A stomach. We have. All of us have.

Steven Crain

I don't think she can hear us.

Nell Crain

So many times and we didn't know it.

Steven Crain

All right, we need to get Luke out of here, we need to get him to a hospital - I don't get it.

Theodora Crain

All this time we tried to get into this room and now we can't get the fuck out.

Shirley Crain

I feel like I've been here before.

Nell Crain

We have. All of us have. So many times and we didn't know it. All of us. I feel a bit clearer now. Everything's been out of order. Time, I mean. I thought for so long that time was like a line, that... that our moments were laid out like dominoes, and that they... fell, one into another and on it went, just days tipping, one into the next, into the next, in a long line between the beginning... and the end. But I was wrong. It's not like that at all. Our moments fall around us like rain. Or... snow. Or confetti. You were right. We have been in this room. So many times and we didn't know. All of us. Mom says... that a house is like a body... and that every house... has eyes. And bones. And skin. And a face. This room is like the heart of the house. No, not a heart, a stomach. It was your dance studio, Theo. It was my toy room. It was a reading room for mom. A game room for Steve. A family room for Shirley. A treehouse. But it was always the Red Room. It put on different faces so that'd we'd be still and quiet. While it digested. I'm like a small creature swallowed whole by a monster. And the monster feels my tiny little movements inside.

Nell Crain

You have to live.

Luke Crain

I don't- I don't know how to do this without you.

Nell Crain

I learned a secret. There's no without. I am not gone. I'm scattered into so many pieces, sprinkled on your life like new snow. There's so much I want to say to you all.

Theodora Crain

I'm so sorry our last words were in anger.

Nell Crain

They weren't our last.

Shirley Crain

I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I didn't... answer the phone.

Nell Crain

But you did. So many times.

Steven Crain

I'm sorry if I didn't listen, and I'm sorry...

Nell Crain

It wouldn't have changed anything. I need you to know that. Forgiveness is warm. Like a tear on a cheek. Think of that and of me when you stand in the rain. I loved you completely. And you loved me the same. That's all. The rest is confetti.