I'm not sure what to make of this drastic change of course in my life. I'm certainly not against it. Over the past two decades, I have developed a strict routine, which I followed religiously, you might say, a way of living and-and thinking, or not thinking, as was often the point of, well, the point. Now, this way of being didn't encourage the contemplation that a day like today could ever occur, or a tomorrow like tomorrow w-will be for me now. I had convinced myself, that kind of optimism served no useful purpose in the world where I existed. Obviously, this radical belief system was flawed, and was, ironically, a kind of fantasy itself. At the least, I feel that those specific coping skills were best suited to the life there behind me. I doubt they will serve me so well for the life in front of me. So, I will seriously need to reconsider my world view.
Characters
Daniel HoldenAden Young · 45 quotes
Amantha HoldenAbigail Spencer · 14 quotes
Tawney TalbotAdelaide Clemens · 12 quotes
Janet TalbotJ. Smith-Cameron · 9 quotes
Jon SternLuke Kirby · 6 quotes
Kerwin WhitmanJohnny Ray Gill · 5 quotes
Trey WillisSean Bridgers · 4 quotes
LezlieLeon Rippy · 3 quotes
Most scenes together: Daniel Holden & Tawney Talbot (10), Daniel Holden & Amantha Holden (6), Daniel Holden & Kerwin Whitman (5)
S1 E1Always There
Thank you, Amantha, for everything.
You're quite welcome, brother. Anytime.
We're lost, aren't we?
Totally.
I can't do time the way you do it.
I don't do time.
That's what I'm talking about. I can't do time by not doing time the way you do time.
You know what's whack?
Lots of things.
Sittin' in this tomb, day after day, puttin' up with this food, puttin' up wit' your pale, white ass. What's whack is I still wanna live, every day. What's that about?
[laughs] Vitamin A deficiency. You trip me out, D.
You trip me out, Kerwin.
I can't quite get a handle on the concept of time yet. There have been moments here today where I feel like I've only been gone a few weeks, and I'm still in high school. But mostly it seems like I was always there. So you may have to tell me, Mother.
Tell you?
When it's time for me to leave.
S1 E2Sexual Peeling
The place where I was had no windows, just these thick walls surrounded by more thick walls. So I never knew if it was raining or even heard the loudest thunder.
That's so sad.
It's not as bad as it sounds because I didn't sense things in a normal way, I didn't miss them. If I couldn't sense them, they weren't real to me.
What was real to you, Daniel?
The time in between the seconds. And my books. And my friend.
Now that I'm here in this world where everything's marked by hours or dates or events, I find myself in a state of constant anticipation. What it is I'm anticipating, I'm not always sure, nor is it necessarily a pleasant feeling. But in the case of the inevitable rain and thunder which I am sure to experience, thanks to you Tawney, I am very much looking forward to that.
It will be glorious, Daniel. You won't be disappointed.
Word gets back before you do. Decent guys on the row won't look at you now, they're too embarrassed for you. Then there are the ones who when you pass by their cells they look at you with the basest form of curiosity, Ted, like you are some freak show and they want to get all their money's worth because more than anything, they're aroused by another's shame. You know? And there is a very special group on the row, who look at you with this look like... how can I describe it for you Ted so you can really understand it. It's like they pull you into their cell and not just do things to you, but literally consume you. Take your breath. Eat your heart. And shit you out like you were nothing. [pause] I'm sorry. I'm sure that was more than you were... But it is difficult to gauge things in this world. Like you, I suppose, hard to know where the lines are.
I'm just so aware that most of what I draw on from inside my head are things I've read about. My real life experiences are actually rather narrow. I don't think about the seasons, not for the longest time, anyway.
I'm sorry.
I don't mean to sound pitiful.
Oh no, you don't, not really.
I don't feel that way, sorry for myself. I do feel I am being received sometimes that way, by others. And I know I have a part in that somehow, I just don't have it figured out yet.
That will probably take some time, figuring things out.
Maybe it was when they first saw something akin to optimism on your face, or a bit of peace, or just that moment when you begin to believe that you could survive it in some paradoxical way. I don't know why they did it. Justification is a slippery slope, Ted.
S1 E3Modern Times
Just don't let all this technology lull you, son.
How's that?
Into thinkin' we're in modern times... watch yourself.
How are the biscuits today?
Good. Biscuits are good.
That woman sure knows how to make the dough rise, don't she?
Humans don't change that much in fifty years. Or a hundred. Or a thousand. It's the laws that change, the rules of civilization. We just repeat ourselves, everyone with a part to play.
[into TV camera] Why ain't you dead, Daniel Holden? Why ain't you dead?
S1 E4Plato's Cave
That it wasn't worth pondering.
But of course it is! That's what makes us human.
I think what makes us human is the ability to choose to ponder or not to ponder.
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