Griffin Holbrook quotes from Party of Five

Griffin

Does that answer your question, Major?

Griffin

Absence definitely makes the heart grow weirder.

Griffin

[to Julia] God, what was this whole year -- was this an experiment for you? 'Cause that's what it feels like. Like you've just been slumming around for a whole year. Got a couple of jobs, a marriage. And if that doesn't work out, you can always go back to school, 'cause that's what everyone thought you were gonna do anyway.... I'm not lucky like you, Julia. This is it for me.

Griffin

[to Julia] I'm such a sap... You say you wanna be with me and I start doing cartwheels down the beach.

Griffin

[to Julia] This is real life. Having to make hard decisions, and compromising what each other wants, and trying not hurt each other. That's what our whole life together's been about. It doesn't mean that we don't love each other, it just means that maybe we shouldn't live with each other. It's this weekend, I saw that you were so happy. I was thinking, what is it that I can give you that would make you that happy in real life. And the one thing I could think of was to let you go off and be on your own. I could give you that.

Griffin

[to Julia] Don't get too smart. I barely know what you're saying already.

Griffin

You're right. I don't have a life. I HAD a life. With you. But I gave that up so you could have what you wanted. So how do you think that makes me feel, Jule, to find out that you wanted this... to know that you'd rather be with some guy that hits you than be with me?

Griffin

Y'know, ever since I first met her, I always thought, 'Man, I hope I don't mess this up.' 'Cause that's what I do. I mess stuff up. But you what I never thought? I never thought that I hope this doesn't mess ME up.

Griffin

I'm sorry. I just thought maybe if you came to do something fun, it'd make you forget about the other stuff.

Julia

Griffin, it's not your fault. It's like, what am I doing having fun. You know?

Griffin

Why shouldn't you?

Julia

I don't know. Whenever I made a mistake before I could always fix it. But this...there's no way to undo it. It's just there. Always. I get a knot in my stomach when I think about it.

Griffin

Yeah, I know that feeling. I used to get drunk when I'd get that.

Julia

I just want to feel like I'm still an okay person. Everyone tells me that I am, but it doesn't mean anything. I just look at them and think, what the hell do you know?

Julia

You go to church?

Griffin

Well, I kind of have to. Part of the military school plan.

Julia

My dad used to take us to church...

Griffin

Yeah. My parents too. Every Sunday, my mom and I would have a huge fight over wearing a tie. When I came here, it was like one more thing I have to do, you know? Punishment, great. I don't know. One day, I started to see things differently. I actually started to listen to what the guy was saying. A lot of the stuff I could care less about. But the main stuff, the overall feelings...it's cool. This is the only place where all the bad stuff that I've done...all of the mistakes that I've made, don't matter. [pause] They matter. They just don't change what I'm worth. As a person. Here I'm...loved. No matter what. My parents would never say that to me. Even if they thought it they wouldn't say it. I guess yours can't either, huh?

Julia

Maybe I'll stay. It's nice here.

Griffin

No it's not. The music sucks and the people talk funny.

Julia

Well, it's nice being with you. What do you have at that place, a bunk? Maybe you could hide me in your bunk.

Griffin

You probably shouldn't joke about that.

Julia

Yeah, probably not.

Griffin

Because, uh, I mean, you've got a life back there. You've got...well, a lot of things back there.

Julia

Yeah. But I feel so far away from them now. I don't know if I can, you know, feel like this back there.

Griffin

I just think you've got to hang in there and do the time. I mean, that's the one thing you know is going to change. For every sucky day you live, you don't have to live it again. It's done...you did it. Move on. Maybe the next one won't suck.

Julia

And if it does?

Griffin

Same philosophy. Just...do the time.

Sarah

Wait a minute. Excuse me. But how is a road trip to Mexico a rite of passage? Are you getting this, Julia?

Julia

You know what? I say just be supportive and wave adios so the two of them will shut up already and hit the highway. Send me a postcard.

Will

Glad to.

Bailey

No, no. This is not about postcards. Will, this is not about documenting an experience. It's about having one. It's about driving too fast and partying too late and-- And sleeping too long and living too hard.

Will

Damn, he's good.

Julia

No, no, no, no, no. He's just seen way too many beer commercials.

Bailey

Because there comes a time in every man's life, when he has to sit on a beach and take stock of where he's been and where he's going. There comes a time when he just has to take a deep breath and swallow the worm.

Sarah

Swallow the worm? Is that a metaphor?

Will

A tequila reference, actually.

Sarah

Oh.

Bailey

Hey, Jule.

Julia

Griffin? Uh, hey, I-I don't understand. When--?

Griffin

A few days ago.

Julia

Ah.

Griffin

Uh, how you been? You look...

Julia

I-I didn't hear from you. You-- Didn't you get my letters at school?

Griffin

Your letters?

Julia

Mm-hmm.

Griffin

Um, no, no, I-- See, no, no, as soon as I'd done my time and my term was over, I was-- I was outta the place. My roommate's old man's got, uh, this shipping operation down in Florida. He got me this merchant marine gig. My boat's-- I just got back from Bangkok. They got weird food in Bangkok.

Julia

Um, you didn't call or anything.

Griffin

N-no. Um, I thought about it. I decided it would be a bad idea, you know, c-considering how things are with you and Justin.

Julia

We broke up. Uh, Justin and me, l-last s-spring, I-I wrote you. I wro-- I wrote you all about it.

Griffin

Wow. You broke up?

Julia

Yeah.

Griffin

I didn't know.

Julia

I can't believe it's you.

Griffin

Hey. Oh, you're home early. Cool.

Julia

[mad] Cool?

Griffin

Okay. It's not cool. You're mad?

Julia

What were you thinking? I mean, what could possibly have been going on in your brain to think that it was okay to talk to my boss like that?

Griffin

What was I supposed to do, sit there and watch him rag on you?

Julia

Yes. Yeah.

Griffin

Well, no-- Nobody treats you like that. I don't care who he is.

Julia

Griffin, I got fired. Okay?

Griffin

'Cause of that Xeroxing thing?

Julia

No. No, because of you.

Griffin

What? So you got fired from some lousy job you hated anyway. Big deal. You don't need to be working for that jerk.

Julia

I needed a recommendation from that jerk. I needed this job for college, and y-you ruined that for me. I am so tired of this stuff. I'm sorry, Griffin, but I am. I used to think it was cool, you know, the way that you would show up whenever you wanted and be aloof and create all these dramas. I used to think that that made you this really romantic guy.

Griffin

What do you mean used to?

Julia

I love you, Griffin, but stuff has happened to me, and I am different now. And there are things that I want. Only you... You're just... [sighs] You're just still hanging around. I mean, isn't there anything that you want?

Griffin

I want you.

Julia

No. I mean, out of life.

Griffin

Yeah. You.

Julia

That's not enough.

Griffin

A cake I like... a cake I like is an ice-cream cake.

Julia

A cake that melts. Are you insane?

Justin

I always hated you.

Griffin

Huh? Oh, yeah. What a coincidence. I always hated you, too.

Justin

I mean, let's be honest. You got this whole "bad boy" thing going on "this is me, and I don't give a damn" thing that women always go for Makes me wanna puke.

Griffin

Well, what about you, huh? You with your "smartest and thinks he's smartest" routine. Major pain in the butt, Mr. Harvard freakin' law.

Justin

It's Yale! All right? And I'm an English major.

Griffin

Ooh, yeah, Mr. Yale freakin' English.

Justin

You know what really baffles my ass? I'm the one who's killing myself. And you, you already got everything you want. You got your stupid little motorcycle shop, you're married to this perfect woman, and it's just Man, go figure.

Griffin

Yeah, well, it's not all it's cracked up to be, all right? I've got overhead, I've got long hours, and I'm living in a shed. You know, Harvard's a piece of cake compared to the real world, pal.

Justin

Yale!

Griffin

Yale schmale, man! Don't come crying on my shoulder. You're the one that's got it easy.

Justin

Oh, oh, you think you got it rough? Whoo-hoo. I was valedictorian at Grant. You know that? And then I go to Yale and, hello! All of a sudden I'm failing English lit. English lit! It's like all of a sudden I'm stupid or something. Oh, and the people there. Oh, my God. My roommate He's this Thurston Howell turd wannabe. First day he starts off by unpacking his collection of Brandy snifters. And he's telling me all about his Polo scores, and I'm like, "whatever!" It sucks. Ok? It blows! Ok? Ok?!

Griffin

Uh, ok, yeah. No, man, whatever. You yeah, you win.

Justin

Is there any more of this stuff?

Griffin

Oh, yeah. Hey, the next one's on me, bro.