BaileyEvery clown was booked.
[Charlie laughs]
Bailey; This whole thing's been a major hassle, and I don't need to hear about it from either of you.
Bailey
Give me this.
SSam
So, you feeling better?
SSam
Oh, man, you didn't see? I was a saint to those people. I brought 'em drinks, chatted with 'em. I'll try and swing by after work, okay?
AAll
Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday dear Owen. Happy birthday to you.
Bailey
Well, that pretty much sucked.
Bailey
Whoa!
Bailey
Who the hell put that there?
Drunk. Really drunk. Okay, so it's a little messed up, but it's a lot more fun that way, right?
Bailey
Hey, what did you expect?! I've never done this before. You expect a first-time clown not to make any mistakes? Huh?!
Bailey
Oh, God, don't cry. He's crying!
Bay, come on, let's get outta here.
Bailey
I'm talking to my friend, here. I'm teaching him how to be a man.
Bailey
I said, I'm talking!
Oh, my God. Charlie, are you okay?
Bailey
It was-- He pushed-- It was an accident. The hell with all of you.
WWoman
I think it's time to go.
MMan
I think that's a good idea.
Bailey
Sarah. So, you too, huh?
Bailey
What is this...is this like your way of getting back at me for Callie? Is that what this is?
You really think this is about revenge?
Bailey
It sure as hell feels like it to me.
I'm not trying to get back at you, Bailey. I'm here because...because I've seen how you drink. How much you drink and what it does to you.
Bailey
Uh huh. So you think I'm an alcoholic.
I think you have a problem, Bailey.
Bailey
[raising his voice] You think that I'm an alcoholic. Why don't you just say it? That's what you came here to say, isn't it?
I think you're an alcoholic.
Bailey
Well...well I think you're full of crap. I think you're all full of crap. And if you think I'm gonna hang around here and listen to you all tell me what a lush you think I am, as delightful as that sounds...it's been real.
If we're all wrong then why are you running away? See, you leave now, and all that does is say to us, Bailey's got a problem and he's too afraid to deal with it. So, so okay. So I'm wrong. So we're all full of crap. So set us straight, Bailey. Explain it. You know, make us see it from your side. [pause] Stay.
He was an alcoholic, Bailey.
Bailey
Right. Sure. Sure he was.
Your father was an alcoholic.
Bailey
Bull.
Bailey
That's a load of...
Eighteen years he was sober before he died, but for years, before that, years.
Bailey
No, you're just... No! No, I.. I don't believe you.
On my life, Bailey. It's the truth.
Bailey
I thought... I thought you couldn't get any lower than what they did. Lying about Owen saying he was hurt just to get me to come over here. But you... You son of a bitch!
Bailey
What do you think? What? You think he's dead, you can say what you want to say about him?!
He'd want you to know! He'd want me to tell you!
Bailey
My father was not an alcoholic!
Bailey
Get outta here, Joe. Get the hell outta here! [To Charlie] Have you heard this load of crap?! Have you? Oh, hey. This was probably your genius idea. Right? Let's get Joe to say Dad was a drunk. And then maybe...
Bailey
You see? See?
He didn't... I would've known.
You were just a kid when he quit, Charlie. Probably too young to recognize the signs.
Don't you remember him coming home late from the restaurant every night?
That doesn't mean... Look, he had a business to run.
He liked hanging out with the guys late. Shooting the bull.
Honey, I was the one who had to drive him home night after night cause he couldn't drive himself.
Don't you remember the fight he had with your mom?
It was bad. For a long time. If he hadn't gotten the help when he did...
But I never saw him take a drink in my life. Not once, not even a beer or a glass of wine.
That's right. And what do you think? Not a drop, not an ounce, nothing. He owned a restaurant, and hell, he owned a bar. Why never a sip? Cause he knew he couldn't. Ever. That's what it is to be an alcoholic. He knew that...
[Claudia goes back inside the house, Charlie tries to go after her]
Bailey
I um, I was thinking about us...about you and me.
Bailey
It's funny. Because this is, like, what we used to talk about. Remember? And, and I finally have an answer to that question that you asked me.
Bailey
When you were looking for your mom. And you'd say to me, I wonder what I got from her. My voice, or my dark hair. Remember? And you asked me what I got from my parents.
Bailey
It's like, Claudia plays the violin, and Julia looks like her, and Charlie looks like him. And this is what I got. This is what my father gave me.
Bailey
I don't need to be taken care of. And I don't need any AA contact. I mean it's okay, Charlie. I kind of feel better, actually.
Bailey
Yeah, I do. Anyway. I guess you guys were right about me. Turns out you were right. Of course you were. I mean, I'm my father's son, right? Which is...which explains a lot of things. I mean, I can finally stop looking at myself and thinking, what is going on here? What am I turning into? Who am I turning into? Because it's him. I'm turning into him. And it's not my fault. It's not my fault. It's his fault. So...so I'm gonna stop beating myself up and I'm gonna stop letting all of you guys beat up on me. Because this is just who I am, and this is what I do. I drink. Anyone seen my coat?
Bailey
Yeah, Claud, that's it.
[upset] No. No no no no no no no. I can't take this, Bailey. I mean, you can't do this anymore.
Bailey
Claudia...
[crying hysterically] No, Bailey. I mean it. That's it...that's it! I mean if you don't...if you don't get help, I don't want to see you. You can't talk to me...and you can't talk to Owen...and you can't come over to the house...and I'm not going to come and see you...and I'm not going to call you...and I'm not even going to think about you.
No! I love you, Bailey. More than anyone. I love you the best. You know that. This is the only thing I have that I can take away from you...to make you stop. So either you get help right now...or get out of here.
[long pause; Bailey finds his coat and leaves]
Where the hell have you been? Where the hell have you been?!
Bailey
Where the hell have I been? I took Owen out for a ride... what the hell is so the hell about it?
You took him from daycare without telling anybody, then you kept him all day without calling?
Bailey
I spent the afternoon with my little brother. What's the big deal? I do it all the time.
No you don't. For the last couple months you've been totally AWOL.
Bailey
Well, then I'm making up for lost time. What's wrong with that?
Because we had no way of knowing... How are we supposed to...
Bailey
If I was drunk? Is that what this is about? You thought I'd be wasted? Right? You thought I would drive around wasted and get Owen killed?
Bailey
Oh, that's really sweet, just when I thought my family couldn't love me any less...
Have you had anything to drink?
Bailey
No, I haven't.
Let me smell your breath.
Bailey
Get away from me.
You have! You've been drinking!
Bailey
I had a beer, Charlie. One beer.
You drank and you drove with your little brother in the car!
Bailey
I'm completely sober! Ok, you wanna give me a test?!
I don't believe you! Somebody ought to...
Bailey
Well, come on! Go on! [Charlie grabs Bailey by the shirt, and the others run to stop him]
No, Charlie! Charlie! Charlie! Stop it!
Stop it! [to Bailey] Bailey.
Just stay away from Owen, you hear me? You can wreck your own life, but you're not gonna hurt him.
Bailey
He's my brother!
Bailey
I can't believe, that you people--
Bailey! We gotta go after him. Right? I mean, obviously this isn't working, he isn't gonna learn anything like this. He's been drinking and now he's gonna drive and we've gotta do something! Right? Right?
So, do you have a plan? I mean, is there, like, some sort of treatment or something?
Bailey
Yeah. AA. I'm gonna go to my first meeting tonight.
Bailey
I guess I better practice. "Hello, my name is Bailey Salinger, and I am an alcoholic."
Bailey, um, it's Alcoholics Anonymous. You're not supposed to give your last name.
Bailey
Oh. Well, then, it's a good thing I practiced.
You have to go to AA, Bailey. You have to.
Bailey
And say that I believe in stuff that I don't? Lie? No, I don't want to do that. I'm sick of lying, Sarah, so no.
No! No, Listen to me, okay? I'm here, and I'm here with you because you promised me you were going to get help.
Bailey
I tried!
So try again, okay? This isn't optional! Look, you don't have a choice here. You have a disease, and you need to do whatever it takes to get well, okay? So skip the God part, do the rest!
Bailey
No, it doesn't work that way, dammit! Don't you think that I wanted AA to be it? I know there's something wrong with me, and if I could believe that there was really someone who would protect me and help me not want to drink 24 hours every stupid day, don't you think... Sarah, don't you think that I would want that?
Bailey
I know you said you didn't want me to be here, but wow, Claud. You were incredible! The couple next to me, they were clapping so hard for you, if you didn't do an encore, I think they would have ended up in the hospital! So, you want to do something? You want to get some dessert and celebrate? Or we could check out--
Bailey
Cut what out?
Being all nice and concerned and "What do you want, Claud?" You're only doing it because you screwed up.
Bailey
Claudia. Look, Claudia, what do you want me to say? I'm sorry.
You're always sorry, and I'm just getting sick of it, okay?
Bailey
Well--
Because all I do is worry about you, Bailey, and...what happened to you worrying about me?
Bailey
Of course I worry about you, Claud.
Do you? Do you know what a big deal tonight was? Do you really know how scary it is to stand up in front of a thousand people who have heard it a zillion times, only, only played by Itzhak Perlman or Isaac Stern? It's...it's hard to breathe, and your fingers, they...they feel all thick, and you...you, you feel...you feel...
Bailey
What?
[crying] Alone. I felt alone. I can't count on you anymore, Bailey, and I can't go to you to make me feel better, because you're...all of a sudden, I'm the one taking care of you, cleaning up after you, watching out for you, and it's not fair!
Bailey
Why not? Why isn't that fair? Because I'm older than you? Because you need to be taken care of, and I don't? Will you stop? [Claudia stops walking] Listen, Claudia, I wish more than anything that you didn't have to watch me fight this the way I am, but you do. Look, I am sorry, but that is just the way it is.
Bailey
Hey, you know what? You know what? You're not a baby anymore, and you're not gonna be a kid for that much longer, either, so maybe...maybe you could come through for me.
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