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So why are you here? You the new substitute?
Why am I here? Yeah, good question. I'm the new substitute, yes. I'm here quite simply to get paid. Assuming all of you can read and write, I don't perceive any emergency situation. That's all. Continue wasting your lives. [he pulls a folded newspaper out of his knapsack]
So, um...are we like, dismissed?
Do you want to be dismissed?
No, you just said that...you just said that was all you had to say, so...
I will be here for the next forty-seven minutes. Whether you will also be here for that time is, to be candid, your decision.
No catch. If you don't want to be here, go. I'm not gonna stop you. [Jordan immediately climbs out of his desk and heads for the door] Well, you know, there is just, you know, one catch. We will be discussing you in your absence, but you know, if you don't mind that...
Oh, it's no joke. I have no lesson planned. Trashing you in your absence will help, uh, pass the time. Right? It could, uh, possibly be educational as well.
AngelaSo what are we supposed to do?
[Jordan returns to his seat]
Ah, I've known you all of five minutes and you want me to tell you what you're supposed to do? Fine. Follow your hearts and veer away from heroin.
Angela
[laughs] No, I meant in the next forty-seven minutes.
I know what you meant, that was sarcasm.
Angela
I heard you left your family -- abandoned them.
Angela
So are you saying you didn't? I mean, what's the truth?
Well, there are a couple of truths. One truth is I left my family. The other truth is my wife is far better off without me. Yes. I got out. I escaped. I broke out of a prison of my own making, and many, many people want to punish me for that -- maybe even you.
Angela
I'm trying to --
'To' what? To understand? Look, my struggle for freedom is mine. Get your own. Get out before it's too late, Amanda.
Angela
'Get out'? Get out of what?
That mind-control factory -- that warehouse they store you in because they don't know what else to do with you.
Angela
You're telling me to drop out of high school?
Good question. Yes. Run for your life. Save your life. Let the walls of your gingerbread house come crashing down. Or not.
Angela
It's Angela. And I have to say I don't think leaving high school is the answer. I don't think leaving anything is. The thing is...is I kind of admired you.
Angela
I can go out on dates, right?
Yes, but we do have certain ground rules.
Angela
Like what?
Well, you have a curfew, and we have to know where you're going and with whom, and you can't do any drinking, and you can't get in a car with a boy who's done any drinking, and your father and I have to meet him first, whoever he is. That's it.
Angela
You have to meet him first?
...
Angela
That is so humiliating. This person means something to me.
Is there a person who means something?
Angela
Yes, and I don't see why you can't just trust that. Why should I have to parade him around in front of you?
We just want to drag you down to our level.
My father almost died. And you were the only person who didn't even seem to care, people I barely knew, were coming up to me all like, concerned, and you, you acted like you barely even knew me.
Angela
[Beginning to cry] I know, I know I acted like that. I just didn't know what else to do.. I knew I was the last person on earth you wanted to deal with..
[Beginning to cry] You were, the only, person, I wanted to deal with..
Angela
[Crying] I wanted to talk to you too, it just seemed like, you wanted help from everyone but me!
Angela
I was too. [They hug]
[Crying] I know, I know we have different friends now, but sometimes I miss you so much!
Angela
Me too..
Angela
[Smiling, and offering hand like when they were young] Squeeze my hand as hard as it hurts..
Rayanne reminds me a lot of a roommate I had in college.
Angela
Well, did you like her??
Yeah. But, one night something happened.
Angela
What happened?
Oh, the same thing that happened with Rayanne tonight. Except she died.
Angela
I'm sorry, Mom.
No. Honey, you did the right thing, calling me.
Angela
Brian, this was all my fault..
'[voiceover] Her hair smelled incredible.
Angela
...I mean, I ruined your night. And Delia's night. I should have just stayed out of it.
[voiceover] Like this orange grove we passed when I was eight on our way to see my grandmother.
Angela
And I can't really explain why I even got involved. But I'm sorry.
[voiceover] But I guess that's just like her shampoo, or whatever.
Angela
What'd you tell Rickie?
I told him not to come over here.
Angela
But, hes my friend!!
Yeah. I know, He's mine, too, but, just in case we wanted like privacy-
Angela
Why would we want privacy?!
Angela
What do you think is going on here, Krakow?!
Angela
What did you tell Delia?! I explained to you why I wanted a ride to the dance! And it wasn't to come with you! You don't understand people, Krakow! You're so heartless!
Angela
There's this thing tonight at this coffeehouse, Vertigo, and I-I promised Rayanne I would ask if I could go, but I-I don't even really want to go, and I feel so guilty. See she's, she's singing, um, with this, this band that-- all right, fine, it's Jordan Catalano's band, but this has nothing to do with Jordan, or the fact that we broke up or, or anything, that's what's so weird, it's something between Rayanne and me...I-I can't even describe, but it's there, and it's been there for, like, a while, since that night w when you had to drive her to the hospital. It's this thing that we never talk about. [She picks up a pile of clean laundry] So these are mine? Thanks, I was kinda low on clean socks. [She hugs Patty] Thanks for listening. [leaves]
[Patty stands, stunned]
It's okay. She'll ignore you for another month just to make up for it.
Angela
[coming out on the fire escape] Hi. I've never been out here before. So Rickie was really scared. I mean, I was, too. [silence from Rayanne] So, what, you're mad at me? Because I didn't get to hear you sing?
You didn't miss much, just me making a fool out of myself, and you've seen that plenty. Right? Anyway, I knew you wouldn't show. I can't stand these looks anymore.
Angela
What looks?
You and Rickie looking at me like I'm gonna lose control, like any minute I'm gonna go on some jag or something. I just can't stand knowing what you're thinking about me.
Angela
What? What am I thinking?
I'm messed up. That I'm too messed up for you to be my friend anymore.
Angela
Rayanne, that's not true. I never-- I'm still your friend. Nothing's changed. [voiceover] But that wasn't completely true either. And we both, like, knew it.
Angela
[voiceover] The thing about resolutions is, it's hard to remember them around somebody like Jordan Catalano.
Angela
What?
You, doing my homework, it's wrong.
Angela
Well I was just trying to help.
It's like I'm taking advantage of you or something.
Angela
You're not taking advantage of me.
Yeah I am. It would be different if we were like...but now you're just...you know, a friend or whatever. [pause] I can't do this anymore.
Angela
[voiceover] I couldn't believe it, for the first time in my life I actually stuck to a resolution.
Angela
[walks in] Hi! What's so funny?
You sort of had to be there..[more laughing] I have to sharpen my, my pencil..[gets up, laughs]
Angela
Look, if this weird for you, being tutored? I don't mind helping you a little longer.
Angela
Oh, so, huh. Good!
You could, have sex with me though..[Angela laughs] if you really want to help. [Angela gets up, laughing] I guess that's a, no.
Angela
[Laughing] I'll let you get back to your work...
My So-Called Life · 100 quotes
