I... I spent the 3- Have you seen that girl? Her life is miserable. She's desperate. She, she'll never have a date. She'll never wear high heels. She'll never feel normal. I, I spent 300 grand because it's a good thing.
If you'd had the baby, we'd be together in New York right now; it wouldn't be raining and even if it was, we wouldn't care because we'd be together. We'd be together. And I'd have a family instead of walking pneumonia and an ex-best friend who hates me.
Addison You didn't want to raise a child, Mark. You wanted to trump Derek, you wanted to to win.
Addison No, I did want a baby, Mark. That last woman you slept with before I left New York, Charlene, the peds nurse, did you think that she was the only one I knew about? You're rewriting history Mark. We wouldn't still be together. We weren't a great couple and you would have made a terrible father, Mark. I did want a baby, I did. I just... I just didn't want one with you.
There's a club. The Dead Dads Club. And you can't be in it until you're in it. You can try and understand. You can sympathize, but until you feel that loss. My dad died when I was 9. George, I'm really sorry you had to join the club.
[voiceover] No one believes their life will turn out just kind of okay. We all think we're going to be great. And from the day we decide to be surgeons, we are filled with expectation. Expectations of the trails we will blaze, the people we will help, the difference we will make. Great expectations of who we will be, where we will go. And then we get there.
Okay, you know what? I'm fine. I mean I'm just not going to be the first one talking. I mean, he has to talk because I'm in the right. Talking first is for losers, I'm winning.
Dr. Bailey. You need those clowns to sign off on your proposal because one of them may be Chief of Surgery in a month. It's hard to imagine, for me more than anyone, but since you're not ready for the job, one of them's gonna have to do it for the next few years.
It's you in the chair eventually. That's who you are. But you're gonna have to get a new chair because you're short. You have short legs. But someday you are going to be Chief of Surgery. I wasn't sending you on a wild goose chase. I was trying to get you in a habit of doing things without me.
Because I need something more. I know you all have your messy love lives and your secrets and your silliness, but I want more. I need something to hold on to. I need a reason to believe that medicine can do more than stitch you up and, and send you away. I need to believe that medicine can not only save lives, but, but change lives! I need... I need... I need to believe in something the way I used to believe in you all. Sign the papers! Besides if you really want to be considered a candidate for Chief of Surgery, pioneering a pilot program, like a free clinic, will look very good on your resume. Sign the papers!
[voiceover] We all think we're going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren't met. But sometimes our expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You got to wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the expected is just what keeps us steady. Standing. Still. The expected's just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives.
[voiceover] As surgeons, we live in a world of worst case scenarios. We cut ourselves off from hoping for the best because too many times the best doesn't happen. But every now and then something extraordinary occurs and suddenly best case scenarios seem possible. And every now and then something amazing happens, and against our better judgement we start to have hope.
You think I like making these decisions for you? You think it's fun to get calls from the nursing home asking if it's okay to change your medication, asking whether I was planning on giving the nurse, who changes you every morning a Christmas tip? But I do it. I do it because there is nobody else. Because you have managed to alienate everybody else in your life and I am the only one, so I have to step up and do it. [voice wavering] You wanna know why I'm so unfocused? So ordinary? You wanna know what happened to me? You. You happened to me.
