Banfield in “Heal Thyself”

Banfield

I used to think every day that, if God told me I could die and go to heaven and be with Daryl, I would do it. [pause] I wondered if that made me an awful person that I'd give up my life with you, give up everything we could still have in the future. [long pause] I never really got away from the feeling like I need to be with him, dreaming of him. Never got away from the idea, that somehow I'd be able to hold him again. [she pictures him, outside on a beautiful, sunny day, running towards her, into her arms, and they are both smiling, laughing, joyful] I've, I've been so afraid for so long. I don't want to be... afraid... anymore. [she breaks down and cries softly, Russell gently comforting her]