BarryYou wanna know what I'm good at? I'm good at killing people. You know, when I got back from Afghanistan I, ah, was really depressed. You know, like I didn't leave my house for months, and, ah, this friend of my dad's, he's, uh he's like an uncle to me. He, uh, he helped me out and he gave me a purpose. He told me that, that what I was good at over there could be useful here and, uh, it's a job, you know? Alright, the money's good, and, uh, these people I take out, like they're they're bad people, you know, like they're pieces of shit. Um... But lately, you know, I've like, I'm not sleeping and, ah, that depressed feeling's back, you know. Like, like I know there's more to me than that. Maybe, I don't know, maybe there's not. Maybe this is all I'm good at.
Barry, I gave you this monologue for a reason. To see if you were capable of playing a character with the mildest set of balls. You know, I'm starting to see a trend in your work, and it's disturbing, and it's this: You are deferential to every character in a scene except for yours! It's the way you read every scene. And if you're gonna be an actor, it's a big problem.
Barry
Okay, listen. I guess what I just thought is that my guy was trying to help these other dudes achieve a goal, right? And if it was me, I would want them-
You know what? That is so lovely. If it was you. Is that the way you see your life? As a human doormat?
Barry
No.
"No"? 'Cause that's all we've ever seen in here. And I'll bet you tits to donuts it's no different out there in the real world. You were in the service, right? Right? [Barry nods] Yeah, well, that makes sense, doesn't it? "Stand like this. Clean your gun. Swab the deck. Peel a potato." Barry, do you ever ask for what you need? Or do you just quietly feel shame at your own desires while sadly doing the bidding of others? "Dear Diary, today, I did what everybody else wanted me to do. Is that alright with you, Diary? Love, Barry." Is that the life you wanna lead? Look at me. Answer me.
Barry
No.
"No". You're just saying that because I told you to say it!
Barry
Well, I don't know what you want me to say.
I want you to fight for yourself, Barry. I want you to say it out loud. I want you to say out loud, "Hey, I want this!" Can you tell me one thing?
Barry
All I want is to take this class.
Well, you have ten seconds to make me believe that, fucko, or you're never gonna see the inside of this class again! And... Action!
Oh, my God! Are we really debating the morality of murder? I mean, that's what the play is about! Macbeth is a murderer!
Barry
Yeah, well, then I guess, so am I! Right? I mean, I've killed people. What, I should just go blow my brains out 'cause there's no hope for me, right? My soul's fucked because I was ordered to kill someone and I did it? Y'know, that doesn't make me a psycho...
KKirby
No... Barry, you're overreacting, we didn't say you were a psycho--
Barry
You all just said that! Am I wrong? Isn't that what you guys are saying, that I'm a fuckin' psycho?! That's exactly what you fuckin' said! Y'know, it's really easy for you guys to sit here and weigh in on some shit that you don't know about, but it's, um, it's fuckin' lame, and it's not true.
CChris
Okay, what if I just turn myself in, okay-?
Barry
We're linked! We're linked. We're linked.
CChris
They won't know anything about you! Nothing about you!
Barry
We're linked on Facebook, Chris. I met your wife. You go to the cops, they'll figure it out. They'll find me, alright?
CChris
No, they won't, because they won't-
Barry
Yes, they will, they're looking for me!
CChris
They won't know anything!
Barry
They'll find out about me, they'll find out about Fuches, they'll find out about the acting class. Everyone will be dead, Chris-
CChris
Well, I don't fucking care, Barry! I killed a guy! Okay, now you might be cool with this shit, but I'm not! I got a wife and I got a kid, okay?! And then- and- and- she fucking knew! She knew! She knew something was up! When I came home, she knew it! And then I lied to her, and I told her that I was- I- I was going to the gym? Just now? But when I go back, she's gonna know. She's gonna know something is up, and it's gonna come out. So that's it. That's it, okay? I'm going to the cops, and I'm gonna tell them everything. And I- If I've gotta do some time, fine. But I'm coming clean.
Barry
Why did you say that?
CChris
Why did you Facebook me, dude?! You're a fucking hit man, and then you fucking Facebooked me-
Barry
WHY'D YOU JUST SAY THAT?!
[A silence passes over. Barry turns to Chris.]
Barry
I told you to get out of the car, man.
CChris
You know what? It's cool. I can keep quiet. I'm cool. And I- I didn't tell my wife... y'know, that- That I was going to the gym. I- I told her that I was... coming to see you.
[An SUV pulls up in the distance and a man steps out.]
CChris
I- I know you're not gonna... do anything crazy, Barry. I know you're a good guy.
[The SUV drives off]
CChris
So I'm gonna- I'm gonna drop you off. And I'm g- I am gonna keep. My fat. Trap. Shut. And then, y'know, I- I promise you, no one will ever know any-
[Barry holds Chris' hands to the steering wheel and pulls out a gun]
CChris
Wait. Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait-!
[From outside, the gun goes off, splattering the front window in blood and shattering the driver's side window. Having left the gun in Chris' hand, Barry slowly walks away.]
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