Monica quotes from Touched by an Angel

Monica

I just want to shake him, make him see what he's doing to himself.

Tess

It's not gonna happen 'til he hits bottom.

Monica

Why do I have to wait?

Tess

Hitting bottom's the only thing to bring him to his knees.

Monica

Shouldn't we be out looking for trouble?

Don't worry. It'll find us.

Monica

He'll be fine once he goes through withdrawal, won't he?

Tess

Well, it's not always that easy. Getting rid of the pills doesn't get rid of the problem.

I was in a hospital bed for a month. I was at home recuperating for five. And at first, I used the pills just to kill the physical pain. But as it got closer to me getting back to my job, I used them to kill the fear, d'you understand? Because the only thing I thought about was that bullet coming at me and the only thing that makes it disappear are the pills.

Monica

But now there's hardly anything left but the pills. Or anyone. You've pushed away everyone you love to protect a secret that you hate.

Monica

This bullet ripped through your body and your body survived. But your spirit is still bleeding. And that's because you weren't wearing your armor. There's only one thing in this world that's truly bulletproof and that's faith. Not faith in a gun that shoots or a radio that works or even faith in your own cop's instinct but the faith that you wrap yourself in every day of your life. The faith that no matter what happens, you won't lose God's love and all the bullets in the world can't pierce it and all the pills in the world can't replace it.

I'm really scared. I'm scared to live like this. I can't do that.

Monica

But God loves you, Zack. And with God on your side, what is there to fear? Nothing.

Tess

The simplest things are the hardest to say.

Monica

Like "I'm sorry". Like "I didn't mean to hurt you". Like "I love you". Like "We're gonna get through this somehow".

Tess

Like "Don't hog the bread"!

Monica

So I guess it's true.

Kathleen

Truth, I'm finding, is relative.

Monica

Or you just make it that way.

Kathleen

Why don't you stop by sometime, Booth #1? We can have tea, catch up. Angel to angel.

Monica

You're not an angel anymore. You know what you are.

Monica

I don't know when it started, maybe generations ago. But you've been caught on this family cycle of escape and hate. One father's anger fueling the rebellion of his son only to cause the next son to rebel and on it goes and it has to stop! It has to stop tonight because the next son to be angry with his father will be Daniel. You owe your son an apology.

Yes, ma'am. I know. I've been trying.

Monica

And I have a message for you. God loves you, Matt. You can never change what Ty has done but you can change tonight. You can change what you do to hold on to this pain.

Forgive and forget.

Monica

Forgiveness won't change him but it will change you. And I think that's what He wants for you.

It's gonna take some time.

Monica

Maybe you don't have much time. We don't always know when it's too late until it's too late.

Monica

There are so many people in the world who have never seen what you and I have seen, but they believe anyway. But you ... You have seen Him and still you walked away. I don't understand. Don't you miss us?

Kathleen

What if I did? I've made my choice. Besides, I'm having too much fun.

Monica

I'll never forget who you were. Who I loved. But I can't say I'm sorry to see you go.

Kathleen

You turned out to be a hell of an angel, Monica. Next time, I won't underestimate you.

Tess

Well, the problem with most driven people is they make the mistake of thinking they're doing the driving. That's how accidents happen.

Monica

Is anything ever really an accident, Tess?

Tess

What difference does it make? You're gonna have to handle it when it happens.

Welcome to God's Country.

Monica

Well, I suppose it started out that way.

Tess

How about you, honey? Blood banks can always use extra.

Monica

I don't know that I can give blood.

Tess

Oh, I bet you can. I bet your blood is purer than the driven snow.

Debra

[Mother]'d say things like "You won't get the blue ribbon for running half the race" or "You're a waste of space if you're not in first place." But somehow she really had a way of inspiring me to be my best.

Monica

Your best or hers?

Monica

You may not realize it but the night you tried to take your own life, you actually succeeded.

Debra

I didn't die.

Monica

No, but the best part of you did. The part of you that's human, that's Debra. And all that remained was the part that couldn't let anything less than perfect survive....You have the right to be less than perfect.

Debra

I can't do it right all the time!

Monica

I know that. God knows that. How can He blame you for being human when He made you human?

Debra

God really loves me.

Monica

Yes, and there's not a thing you can do about it.