Monica quotes from Touched by an Angel

Sydney

Do you have any idea what it's like to watch your own mother self-destruct? I love her. She's ... She's my mother but I've given up.

Monica

No! You must never give up, Sydney.

Sydney

You know ... You know what the really hard thing is? It's that I know. I know what I need to do. I know what it's gonna take. It's just I can't do it alone.

Monica

Well, then. I'll help you.

Monica

Why didn't you tell me from the start?

Tess

Well, when you met Elizabeth, you made friends with a very strong and talented and interesting woman. If you had known then what you know today, you might have just seen the alcoholic and not the woman. And that's who we love and that's who we wanna help.

Monica

But she doesn't want any help.

Tess

Then it's up to you to help her want it.

Elizabeth

And here it is. The pin from my ejection seat.

Monica

The pilot gave this to you?

Elizabeth

Honey, we lost two wheels in ground fire. There was no way I was going to try to land that thing. He thought it was the least I deserved.

Monica

God loves you.

Elizabeth

Why?

Monica

Because you're Elizabeth. Not Elizabeth the journalist or the prizewinner or the alcoholic but because you're you. God loves you. Elizabeth, this is not who you were created to be. You spent your whole life running and running and trying so hard to catch up to something that was never there for you. But all you've done was go farther and farther away from that precious love that is always there for you. Now you've almost lost that completely.

Elizabeth

[Incomprehensibly, in tears] I'm sorry. I'm sorry! Oh, God, I'm so sorry!! What am I gonna do?

Monica

You just did it.

Tess

Any marimba playing going on in there?

Monica

Beautiful music, Tess. Beautiful music.

Tess

That's gonna be some kind of interesting book of memoirs she's gonna write.

Monica

Right. It'll be worth waiting for.

Tess

It always is, baby. It always is.

Monica

I'm afraid of the water.

Tess

Say that again?

Monica

I never had to work near lakes and oceans. I always asked to be excused from those and I was. Bad memories of the Flood, I guess.

Tess

This is ridiculous! What is the first thing an angel says? "Fear not. Be not afraid. Except for large bodies of water." Is that it?

Monica

I know there's nothing to be afraid of. I know it doesn't make any sense.

Tess

Well, actually, it makes good sense now. The thing you're terrified of is something she loves.

Monica

Who?

Tess

Your next assignment, Angela Evans. She's fighting a terrible fear. The kind that comes in the night and whispers in your ear 'til dawn and then sends you running to the sea just to get the voices to quit for a little while. But Angela's voices won't quit. Not until her own voice drowns them out.

Angela

I love your accent. You must be from the old country, huh?

Monica

Yes, Very, very old.

Angela

It's funny. You seem to have all this wisdom but you don't know how to make a cup of coffee.

Monica

That's the spice of life, I think. Everyone's on a different schedule. Maybe this is the night I'm supposed to learn how to make coffee. And maybe this is the night you're supposed to tell Carter the truth.

Monica

Something's happening to me, Tess. I'm afraid.

Tess

Like being afraid of the sea? Sometimes we're afraid of what we can't control. But Angela is going to make her decision to let her secret free or to bury it deeper.

Monica

I wish I could make that decision for her.

Tess

That's not what love does.

Monica

I've never had a friend before.

Tess

And what am I? Chopped liver?

Monica

You know what I mean. The more I get to know about human beings, the more I get to know about myself.

Angela

You saved me. Are you...?

Monica

I am an angel.

Angela

Like... Like a real angel? Sent by...?

Monica

Sent by God.

Angela

I knew there was something about you. Something so strong. Something so fearless. Something...Something I wanted to be. [Starts to cry]

Monica

Shh...Look at me. Look at me, Angela. You are strong. You had the courage to make a sacrifice to save someone that you loved. And you taught me a lesson today. That love erases fear. For when I saw you out there, I would have dived into the deepest ocean to bring you back.

Angela

It might not have been such a good idea.

Monica

You made the choice, Angela. You want to live. You just don't want to live like this.

Angela

But I can't change the past....Can you?

Monica

[Shakes her head] But all you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And it is this moment right now that you can choose to make everything new.

Angela

You know something about almost dying?

Monica

No. actually, I don't.

Angela

All of a sudden, there's not a whole lot more to be afraid of.

Monica

You know, Tess, sometimes you can be really pushy.

Tess

That's what friends are for.

Monica

[Witnessing a birth] I've never seen it from this side before. Oh, isn't it something?

How long have you been working on OD? I haven't seen you around here before.

Monica

I've been working upstairs.

Cassie

I know I'm not supposed to see the baby because then I won't want to give her up and the baby won't want to go either. But all I can think of is how down that hall, there's a part of me I may never see again. What's it gonna be like in 20 years from now if I never saw her? What's it gonna be like if I did? What should I do?

Monica

Cassie, that's a decision that only you can make. But I believe that if you truly make that decision out of nothing but love, it'll be a decision you can live with.

Cassie

What kind of nurse are you? Aren't you a little far from the hospital?

Monica

I'm a floater. I go where I'm needed.

Monica

Tess, what am I supposed to be doing with Cassie? Am I supposed to get her to go back to the Feldmans? Or am I supposed to help her keep her baby?

Tess

You're supposed to help her become a good mother.