Ah, there's more than one kind of silence. In the real world you can live in denial, but not in here, not with your death on the docket. How long you got left, Wendall? I bet you already know. I bet you're counting the days. And I bet you're terrified.
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Do you think you're above it, Holden? Hmm? We ain't that different, you and me, two sides of the same coin.
The body has its own wisdom. There's a logic to how it works. It's important for you to know it's nothing you did. Up to 25% of all pregnancies end in miscarriage. It's very common early on. Usually it's due to chromosomal abnormalities, something not right in the egg, the sperm, the division process. It's nature's way of preventing serious defects.
As long as I can remember, I've had to follow you around, mom. Literally. Couldn't have started out that way. You must have come to me at some point, when I was in my crib. And even when I got you to stop and look at me, to acknowledge my existence, I still couldn't tell what you were thinking. Or feeling. So I always felt like I had to guess, or fill in the blanks, or push for some clue, until you would just get mad at me.
And I know that's your nature, mom. Just like it's Daniel's to be so... [sighs] maddeningly private. But because it's not my nature, or because I don't always read between the lines, or understand that language, or because I want people to speak to me in my language sometimes, that does not make me the bad guy.
I have lived in this world for some time, Amantha, and one thing I have learned it is not fair, and it is not just. The world is absurd. And if I could just have him, and you, and Jared, and my family... [sighs] What else is there?
I didn't just want to get you out, Daniel. I wanted to clear your name. Our name. And you can say that people are gonna think what they're gonna think, but there is a difference. There is a difference.
