Rayanne Graff quotes from My So-Called Life

Rayanne, you've been sober for over a month! It's time you get a support system in place.

Rayanne

I already have a support system!

Really? Who?

Rayanne

Well, Rickie. Angela.

This, this Angela? Isn't she the one you said you feel distant from these past few weeks?

Rayanne

Well, she got herself a guy, but it's nothing to worry about.

Rayanne

Lolly?

Rayanne

I can take care of myself, okay?! So just leave me alone!

Angela

What's wrong? I thought she gave up drinking?

Rickie

She's drunk.

You don't have to go to school today.

Rayanne

No, I want to. Poor Rickie probably had, like, 40 heart attacks.

I just need to know that you have a support system in place.

Rayanne

I don't need a support system. I got friends.

That's exactly why I'm raising this. I mean, didn't you mention to me that you've had some feelings of distance from your friends since, you know... the incident?

Rayanne

What incident?

I'm talking about the night you nearly died, the night that Angela's mother rushed you to the hospital. Now didn't you tell me that since that night you've felt some distance between yourself and your friend Angela?

Rayanne

I never said 'distance.' I just don't see her that much. It's not 'cause a some incident, it's, it's 'cause she's got this guy that she's, like, involved with. Which she wouldn't even have if it wasn't for me.

And you don't feel any awkwardness around Angela?

Rayanne

No. The thing with Angela is that even with this stupid obsession with this guy, she's, like, totally there for me.

Rayanne

Just so you know, I, uh, I didn't drink yhat whiskey. I poured it back. You can ask Angela.

Patty

You haven't had one drink? Since that night in the hospital?

Rayanne

No. Swear to God.

Patty

Why didn't you tell me that you had stopped seeing your counselor?

Rayanne

I don't know. Maybe just 'cause I wanted you to think I was okay, so you wouldn't mind if I, you know, stayed friends with Angela.

Patty

I guess she means a lot to you, huh?

Rayanne

I guess that's, like, the one thing you and I have in common.

Rayanne

Thanks for the ride, Mrs. Chase.

Patty

Rayanne?

Rayanne

Yo.

Patty

Apparently you and I are in the same karass. Call me Patty.

Rayanne

Patty, thanks. For, like...for my life.

Angela

[coming out on the fire escape] Hi. I've never been out here before. So Rickie was really scared. I mean, I was, too. [silence from Rayanne] So, what, you're mad at me? Because I didn't get to hear you sing?

Rayanne

You didn't miss much, just me making a fool out of myself, and you've seen that plenty. Right? Anyway, I knew you wouldn't show. I can't stand these looks anymore.

Angela

What looks?

Rayanne

You and Rickie looking at me like I'm gonna lose control, like any minute I'm gonna go on some jag or something. I just can't stand knowing what you're thinking about me.

Angela

What? What am I thinking?

Rayanne

I'm messed up. That I'm too messed up for you to be my friend anymore.

Angela

Rayanne, that's not true. I never-- I'm still your friend. Nothing's changed. [voiceover] But that wasn't completely true either. And we both, like, knew it.

Rayanne

Boy, people get swept up in this Christmas thing, huh?

Angela

You mean you don't?

Rayanne

Yeah, but my mom and I like to wait... for stuff to go on sale.

Sharon

[voiceover] I resolve to never again have sex with Kyle, or anyone, again, unless I really love and respect them.

[voiceover]... to spend more time with the dog, and Sharon.

[voiceover] ... um, give up coffee, there, that's an easy one.

Brian

[voiceover] I resolve to stop obsessing over Angela Chase.

Danielle

[voiceover] ... to badger Mom into letting me wear make-up.

Rickie

[voiceover] ... to find some place where I like really, belong.

Rayanne

[voiceover] ... to stop drinking, but this time, like, really stop.

Patty

[voiceover] I resolve to be less judgmental, less critical, to lighten up! And above all, to be more supportive, and less suspicious. [about Graham] No matter how much it seems like he's hiding something.

Graham

[voiceover] ... to tell Hallie Lowenthal once and for all that I'm not going into restaurant business with her... And to stop all those long talks with her after class.

Brian Krakow has Rayanne Graff chained to a bed

Rayanne

[talking about key for handcuffs] Brian, you idiot, that's not gonna fit. It's too big!

Danielle

You're awake?

Rayanne

I can't sleep. Too bored to sleep. Could you do me a favor?

Danielle

I could for money.

Rayanne

Girl after my very own heart. Okay, here's what you do. You go down to the liquor cabinet. You give me a bottle. Anything brown. I'll give you a dollar.

Danielle

Nope.

Rayanne

Two dollars.

Danielle

It's wrong to drink.

Rayanne

You have a real miserable side to you, you know that?

Danielle

My parents say you're a bad influence. I heard 'em talking about the things you do. Why do you do 'em?

Rayanne

I don't know. See, okay, when I look at myself, I see everything in, like, slow motion, and I think, "Something has to happen." Only, it never does. So I have to make it happen.

Rayanne

Look, I don't want to get into any big discussion or anything.

Angela

Oh, neither do I.

Rayanne

Oh, then why'd you ask me to stay?

Angela

The key? [Rayanne smiles, pretends she doesn't have it, before returning it] I knew you couldn't resist.

Rayanne

Party pooper.

Angela

Weekend from hell.

Danielle

[voiceover] That was the best weekend of my entire life.