[reads a patient file] Ooh, "Raynbow". I'm gonna add that to my list of baby names.
Yep, right after Bubba, Toolio, and Agamemnon.
Agamemnon? That-that is that's-that's pretty.
[chuckles] No, it's not. It's child abuse. But Callie keeps shooting down all the cute names I suggest so my new strategy is to bury the cute names in a sea of terrible ones.
You do remember how hard it was to find the money to keep this place going. The foundation was our Hail Mary, and you saved us. We have to find a way to make it work with them.
I was there the night your mother won her first Harper Avery. I wasn't with her. I-I was sitting in the back.
Because my father was with her?
That award was our gold standard. It was the measure of our success. It was everything we worked for. And I had to be there to see the look on her face. She was radiant. Catherine made it meaningless with this. She cheapened it. She cheapened our goals. She cheapened her memory. I can't stand that.
Just finished an craniotomy with Dr. Shepherd.
Uh, sorry. It's just very confusing.
I kind of like it, Shepherdess.
Oh, well, before, it was just "Shepherd's little sister."
Edwards, do you like working on neuro? Don't ever say that to me again.
No it's slowing down, what are you still doing here? What time is your flight?
I can't leave Mer, they just bombed Seattle.
No they didn't, no one did, it was an accident. Gas-made. So no different than a train derailment or a ferry boat crash. So you can go.
When I heard it was the mall, you know what I thought of? I thought of that time me and Callie played hooky and we bought all the furniture for the fire house.
Two hours, but Link has got a heart and I have to do that first.
No you don't, the new head of cardio can do that, you don't have the time.. plus you'll have to re scrub so there's that! [touching Cristina's clean arms]
You have been stalling for two weeks!
I have to finish something here. Nothing feels finished. None of it feels finished. Owen and I, we split over something that hasn't even happened, and we never even split up. And you and I are not finished, George is dead and Izzie is gone, and it's supposed to be me, you, and Alex, and now nothing is finished. I am not finished!
You don't feel finished because this isn't the end for you. There is no finish line, there is no end point. You just have to go.
I know, I know. and I keep trying to but I don't know how to just do it. You gotta help me Mer.
[to Meredith] Text me, and don't let Owen get all dark and twisty. Take care of him, and Alex, take care of Alex. He needs to be mocked at least once a day, or he'll be insufferable. Don't get on any little tiny planes that can crash, or stick your hand in a body cavity that has a bomb in it, or offer your life to a gunman. Don't do that! Don't be a hero... you're my person... I need you alive. You make me brave. Okay, now we dance it out.
...
[about Derek] You are a gifted surgeon with an extraordinary mind, don't let what he wants eclipse what you need. He is very dreamy, but he's not the sun, you are.
And you were supposed to be stepping back! You said "Take this year and make it count. And I'll make sure you can do it." And you lied!
I'm sorry. I lied. It's a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.
So you got this thing and I gave up that piece, and I found a way to make it work, with my job, my kids, and my research with less help from you and I did it!
You're not a victim. I'm killing myself as much as you are!
And then you wanted more and more pieces! And now this is just too much. You can't just drag us away so I can live in your shadow!
You have a job, you could be working in James Madison.
Right, and that's how my father got his first job here. They wanted my mom, so she had to call the University and pulled some strings and find something for Thatcher to do! It's all how the trailing starts.
This is exactly that! And it's not what I signed up for.
You know, you're being selfish!
Well, I have to be, Derek, because you believe that your career is more important than mine.
Well, at this moment in time it is!
No, not in this moment, always! You will always be that hot-shot doctor and I will always be that young intern that fell in love with you.
That's how you see yourself. That's your problem, I can't do anything to fix that.
That's not how I see myself; that is the issue here!
D.C., you can do your surgeries, you can do your research, you can do the portal veins, there is nothing here that you can't do there.
But I don't want to! We're not just talking about my job Derek, We're talking about my life. I grew up here, I made my family here, I helped rebuild the hospital here that has my sister's name on it, my mother's name, my name! I live here, my life is here, I'm staying here. I don't want to leave.
You're asking me to choose between this job and my family?
I am simply saying I am not going anywhere. I am staying here.
[opening voice over] When I was 5, my mom lost me in a park. I don't remember much, except that one minute I was riding the carousel, and the next, she was gone. I don't remember how I found her. I don't remember how I got home. All I remember is what happened next. She told me not to worry. She told me everything would be fine. She told me it was time to play the quiet game, so I knew I wasn't supposed to ask any questions. Or else, I might have told her I forgot my doll. I loved that doll so much. It killed me to leave it behind. Funny, isn't it, the way memory works?
You really should get your locks changed.
(Alex and Jo wake up, shocked.)
I need to talk to Alex. Wilson, get out of the bed. I can't get in the bed with you in there.
You can't kick me out of bed!
I don't care about your boobs, Wilson. Out.
(Jo puts on a shirt and gets out bed as Meredith gets in the bed.)
I guess I'll go make us some coffee since I'm up.
This is not our thing now, okay? You can't just start showing up at all hours and... I mean, this is not what we do.
I told Derek I am not moving to D.C. The children and I are staying here.
All right, the miracle is over.
The miracle is not over. We're not a miracle. Shut up.
You can't break into my house and wake me up to talk and then tell me to shut up!
I'm a widow. She widowed me. I'll never have Alex to myself again.
Her best friend just left yesterday, okay? She needs someone to talk to. You are overreacting.
She kicked me out of my own bed in the middle of the night, while I was naked, and he let her.
Okay. So, you're screwed.
Grab your stuff. We're drinking.
Oh, I... I can't. I have to go home and deal with...
Fight with Shepherd? I think you need to whine about it some more to me first. You definitely need to drink.
What are you afraid of, that I'm gonna...
I'm afraid you're gonna keep crawling in my bed in the middle of the night. Look, Yang left me her shares and her board seat and she left me you, too. It's just us now. I don't know... if you need somebody to bitch to or just be...
I don't know what you mean.
(They hug.)
I just don't know if my marriage can survive this.