I feel my heartburn flaring up and it just gets worse when I lay down. There's no chance I'm gonna sleep tonight so I'll just watch some TV or something and try to zone out.
No, really, it's ok. I could watch anything right now. [chuckles] I saw this infomercial last night about this egg thingy that removes dead skin from the bottom of your feet. [chuckles] I realized I can't even see my feet. [laughs and suddenly begins to cry] Oh, Roxy, what am I gonna do? Frank is gone and Jeremy is gone and I'm so tired and I'm just gonna be tired for the rest of my life. And baby's not gonna sleep for months and then she's gonna need carpool and then she'll be a teenager and she'll hate me and want to.... [chuckles] Oh god...and then she'll go to college and she'll meet a boy and she'll get married and she'll..... [worried] Oh, what if it doesn't work out and she moves back home and then....I'll hate her?? Or what if it does work out and she has babies and then I'll be a grandmother!...And then I'll have to watch them and then the babies won't sleep and then what am I gonna do?!?? [starts crying again]