What kind of teacher are you? You don't just teach what to do with their hands, you teach them what to do with this. How to live through this. You take it on yourself.
You don't! You are the attending. This is your loss. Okay? You take the hit. Because if you put it on her, she might quit. She might think that she can't survive it, so you show her that she can. You tell her that when this happened to me--
You know I was always a fine surgeon. But I am an excellent teacher, and today I was complete failure. I know you thought this program had problems, but it sure as hell has them now.
Bailey was my favorite student. I brought her in as an intern. I saw her all the way through to chief. She was my start to finish. And you turned her against me.
[closing voice-over] Once things start going wrong, it's hard to break the cycle. Murphy's law is not physics. It's just a thing a guy said to try and make sense of a crappy day. Just because things go wrong, it doesn't mean they're out of our control. It's on us to fix things. It's on us to take everything that can go wrong, and make it go right. It's on us to try, anyway.
[opening voice-over] I don't do reunions. High school, undergrad, med school... I don't need to make superficial conversation with a bunch of people I barely remember. If I want to keep someone in my life, I keep them in my life. Or maybe it's just that I don't know how to get rid of them.
They gave up on her. They just buried an empty box in the ground and moved on. They had lattes, saw movies. They just lived their lives, and all the while their daughter was out there walking around in the rain, in pain and alone. And they'll never forgive themselves for that. They shouldn't.
When Derek died, there was just one day. Just one day where I didn't know where he was. I pretended everything would be okay, but inside I was going crazy. I guess it's like that for Nathan every day.
[closing voice-over]I don't do reunions, but I can see why people do. They can make you feel like you haven't felt in a long time. It's comfy, it's familiar, it's kind of like coming home. You see how people turned out if they realized their hopes and dreams or if they have lost their hopes and dreams. Or maybe you see that they have found what we all should find... brand new hopes and dreams.
[opening voice-over] There's an old story of a father who had two sons. When he knew a civil war was about to break out, he sent one son to fight for the North, and one to the South. He figured if he had sons on both sides, there'd be a better chance one would survive. Because when you fight a war at home, the casualties are your neighbors, your friends, your family, leaving you all alone.
Let me make something very clear to you, if you want to get anywhere with me, messing with Alex is not the way. Do not contradict him in front of patients, and please don't speak to him like he's an idiot.
No banter. No more quips. I'll tell you what I think. I think about you. A lot. I can't stop. I'm telling you, I am in. If you are. I'm in this. So I'm just, I'm just going to ask you outright. What do you think?
[closing voice-over] War isn't civil. You pick sides and defend them. You attack. You hurt people. You get hurt. You fight, and you fight, and you fight. To what end? What are we fighting against? What are we fighting for? When is it time to just quit all of this nonsense and simply surrender?
[opening voice-over] Freezing. Choking. Getting tongue-tied. It's what we call it when your mind goes from brilliant to blank. You can prepare all you want, but the feeling can still hit you, out of nowhere. So when it hits you, when your mind shuts down, when you open your mouth and no words come out, the good news is, it happens to all of us.
I stared at him from across the room thinking he would see me. Recognize. My face, my eyes, anything. All I got was 'you good?' No recognition. Like I was anyone. No one.
Jackson, I know what a good father is. I had one my whole life. Jackson, you are a good father...You came here to tell him something. Don't leave here until you do.
