[enters to see Nate embarrassed] You may have won the game, but you lost control of the team. And in the long run. if you don't lead, you're gonna lose. [sighs] You need to take a step back, Nate. I said take a step back. [starts attacking Nate, getting into fight with him]
GET THE FUCK OFF ME! GET THE–GET THE FUCKING HANDS OFF ME, YOU FUCKING FAGGOT!! GET THE FUCK OFF!!! GET THE FUCK OFF!!
Stop fighting! Stop fighting!
You need to stop! You had enough?! Keep fighting!
[pins Nate down, furiously screams in his face] DO YOU WANT TO KEEP FIGHTING?!?! HUH?!?! You think you're tough now, huh?! Come on, Nate!
[Nate starts crying from his dad's furious outburst, then starts screaming and crying and throwing his temper tantrum, which scares Cal into leaving his room]
I fucking hate this town.
If I could, I'd burn it to the fucking ground.
And salt the earth behind you. [beat] Jules, are you in love with Anna?
Are you, um... Are you in love with me?
Do you wish I was different? [pause; Jules shakes her head] Let's get the fuck out of here. Come on.
[Rue and Jules leave the auditorium steps and ride their bikes to Jules' house. They walk upstairs to Jules' bedroom and start packing their belongings.]
Jules... Is this a bad idea?
[Jules kisses Rue, then resumes packing her duffel bag]
[beat; quietly] What the fuck?
[Later, Rue starts having seconds about leaving town just as she and Jules are about to board a train]
Jules, I just realized that I didn't bring my medication.
We can get medication, like, everywhere.
Yeah, but I don't think it's–You know, I can't miss a day, you know?
Rue, we'll figure it out. I promise.
[beat] Jules, I don't–I don't think this is a good idea.
I–I know it was my idea, but I just... I don't think it's a good idea anymore is what I'm trying to tell you.
It was a fucking great idea. I don't know what you're talking about.
Can you–Can you slow down? 'Cause I'm thinking, you know, my mom. I don't want her to fucking freak out, alright? I don't want–
Rue, it's not that far, and, like... [chuckling] We're good. It's... You can–We can call.
Okay, what am I gotta tell Gia, though, you know? Like, she's gonna wake up in the fucking morning. She's gonna think I'm missing.
[Jules, still holding Rue's hand, gets on the train]
We're good. Come on. It's gonna be amazing. [pause; Rue looks wistfully at her] Rue!
[Jules laughs, but notices Rue is on the verge of tears. She realizes that Rue truly doesn't want to run away with her anymore.]
Come on. [whispering, as Rue cries] Please. I love you.
[Rue stays behind, even after Jules kisses her hand in one last attempt to convince Rue to join her. Rue solemnly watches the train leave the station.]
Yo, you Rue's friend, right?
Yeah, since preschool. Sorry, I don't know why I said that.
Nah, you good. You met where you met. Yo, what was your name again?
Lexi... I like that. That's a nice name.
So did you, like, have a good Christmas, or are you Jewish or somethin'?
Yeah, well, my mom's Jewish, but she always says, "If the Christians can steal Christmas from the pagans, then the Jews can also."
You say the Christians stole Christmas?
Well, in order to convert the Germanic pagans who, like, celebrated winter solstice and stuff, the Christians were like, "Fuck it. Let's just say Jesus was born this day, and you can hang tinsel and stuff."
How you just go and change the man's birthday?
Well, in the same way King James was rewriting the Bible on one side of the castle, and had witches trying to turn his pee into gold on the other.
Yo, how the fuck do you know all this?
I don't know, by reading.
Do you, like, not believe in God? [Lexi shakes her head] Damn, Lexi... You fuckin' fearless.
Thanks. Do you believe in God?
Hell yeah, I believe in God.
Like, there's a man sitting in the clouds... judging all of your actions and stuff?
Can I ask you a personal question?
How do you justify dealing drugs, then?
Well, I mean, my Uncle Carl got diabetes from eatin' too much McDonald's. You don't see nobody goin' after they ass.
Yeah, but if I were God, I don't know if I'd let McDonald's CEO in Heaven. I'd be like, "Fuck that guy."
Yeah, that's a good point. I have to get back to you on that one.
[Nate and Cassie are having sex in the bathroom when Maddy knocks on the door]
I'm using the fucking bathroom!
[covers Cassie's mouth with his hand] Shh! [to Maddy] Uh, just a sec! Hold on! [Maddy knocks on the door again] Yo, just a minute!
Open the fucking door, Nate! I have to pee!
[to Cassie] Are you fucking crying?
[tries to calm Cassie down] Shh, there's no fucking reason to cry. You haven't been caught.
I have to pee, Nate! Open the door!
[to Cassie] Calm down and put your clothes on.
[whispering] I can't... [sobs] She's my best friend.
Open the door! I need to pee!
I'm just using the bathroom! Just a second! Fucking pee outside!
...Are you taking a shit at a party?
...
You're so disgusting. I can smell it! I hear you taking a shit!
[crying] We shouldn't have done this.
I need you to focus, okay?
What are you fucking doing?
[gets herself back in a standing position] I'm so scared. I'm really scared, Nate.
[Cassie continues crying as Maddy continues banging on the door]
Hey, look at me. Look at me. I need you to trust me. I need you to trust me, okay?
Wipe your ass and come out! I need to pee!
[to Cassie] I need you to listen to exactly what I say.
I'm gonna break this fucking door, Nate! Open the fucking door!
TTravis
You waiting for the bathroom?
TTravis
A lot of people know me.
TTravis
Yeah. You're the girl I met on New Year's Eve standing in line for the bathroom.
[Nate finally opens the door and walks out of the bathroom]
Wait, did you not wash your hands?
What the fuck are you talking about, Maddy?
I can't believe you took a shit at a party and you didn't wash your hands.
TTravis
Yo, wassup? My name's Travis. I would shake your hand, but I don't wanna get hepatitis.
[to Maddy] Yo, can we talk somewhere in private?
No, because I have to fucking pee. Move.
[As Maddy walks into the bathroom, Cassie is revealed to be hiding in the bathtub]
Hey, where'd you go? I was startin' to miss you.
Why would I lie? You're, like, the coolest person in here. Yo, I gotta cut soon, but... I just wanna tell you that... talkin' to you was one of the best parts of my whole year.
Why you always doin' that shit?
I don't know, like, doubtin' yourself and shit.
Oh, I don't know. Do I do that?
Mmm, kinda. Yo... Can I, like, get your phone number or somethin'?
What's up, man? You havin' a good time?
You make any New Year's resolutions?
[smiles] The last time we talked, didn't you say you wanted to kill me?
Yeah, well... It's a new year, playboy.
[After raising their cups in a toast, Fez smashes a liquor bottle over Nate's head and beats him viciously to the shock of the partygoers. McKay pulls Fez away from Nate as other guests try to break up the fight.]
VVirgil
Chill, chill, chill! Come on, guys, it's New Year! Come on!
[Fez walks away, leaving Lexi speechless. Rue and Jules are in shock as they watch Cassie, Maddy and McKay carry Nate out of the house.]
Cassie, I asked you a question.
I’m not asking you. I’m asking her.
I already told Mrs. Jacobs I didn’t see anything.
I know. We just don’t believe you.
Look, Cassie, I’m more than happy to get the Chief of Police, Bill Greenwood, involved. Old family friend. Maybe he should have this conversation with you. With everyone, in fact. You know? Get everyone’s cell phones. Text histories. Find out what exactly happened. Should we do that instead? [beat; Cassie looks over at Lexi] Don’t look at her. Look at me.
[Cut to Cassie and Lexi in their bedroom after Cassie confesses what happened]
What?! What was I supposed to do?
You heard him! He was going to call the police!
No, he wasn’t. He was bluffing, and you fell for it ’cause you’re a fucking idiot!
Because you just ruined someone’s life!
Fezco almost killed Nate! That was his decision!
[Lexi lies in her bed in frustration]
[V.O.] Lexi had thought about that night a lot. How could Fezco be so kind to her, and so violent towards Nate? She couldn’t remember the last time someone her age asked her so many questions about herself. He actually cared about what she had to say. And then, ten minutes later… almost beat Nate Jacobs to death. And even if Nate deserved it, it was a horrible thing to do. It made her think about her entire life. How she’s always been so passive. How she never had the courage to say anything. And even the time when she did get the courage to say something...
Rue, you really need to get help.
What, are you gonna tell my mom or something?
[V.O.] ...she backed down. She hated herself for being so weak and passive and afraid. So, a couple of days after Cal came over, she decided to say something.
[V.O.] It was the first day of school after the new year. And I finally had everything I’d ever wished for. [to Jules] You know you’re like a dream?
[chuckles] I didn’t know you were such a romantic, Rue.
[Rue sees Elliot walking down the hallway and immediately gets tense]
[V.O.] Oh, fuck… I completely forgot he goes to our school.
[V.O.] If this asshole says anything about doing drugs, I will literally slit his throat in the quad.
You kinda checked out for a second.
[Elliot notices Rue and makes his way towards her]
[V.O.] Please, God, do not fuck up my life.
Hey, I'm Elliot. Nice to meet you.
Sorry, introductions are usually very overwhelming and… debilitating for me… at least.
...Uh, so, how do you know Elliot?
[beat; chuckles] Oh shit, yeah. That was it, New Year’s. That’s… That’s where we met. [pause] Jules is my girlfriend.
Wow… I didn’t know you were, um…
[V.O.] The other thing I wish I could mention is I sort of spent the last few days hanging out with Elliot. Which was cool ’cause he makes a ton of money selling music stems online, and we bought a bunch of drugs.
Um… it was nice to meet you, and I’ll see you later, Rue.
[to Jules] I love you. Bye.
[Rue just stands still in the hallway with Elliot as Jules walks off]
[V.O.] Fuck. Was it just me or was that super awkward?
[V.O.] Now, at the time, I didn’t know how much the Elliot thing upset Jules. But I never thought that Jules was like clingy or jealous, so I didn’t think it’d be a big deal.
The fact that you’re even asking me to explain it to you is kind of an even bigger deal.
Oh, I don’t understand how such a small fucking thing has become such a big fucking thing.
'Cause it hurt my feelings.
'Cause I can tell you have a crush on him.
I do not have a fucking crush on him.
Then why else would you forget meeting him? Like, “Oh, that’s right. New Year’s.”
Jules, it’s not like that.
Well, I hope not. That would really suck.
Um, I gotta be home in 15 minutes, or else I’m gonna get grounded for another two weeks. I’ll see ya later, Rue.
I feel like I would look so sexy pregnant.
Maddy, please do not get pregnant.
I wouldn't wear any of those nasty maternity clothes. I would just be me, plus pregnant.
BBB
Remember when I got pregnant?
Yes, and it would be nothing like that.
BBB
[to Kat] Well, speaking of baby daddies, I seen the photo that Ethan posted to you. It's cute as fuck.
Yeah, Kat, stop flaunting your healthy, non-abusive, wonderful relationship. It's actually triggering.
Yeah, he's um, really sweet.
[V.O.] Ethan made plans with Kat to go bowling that night. Kat was depressed because she couldn’t figure out why she didn’t love Ethan. So she decided to make a list of pros and cons. But she couldn’t think of anything, which made her realize Ethan might not be the problem.
Mmm... [mimics shooting herself in the head and falls aside]
[V.O.] Kat hated herself. But the problem with hating yourself is you can’t really talk about it. Because at some point recently, the whole world joined a self-help cult and won’t shut the fuck up about it.
IAInfluencer Amanda LaCount
[in an online tutorial video] It’s not gonna solve all your life problems, but it is gonna solve... [Kat closes laptop]
IAInfluencer Andrea Somer
[standing in bathroom doorway] Kat. You’re one of the bravest, most beautiful human beings I have ever seen.
[with her mouth full] That’s not true.
IAInfluencer Andrea Somer
Yes, it is. I wish I had your confidence.
But I don’t, like... feel healthy.
IAInfluencer Andrea Somer
Yes, you are.
No, like... seriously. I’m not.
IAInfluencer Andrea Somer
Kat, you just have to love yourself.
But that’s what I’m trying to tell you! I fucking hate myself!
IEInfluencer Emily Roslyn Villarreal
Every day you get out of bed... it’s an act of courage.
That’s easy for you to say. You don’t have, like, fucking mental problems.
IEInfluencer Emily Roslyn Villarreal
Yes, I do. Why do you think I look like this?
Are you kidding? I wish my mental problems made me look like you.
IEInfluencer Emily Roslyn Villarreal
Trust me, you don’t
Trust me, I do! You’re like the most beautiful person I’ve ever fucking seen.
IEInfluencer Emily Roslyn Villarreal
Maybe by a white, cis-male, heteronormative standard.
[lies in bed and covers face with pillow] Oh, my God! Are you fucking joking?!
IBInfluencer Bree Kish
[rips pillow off and yells] Kat! Are you fucking serious?! That’s not you fucking talking! It’s the patriarchy!
It is me talking! You are not listening!
IBInfluencer Bree Kish
No! Society puts things into your mind!
I don’t care about society! I feel like shit!
IEInfluencer Eden Rose
Kat, you need to smash all beauty standards!
But I can’t even get out of bed!
IAInfluencer Annie Hsu
You have to love yourself.
IJInfluencer Jackie Winn
You need to find your inner fuckin’ warrior!
ICInfluencer Chloe Bunce
Become a bad bitch!
IAInfluencer Amanda LaCount
Just like you did last year!
But that wasn’t even real.
IJInfluencer Jewell Farshad
It looked real.
IEInfluencer Emily Roslyn Villarreal
I found it inspiring.
[gets up out of bed] Shut the fuck up!
IGInfluencer Group
[chanting, repeatedly swarming and following Kat] Love yourself!
[goes into the bathroom, shouts with influencers following her, shouting and pointing] Leave me alone! Get the fuck out!
[Kat glances at phone and sees a text message from Ethan:
"Be there in 20 mins".
[She looks up and notices that all influencers disappeared]
