Haley in “Don't You Want to Share the Guilt”

Haley

[to Julian] When Jamie was 5, I think, Nathan and I were in the kitchen at night, arguing. I remember looking out the window and I saw him playing basketball by the pool. Somewhere between all the yelling and the next time I looked out, he had disappeared and uh, I went outside and he was floating face down in the pool. And we didn’t know how long he had been out there. Nathan pulled him in, and eventually he coughed and he cried, but he was okay. And I felt like I had damaged him. I felt like the worst parent in the world and it took me a really long time to forgive myself for that. But, I did eventually. And you will too, because your babies aren’t going anywhere. Your job doesn’t end. And the best part, we, as parents can do is just love them with all of our hearts. And try and do better next time.